#sad simon

Simon who died cold and hiding behind the lie of being at peace with his death.

Simon who died strapped in gear he'd used to end hundreds of lives all in the name of his team not being the ones killed.

Simon who died with regret and pain engraved in every layer of tissue, muscle, and bone.

Simon who died wishing they'd skin him so he'd die without the scars his father raised from his flesh

Simon who died trying to stay conscious by thinking about how much of his life was worth living for.

He didn't stay conscious for long.

Simon who died under the same circumstances as the hundreds of names he’d used to prove his place in his team

Simón "Ghost" Riley who knows how to cook.

Not because he grew up with loving parents who thought him how to cook, or because he grew up around tons of wonderful foods.

But because of the exact opposite.

Simon grew up used to the empty pit in his stomach. He grew up used to strange combinations of condiments and literally anything that wasn't stale as a meal.

He grew up used to the fridge being used as a basically a cabinate because the electricity bill was rarely paid to keep the food inside(if there was any) cold.

But during those rare times when the electricity bill was paid and he was safe to be in the same room as the TV, he watched the cooking programs.

He’d drool over the crispy sizzling chicken, and the idea of cold ice cream with hot apple pie.

He watched the cooking program religiously, usually to watch while he ate whatever sad excuse for a meal he was able to scrounge together.

He'd close his eyes and imagine the ketchup and saltene-cracker combo was actually a delicious grilled hamburger. Or the white bread and sugar was actually cinnamon rolls.

It was a very sad way to live but it kept him alive, now as an adult he definitely has some food insecurity. His apartment may be bare but his kitchen is overly well stocked.

He has meats,cheeses, breads, salads, fruits and vegetables (something he only really had with the free school lunch as a kid), and of course…sweets.

When he first started actually grocery shopping with his BAS (Basic Allowance for Subsistence) he nearly cried looking at all the food in one place.

He was able to buy it and cook it and eat it. Not just look at it through a shitty television screen.

Even through he grew up with that pit in his stomach, adult Simon finds a way to fill it everyday.

Whether that's Italian with handmade bow pasta, or Korean barbecue with sauce made from scratch, or hell somtimes he’ll make dessert for dinner just so he has enough room to have as many servings as he wants.

When Simon found out he could not only watch his cooking shows on his tv but also on social media?? That's was the only thing that convinced him to upgrade from his crappy flip phone to a smart phone, now he listens to his cooking channels anytime he's stressed, or has any downtime.

MONDAY MATINEE MUSIC VIDEO—“Sad Simon Lives Again” 55th Anniversary Version:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g2N9fZs0Nbo  ...This was the first single by Tim Andrews a.k.a. Chris Andrews after he cut loose from Fleur de Lys in 1967. He was signed by renowned producer, promoter, and music executive Tony Hall, who’d plugged The Beatles, Carmen McRae, and later inked Black Sabbath’s first record deal. “Sad Simon” was tailored for Tim’s voice by songwriter Mike Noble (who went on to work with Joan Armatrading, John Kongos, and Ralph McTell). It’s a bittersweet song about waiting for love, but Simon is going to rebound. The single, issued on Parlophone in December 1967, was a solid debut and it later found an audience with fans of the “baroque/chamber pop” subgenre i.e. classical music forms and instrumentation are integrated with psychedelic rock, a fusion championed by The Beach Boys, Beatles, Bee Gees, Left Banke, Moody Blues, Procol Harum, etc.—though the jazzy bridge comes out of the Zombies playbook.

If this is your introduction to Chris Andrews, he’s a British singer-songwriter and recording artist whose songs have been covered by Roger Daltrey, David Essex, and Davy Jones (Monkees). Under the name Tim Andrews he was a champion of late 60s psychedelic pop and (later), as Kris Ryder, he released New Wave synthpop sides in the 80s, and he’s still cranking out new music to the world.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g2N9fZs0Nbo

MONDAY MATINEE MUSIC VIDEO—“Sad Simon Lives Again” 55th Anniversary Version:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g2N9fZs0Nbo  ...This was the first single by Tim Andrews a.k.a. Chris Andrews after he cut loose from Fleur de Lys in 1967. He was signed by renowned producer, promoter, and music executive Tony Hall, who’d plugged The Beatles, Carmen McRae, and later inked Black Sabbath’s first record deal. “Sad Simon” was tailored for Tim’s voice by songwriter Mike Noble (who went on to work with Joan Armatrading, John Kongos, and Ralph McTell). It’s a bittersweet song about waiting for love, but Simon is going to rebound. The single, issued on Parlophone in December 1967, was a solid debut and it later found an audience with fans of the “baroque/chamber pop” subgenre i.e. classical music forms and instrumentation are integrated with psychedelic rock, a fusion championed by The Beach Boys, Beatles, Bee Gees, Left Banke, Moody Blues, Procol Harum, etc.—though the jazzy bridge comes out of the Zombies playbook.

If this is your introduction to Chris Andrews, he’s a British singer-songwriter and recording artist whose songs have been covered by Roger Daltrey, David Essex, and Davy Jones (Monkees). Under the name Tim Andrews he was a champion of late 60s psychedelic pop and (later), as Kris Ryder, he released New Wave synthpop sides in the 80s, and he’s still cranking out new music to the world.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g2N9fZs0Nbo

MONDAY MATINEE MUSIC VIDEO—“Sad Simon Lives Again” 55th Anniversary Version:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g2N9fZs0Nbo  ...This was the first single by Tim Andrews a.k.a. Chris Andrews after he cut loose from Fleur de Lys in 1967. He was signed by renowned producer, promoter, and music executive Tony Hall, who’d plugged The Beatles, Carmen McRae, and later inked Black Sabbath’s first record deal. “Sad Simon” was tailored for Tim’s voice by songwriter Mike Noble (who went on to work with Joan Armatrading, John Kongos, and Ralph McTell). It’s a bittersweet song about waiting for love, but Simon is going to rebound. The single didn’t chart when Parlophone issued it in December 1967, but it was a solid debut and it eventually found an audience with fans of the “baroque/chamber pop” subgenre —when classical music forms and instrumentation are integrated with psychedelic rock, championed by The Beach Boys, Beatles, Bee Gees, Left Banke, Moody Blues, Procol Harum, etc.—though the jazzy bridge comes out of the Zombies playbook.

If this is your introduction to Chris Andrews, he’s a British singer-songwriter and recording artist whose songs have been covered by Roger Daltrey, David Essex, and Davy Jones (Monkees). Under the name Tim Andrews he was a champion of late 60s psychedelic pop and (later), as Kris Ryder, he released New Wave synthpop sides in the 80s, and he’s still cranking out new music to the world.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g2N9fZs0Nbo