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“But why would he—" Sam was cut off by his phone ringing. You watched his conversation with Jody, taking in the heartbreaking nuances of his expression. He thanked her and hung up. You were almost too scared to ask who had died. It seemed like everyone kept dying lately. You weren’t sure you could handle another death.

Dean had no such qualms and asked, “Who?”

“Eileen.”

And your heart broke for Sam. You hadn’t met Eileen. Somehow, you’d always been on another hunt when she came around. But you’d heard stories from the brothers and seen Sam’s face light up whenever her name was mentioned. Goddamn it, you thought he could finally have a bit of happiness in his life. Someone to call and just shoot the shit with when he wanted to talk to someone besides you and Dean. Someone that made him smile in ways that you and Dean couldn’t. He finally had someone besides you and Dean. And now she was fucking dead too.

“How?”

You weren’t sure you wanted to hear the answer to that question, and you especially didn’t want Sam to be the one to answer. But you couldn’t move. “She was, uh, mauled by a wild animal in a wooded area that doesn’t have animals that do that. In South Carolina.”

“I thought she was in Ireland,” you piped in. If she was in the states, you would have wanted to meet her. You would have driven hours just to meet the woman who put that spark back in Sam Winchester’s eyes.

And now you would never get the chance to thank her for bringing Sam that kind of happiness he’d been missing.

Sam shrugged, fighting back tears, and turned away to gather himself without you and his brother watching. You felt absolutely wrecked, just seeing the way Sam seemed to shrink, curl in on himself. His hand jerking over his hair, not knowing what to do with himself.

Eyes starting to water with grief for a great hunter’s death and your friend’s mourning, you turned to Dean. His eyes were trained on the floor for a moment before raising to yours. You jerked your head towards Sam, indicating that Dean should take the lead on this. He took a deep breath and nodded.

“Sam.”

“Dean, that’s the second hunter death we’ve heard about in two weeks.”

“I know.”

Where was Sam going with this? You understood that he didn’t want to deal with Eileen’s death. At least, not with an audience. But he sure moved on really quickly from emotions to logic. Back to the case. Treating this like a case was probably how he was trying to keep his sanity.

And if that’s what he needed right now, then you would help him.

“But two doesn’t make a pattern,” you pointed out, furthering the discussion. Getting everyone back into the investigative frame of mind.

“Three would.”

“Meaning?” Dean prompted.

Sam paused for a second, seeming to gather the courage to say his next words. “Mom’s a hunter. And no one knows where she is.”

If Mary was dead, the odds that Sam would get through this were slim to none. Losing Eileen and his mother so close together? Sure, he was a Winchester and he had thick skin when it came to death. But Sam had to have a breaking point somewhere. You just hoped he never had to find it.

“We should get going.”

“Going where?” Dean asked you.

Treat this like any case. There was a victim. You had to find cause of death. “South Carolina. We have to, uh, we have to—”

“Cause of death,” Sam choked out, taking a few deep breaths. “And we should burn her body. Send her off the right way.”

Dean left the room first, jerking his head towards Sam. Apparently it was your turn to feel out how Sam was handling this. So as soon as the door shut behind Dean, you took a few steps towards Sam. “Sammy?”

His breathing picked up, pushing you to close the rest of the distance and pull him into your arms. “Hey there, Sam. You’re gonna… We’ll get you through this.”

He curled his large body around yours and allowed himself to be held. He allowed you to comfort him. There were no tears, but those would come. Late at night when he was alone, that’s when he would really break down.

“I’m so sorry, Sam.”

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