From Rocketship to Mothership
As the airliner droned on toward Kitty Hawk, Jonathan Yeager turned to his father and asked, âDo you think Mom is up to... taking care of what needs taking care of till we get back?â
He didnât want to mention Mickey and Donald. His father nodded approval that he hadnât, then answered, âSheâll do fineâbecause she has to.â He grinned. âShe put up with you when you were a baby, so she ought to be able to manage the other.â
Hearing about himself as a baby never failed to embarrass Jonathan. He changed the subject: âFour more years for President Warren, eh?â
âNeither did I,â said Jonathan, who knew his father had soured on the president but didnât know why. He clicked his tongue between his teeth. âI wish the election had come a couple of months later. Then I could have voted, too.â Having to wait till he was almost twenty-five to help pick a president struck him as dreadfully unfair. He tried to make the best of it: âOne vote wouldnât have mattered much this time around, anyhow.â
âNo, but you never can tell when it will,â his father said. âAs for that, youâre lucky. When I was your age, I was living somewhere different every year. I never put down enough roots to be able to register and vote, so I never did, not till after the fighting stopped and I settled down with your mother.â
Jonathan hadnât thought about that. Lord, his father had been an old man by the time he finally got the chance to vote. Before Jonathan could say anything about it, the pilot announced theyâd be landing soon. This was Jonathanâs first flight. His father took airplanes for granted, so he did his best to do the same. It wasnât easy. Watching the ground rush up, feeling the jounce as the plane hit the runway...
And youâll be going into space in a couple of days, he thought. If youâre getting excited about airplanes, what will you do when you blast off?
A trim captain halfway between his age and his fatherâs took charge of them when they got off the plane. The captain gave Jonathanâs shaved a head a couple of glances, but didnât say anything.
The officer drove through drizzle to a barracks. The quarters the two Yeagers got struck Jonathan as spartan. His father accepted them with the air of a man whoâd known worse. Sometimes Jonathan wondered what all his old man had been through in the days before heâd reached the scene himself. His father didnât talk about that much.
When they went to the mess hall, some of the soldiers there also gave Jonathanâs shiny skull and casual civilian clothes odd looks. He ignored them. He wished he could have ignored the food. You could eat as much as you wanted, but he couldnât see why anybody would want to eat any of it.
Along with his father, he spent the time till he went into space getting lectured about everything that could go wrong and what to do if anything did. The short answer seemed to be, If anything fails, you probably die. The long answers were more complicated, but they added up to the same thing.
People did die going into space. He thought about that as he boarded the upper stage with REDTAIL painted on its nose. He didnât think about it for long, though. At not quite twenty-one, he didnât really believe he could die.
âGoing to pay a call on the Lizards, eh?â said the pilot, a Navy lieutenant commander named Jacobson. âIâll get you there and Iâll bring you home againâas long as we donât blow up.â
âIf we do, itâll be over in a hurry,â Jonathanâs father said. âPlenty of worse ways to go, believe you me.â
âOh, yeah.â The Navy man glanced over at Jonathan. âFirst time l ever took up a guy dressed like a Lizard, Iâll tell you that.â
Jonathan knew his dad would defend him if he didnât speak up for himself. But he figured he was old enough to do that, even if he hadnât hit twenty-one yet: âOne of the reasons Iâm going up is that I dress this way. Itâs supposed to set their minds at ease, I guess youâd say.â He still kept quiet about Kassquit; the lieutenant commander didnât need to know about her.
âOkay, kid,â Jacobson said. âYouâre on the manifest, so youâre going. Strap in good there. I know your old manâs done this before, but you havenât, have you?â
âNo, sir.â Jonathan tried not to be nervous as he settled himself on the foam-padded seat. He didnât know how much good the safety harness would do, but he fastened it.
