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Gratuitous first day of school pic! #prek #bigkid #sadmama #aurelia @smcchildrenscenter https://www.instagram.com/p/CE9OThklK5w/?igshid=112ol2vnyoh45

Photographer in front of the camera: “Some days I feel quite not myself and you hold my hand and say: “baby, your daughter broken up with you, she moved on” and emotionally- I hate you for it, but deep down I know you are right and I love you for helping me to move on too. #stoppingbreastfeeding is not about Stopping Breast Feeding- it’s about closing one chapter and opening new one and it’s hard. Emotionally.” #highonhormones #motherhoodunplugged #sadmama #breastfeeding https://www.instagram.com/p/Bsm5w-6hyA_/?igshid=12he5bi2n9nhp

#Covid19Easter had to #Zoom dinner with Jason & Dylan. At least we all ate the same thing even if we couldn’t be together 😢 #SadMama we had fantastic bone-in rib-eyes from Del Friscos and very nice wines 🍷🍷#FloraSprings 2016 #HolySmoke Cab & #Silverado 2017 #SodaCreek Zin #StayAtHome sucks (at Embassy Swartz) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-51FDEl5nX/?igshid=1vfqcm6yf5pls

Every day this week. This little guy has been crying at school drop off. It kills me. You hear stories about how you are supposed to just drop them and run. That they will be fine in 5 minutes, and most cases they are. But it just doesn’t feel right. These kids shouldn’t have to start they day off feeling like this. How long is too long to sit with them u til they are comfortable? I can feel the anxiety off of him the second we pull in! Just kills me. #sadmama #kids #mamaboys #love #schooldropoff #parenting https://www.instagram.com/p/BxSFW5JHJIv/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=cu2jwn5tkku1

Two naps and glued to my side all day. I hate this part of being a mama. I can't make it go away. #mywarrior #poorlybubba #sadmama (at Brighton) https://www.instagram.com/p/BxDIo7NAe36/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=11o4t5kobalh

So today I decided to take the kiddos bowling. Now I budget every week my expenses and I put money aside just so we can do things like this. Well during mid bowling a 100.00 bill fell out of my pocket and I see the lady next to me pick it up. I calmly ask her did she just find some money and she deny it. I’m heated. I tell my boyfriend and he like well we can’t do anything about it. He doesn’t confront her and just makes it seem like it no big deal. Now I’m 6 months pregnant and emotional and now I’m just crying in the restroom. Now my flaw comes into play and I start comparing my boyfriend to my ex. My ex wouldn’t have let that stand. He would of had my back and told her something or get the police involved. I know I shouldn’t be comparing them but I can’t seem to shake the feeling of my boyfriend being so careless about my feelings. I just wish I could get over it.... rant over! I feel better just writing it all out.

I have been feeling very emotional lately! I haven’t felt connected to my boyfriend and I feel like I’m just bugging him. I want to be comforted but I don’t want him to be overwhelmed. This pregnancy is just draining me