#sad windower

Holidays still suck. I still feel out of place for any family gatherings. I miss her dearly right now.

I decided to take on the challenge and volunteer to a non profit ... They needed restructuring and I had (maybe) the skills to offer in trade. I had many reasons to not take the role. I’m not well, not happy, I’m sad. I won’t complete the task at hand, my ITJ personality won’t allow for mediocrity, and I need my wife beside me (She the Poli Sci Major). In the end I convinced myself “what’s the worst that can happen?”. I can do better... right?