âBeen a while for me,â his father said. âBut I know Iâd rather go up there in just body paint and shorts than in my uniform here. The Race likes it hot.â
âThatâs what Iâve heard,â Jacobson said. âWell, get as comfy as you can, because weâve got an hour to kill now, waiting for launch time.â
That hour seemed to Jonathan to stretch endlessly. At last, though, the countdown, hallowed by endless books and films, reached zero. The rocket motor roared to life beneath him; all at once, it felt as if three or four guys had piled onto his chest. Heâd had that happen in football games. But here, the guys didnât get up. They couldnâtâthey were him, his own body weight multiplied by acceleration. Though it was only a matter of minutes, the time felt as long as the hourâs wait before blastoff.
Beside him, his father forced out a sentence a word at a time: âWatch that first stepâitâs a lulu.â
âYou all right, Dad?â Jonathan asked: wheezed, actually. He wasnât having too much trouble with the acceleration, but his fatherâheck, his father was practically an old man.
âIâll manage,â Sam Yeager answered. âI reckon I was born to hang.â
Before Jonathan could answer that, he stopped weighing several hundred pounds. In fact, as the rockets cut off he stopped weighing anything at all. He discovered another reason for his safety harness: to keep him from floating all over the Redtailâs cramped little cabin. He also discovered his stomach was trying to climb up his gullet hand over hand. Gulping, he did his best to get it back where it belonged.
Lieutenant Commander Jacobson recognized that gulp. âAirsick bag to your right,â he said. âGrab it if you need it. Grab it before you need it, if you please.â
âIâll try,â Jonathan said weakly. He found the bag, but discovered he didnât have to clap it over his mouth, at least not right away. The pilot, meanwhile, was talking in the language of the Race and getting answers from the Lizards. Every so often, heâd use the Redtailâs motors to change course a little. Jonathan was too sunk in misery to pay much attention. His father was also quiet and thoughtful.
âWe dock at the central hub of the Lizard ship,â Jacobson said after a while. âThey spin most of their vessels for artificial gravity, but the axis stays weightless, of course.â
Again, Jonathan didnât much care. The ship the Redtail approached looked big enough to have respectable gravity just from its own mass. Clanks and bangs announced contact. âVery neat,â his father said. âVery smooth.â It hadnât felt smooth to him, but he had no standards of comparison.
âIâll be waiting for you when the Lizards bring you back,â Jacobson said. âHave fun.â By his snort, he found that unlikely.
When the hatch opened, it revealed a couple of Lizards floating in a corridor. âThe two Tosevites for the interview will come with us,â one of them said.
Jonathan undid his harness and pushed himself toward the Lizards. He flew as easily as if in a dream, but in a dream he wouldnât have been fighting nausea. His father followed him. Sure enough, it was hot and dry in the spaceship, as hot and dry as it got in L.A. with the devil winds blowing.
Little by little, as Jonathan and his father followed the Lizards outward from the hub, weight, or a semblance of it, returned. By the time they got to the second deck out, they were walking, not floating. Jonathan approved. His stomach approved even more. The curved horizon of each deck seemed as surreal as something out of an Escher painting, but bodily well-being made him willing to forgive a lot.
At last, when his weight felt about the way it should have, the Lizard guides stopped using stairs and led his father and him along a corridor to a chamber with an open doorway. âThe female Kassquit awaits within,â he said.
âWe thank you,â Jonathanâs father replied in the language of the Race. He dropped back into English for Jonathan: âLetâs do it.â
âOkay, Dad,â Jonathan said, also in English. âYou go in firstâthatâs how they do things.â He was pleased he remembered some of what heâd learned.
âRight.â His father squared his shoulders and entered the chamber. As Jonathan followed, his father went back to the language of the Race: âI greet you, superior female. I am Sam Yeager; here with me is my hatchling, Jonathan Yeager.â
âI greet you, superior female,â Jonathan echoed. He had to work to hold his voice steady, but thought he managed. Heâd known Kassquit would be naked, but knowing and experiencing were two different things, especially since she wasnât just naked but shaved, not only her head but on all of her body.
