#sapthick

its kinda scary to see for myself that losing control happens so fast, that the last amount of discipline i have left is barely enough to keep from gaining FASTER, but not able to help me maintain a weight.

Cutie eats like two horses,

fills 2XL jeans with her fluffy belly,

thighs and hips grow too.

I bet the japanese masters would be proud for what their art form has been used. first haiku i really dig and fitting to the source material.

Evidence

I was so naive to think that knowing and informing people that I have to maintain for some time (Surgery Prep & LARP Season) would help me, because it sets a clear plan and something to look forward to.

What's better to look forward to than finally letting go and become obese at an alarming rate for normal people?

But the kicker is: It does not help at all to know. Iam just getting giddier and more annoyed day by day, especially because i WANT to give in. I WANT to lose control and have my failure ensure that I can not fit into my LARP Clothes like a Cliche from a Weight Gain Comic. What's even worse is, that there are 2 people I'll meet for Dates soon that BOTH want to tie me up to feed me. I want - No - NEED that so bad.

And YOU are not making it easier. Even though iam still somewhat invisible in this community I already have Feeders sitting on my shoulders like little devils that want me to give in, to fail, to fatten up for their and mine pleasure, to embrace the greedy cow I am. Probably the only thing that would help would be to disconnect from the Community for some time, since it's dominating my entire existence.

But ... I don't want to.

I wanna fail.

I wanna be enabled.

And pathetically I wanna be acknowledged as a fat greedy cow, who is a slave to their need for food and fat.

Like you get any partner, i guess. I for one only dated for love and kink was always more like a bonus.

Meet us at places we frequent, like community groups, hobby groups, online in interest groups or in dating, be yourself and kind and hope that it just clicks. Making an effort is always nice, does not matter which side does ist though in my opinion.

If it's a feedee you wanna date your best bet is probably tumblr and feabie. You'll stand out from the crowd when you just treat us as people, show interest and your own personality and ask for consent before you go for the kink.

Bonus: Show us, once we've given consent, how much you value our fat bodies, and make an effort to be dependable as a person, partner AND a feeder. The moment we choose to gain weight for us and you, we give up a lot of power and at some point we will be more and more dependent on you.