#sanawar

how do i love someone else when i know you exist in this world? even the thought of moving on and living with someone else who is not you takes my breath away.

what is the point of this love when i’m so consumed in your existence and you aren’t even aware of mine? my heart feels so lonely even in the crowded places when you aren’t around.

some love stories are just not destined to have happy endings and ours maybe one of them.

I try forgetting you but it is the same hell as remembering you. Remembering you is a pain. it makes me want to smash my head; distracts me from doing anything; physically hurts me.

But forgetting is weird. It’s empty. Even if by any chance i make myself forget you (which btw is impossible), what would i do with the void left in my heart? How would i ever be able to fill it? How would i continue living with that abysmal emptiness?

my hands reach out towards you

even when you aren’t there

your shadows always are.

I’m writing you letters

that i know would never reach you

and you’ll never read them.

And people call me a poetess,

when i am just a lover.

And when i wake up,

i forget my name

and call myself by yours.

Lawrence School Sanawar restrained from receiving fees

Shimla: The Himachal Pradesh High Court has restrained the celebrated Lawrence School at Sanawar in Kasauli hills, which boasts of alumni like Bollywood actor Sanjay Dutt, from receiving further fees for holding digital lessons owing to the pandemic.

A Division Bench of Justices Tarlok Singh Chauhan and Joytsna Rewal Dua directed the state Education Secretary and the school headmaster to file…

Visited my cousins at their boarding school nestled in the hills. Plenty of opportunities to sketch and get lost on this massive, sprawling and lush green campus. I sketched Birdwood, the reception, quietly while waiting to pounce on Aam and Nantu and squish ‘em with hugs.