âI greet you,â she said. She took her nudity altogether for granted. Her face showed nothing of what she thought. âHow strange to make the acquaintance of my own biological kind at last.â She pointed to the body paint on Jonathanâs chest. âI see you are now wearing the marking of a psychological researcherâs assistant.â
âYes,â Jonathan answered. âIt is a true marking, for I assist my father here.â He tried to eye her paint without eyeing her breasts. âIt is not much different from yours.â
âIt is an accurate marking,â Kassquit said. âBut it is not a true marking, for the Race did not give it to you.â She was as fussily precise as any real Lizard Jonathan had ever met.
His father asked, âHow do you feel about meeting real Big Uglies at last?â
âSore,â Kassquit replied at once. Jonathan was wondering whether heâd understood her correctly when she went on, âI had to be immunized against many Tosevite diseases before taking the risk of physical contact.â
âAh,â Sam Yeager said. âYes, you wrote to me about that. I respect your courage. I hope we bring you no diseases.â
âSo do I,â Kassquit said. âI have never known illness, and have no desire to make its acquaintance.â
Jonathan gaped. He couldnât help himself. Sheâd never been sick a day in her life? That hardly seemed possible. He wondered what his father was thinkingâhis father whoâd almost died in the influenza epidemic of 1918, and who complained these days that colds hung on a lot longer than they had when he was younger. Not wanting to contemplate his fatherâs mortality, he wondered if Mickey and Donald would grow up disease-free, too, because they wouldnât meet any adult Lizards. He also wondered how many diseases Lizards had. They had doctorsâhe knew that much.
Kassquit said, âAnd what do you Big Uglies think of me?â
âYou are an attractive young female,â Jonathanâs father answered. Jonathan would have agreed with that. His generation was a lot more relaxed about showing skin than his old manâs had been, but not so altogether oblivious about its even being an issue as Kassquit was. He had to work to keep his eyes on her face, not her breasts or the shaved place between her legs. His father went on, âThe biggest differences between you and a wild Big Ugly are that you shave all your hair and that your face does not move much.â
âYour hatchling also shaves his hair,â Kassquit said.
âUhânot as much of it as you do,â Jonathan said, and felt his face heat in a way that had nothing to do with the temperature of the chamber. âI try to look like a member of the Race.â
âSo do Iâwith rather more reason than you.â Kassquit could be tart when she chose. She went on, âAs for my face, my caregiver, Ttomalss, speculates that I needed to see moving faces when newly hatched to learn to move mine as wild Tosevites do. Since his face cannot move, I never acquired the art myself. I do not miss it.â She shrugged. Her breasts were so small and firm, they hardly jiggled. Jonathan couldnât help noticing that.
His father asked, âFrom what you know of life down on Tosev 3, what do you miss about it?â
âNothing!â Kassquit used an emphatic cough. âExcept genetically, I am not of your kind.â
âBut that is a large exception,â Jonathanâs father said. âIt means you can never be fully of the Race, either. What is it like, staying forever betwixt and between?â
What was going on behind Kassquitâs impassive mask? Jonathan couldnât tell. At last, she said, âI was made to be a bridge between my kind and Big Uglies.â She pointed at Jonathan. âHeâyour hatchlingâis a bridge between your kind and the Race. So are you, Sam Yeagerâor should I say, Regeya? We reach from opposite sides toward each other.â
âTo the Race, you are a Big Ugly, too,â Jonathanâs father pointed out.
Kassquit shrugged again. âI am of the Empire. You are not. Males and females of the Race, Rabotevs, Hallessiâthey are my kind. You are not.â
âLook in a mirror,â Jonathan suggested. âThen try to say that. See if it is truth.â
For the first time, Kassquit raised her voice. âThis interview is over,â she said sharply, with another emphatic cough. She strode out of the chamber through a side door Jonathan hadnât noticed till she used it. He glanced over at his father, wondering if heâd horribly botched things. Only when his dad winked back at him did he relaxâa little.












