#sabigail

Sabrina Okay so you had a really rough night last night and it scared the shit out of me and this morning I woke up and you weren't answering and I actually thought you were gone. It was just a second nothing major. But I still thought what if she actually did it. And it was the worst second i have ever lived through in my entire life. Ever. I say that a lot but this time I mean it. Truly. I have never felt so scared and terrifies and hopeless and alone and like I would never end. You are everything I have Sabrina. I know that I could have half my body severed off and no senses and a pig coming out of my asshole and it would all be okay because I have you. Even if you had to wear those glasses from himym so you couldn't see me so we could still be friends, I'd be okay with that. But you getting point. You are my family. And my hopes and dreams and sometimes I wonder if this is what it's like to have kids because I worry about you all the time. It doesn't even matter if you were in an empty room in solitary condition id still worry about you because your my best friend and all I care about is your happiness and your safety. Sometimes I think I love you so much that I must be IN love with you because there's no other humanly possible way to be this good of friends with someone. Like those quotes that say you're the first person I think about when I wake up and the last thing I think about when I fall asleep well about 60% of the time that's you for me. And when I m single it's more like 113% which kinda scares me but I don't feel romantic with you so I don't think I'm in love with you lol fingers crossed. But you are my life. We aren't even friends at this point you're my sister and my family and my rock and the most amazon person I know. You say you don't have problems. But everyone has problems. I have problems. But nothing I have gone through or have seen anyone in the world ever go through could compete with what your mind does to you everyday. And I am so sorry. I can't even express. Your strength to go through that is unmeasurable. It could only be compared to in Disney movies and brave heart and those African kids whose parents died of aids and now raid their seven starving and dying of crAzy illness siblings. And no one tells you thank you. Thank you for being you every day. For being the strongest person I know. As strong as my mother. And that's saying something. You both show me everyday that I have hope and that I am proud to be a woman and have the honor to be her daughter and your best friend. You are so beautiful Sabrina. Inside and out. You are physically beautiful yes but what you have inside outshines the fucking sun. Anyone who you let in and gets to know you or hears one of your bad jokes or sees your dimples knows that you are something amazing. And you're capable of anything. Of everything. You can be anything you want to be. Fuck parents and teachers and tests and grades. You're Sabrina. And you could run this world singlehanded if you had to. Things are hard now. Yes. But I am here and I would carry you through a fuckin fire if I had to so I swear to god I can get you through this. We've done it before. We saved each other with a little help from five carrots. And that's all we've ever needed was each other. No matter what ever happens. I don't care if I become a porn star and you're the next Lana del Rey I will ALWAYS be your best friend. I don't care if I don't talk to you for 17 years. I will never stop loving you. My children will hear your name and now you as aunt Sabrina. And you will be in my life forever. Because we are best friends forever. Sisters. And boys will come and go. But we won't okay? I love you so fucking much. I would travel the world for you. Die for you. Kidnap Harry styles for you. And I'm sorry I don't say it enough. So thank you. Thank you for being my rock and my best friend and my sister. I love you to the moon and back. And then some. You deserve the work sweetie. And you needed to hear it. I love you. Xx Abigail

I feel strange mildly flaunting my own work, but I loved this excerpt from 'NITP.' Felt that the closure was needed. (...) ""I figure you could use something to cheer you up…" "What did you have in mind?" "Well…There's something I've been meaning to give to you for a while. It's yours by right but I had to pry it from Christian's hands." Abigail gave her a look, tilting her head. "Christian? What's he got to do with this?" Kat decided to delay explanation and handed her the little blue box she had to hijack from Christian at the end of the year. He wasn't going to give it to Abigail, but even then the blonde knew that she had to have it. Abigail opened the box, staring at the object with a passive expression. "What's this?" "Sammy had this whole speech written. He came to me all worried that you wouldn't like it, asking when he should give it to you and things like that. He even had this little speech prepared, the little dork." The girls laughed together, both picturing Sammy doing this. It was in his nature to make a big deal of things, and this certainly was no exception. "This was his grandma's. She gave it to him a while back to give to someone special and evidently that was you. She told him it's called a knot ring, and basically it means that 'the knot' isn't tied, but the person giving it has every intention of tying it some day." "So…" "He wanted to marry you, Abigail. And I know this isn't exactly cheering; I know how much you miss him and how much it hurts you every day. It hurts you more than any of us. But now, at least you know he'd give anything to be here with you" For Abigail, having hit rock bottom that very day by the hands of her own roommate, that idea was comfort enough."