#s1ep4

ep 4 broke me.

the temptation to leave this review at that is so high, but i’ve actually found this to be an enjoyable exercise for me so wish me luck let me try and put this shit into words (this shit being whatever my brain is doing after basically screaming at flatmate about how fucked up this was)

okay, so first of all can you imagine how awful it must be to have your sibling pass and the memorial being that stuffy traditional procession shit? being broadcast to the entire country? ew

the contrast of wille watching simon this episode vs. ep3 nearly ended me. that’s all.

messy queen wille returns stronger than ever apparently, and while it was painful to watch, i also think that Something was gonna crack and in a weird fucked up way i thought the scene on the football pitch was beautiful. at least he found some truth, at least he found some words. (also 100% could see moments of edvin just having a stupid fun time shooting that and 😍😍 the image of him imitating the way the metal person was swinging is etched into my brain has someone got a gif of that moment please???)

but also the pain of it being the pills simon stole from his dad fmlfmlfmlfml

and then just. why??? can’t we have one nice thing?? without it immediately being ruined?????

this is mainly what i was screaming at flatmate about cause Who Takes A Video Of Your Cousin The Crown Prince Having Sex What The Fuck. and then i realised that it’s literally everyone in our (uk) government. probably others too but i feel i can only speak for my own. also, he only stopped filming once he realised it was simon. what would he have done if it was a rich girl? would he have stopped so soon too?

Uther says something like

Sorcerers are evil and seek only to destroy good. Which is why she wanted you dead. She is evil.

And Arthur is good.

And then he tells Arthur that he did the right thing and he’s proud. And to never forget that. Arthur smiles. Uther, at this point, still has some tenderness for Arthur’s goodness.