Sent April 10, 2019

Relatable.

TRUTH

Baldi wants to talk but he's really startled by this. "I..." Finally he starts.

"I don't know yet if I'm diagnosed with bipolar... I went to the doctor before and told him about it but... I've never returned to it to be sure." He pauses.

"I.. don't want." Baldi confesses. "I'm scared, I don't want to know." And he adds, more like murmuring to himself. "But I should..."

"I got mood swings a lot. Sometimes, it happens during a same day, like you. Other times it stays longer and... the longest I got was one month. And I hate it, the two different types..." He don't want to continue, but the words are coming out before he can stop.

"I-I..... When it happens, it's like I'm going to sleep and so I don't know what I could have done. Only when it's short." He says sadly. Then he turns to the right and face the other way, angrier. "And when it's longer, I wake up and I can only watch what my body is doing or hear what I'm saying."

"............."

"I'm sorry, that wasn't what you asked for.... When I need it, I got my cousin to talk to." The math teacher is calmer now.

"Please, no one else knows and should know. Don't tell anyone, mostly Principal. He already thinks I've got amnesia... And I think I do have too."

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Honestly Big Mood

Sent June 24, 2019

LOL

When I was in university and was a youth leader at my church, the youth worker would periodically leave the kids in the care of me and another youth leader and say that we were responsible adults. We’d look at each other and one of us would say “Me? Adult? Responsible?” (I still think that sometimes, and I’m a LOT older now.)

I also keep in mind that others my age haven’t been through what I have. For example, other 17 year olds usually have a job and a drivers license by now, but I have neither. And since I am homeschooled, I don’t go out enough to make friends, so I’m usually surrounded by family most the time. My older sister has always been the best student, having all As in school. She is in college now and has a job that pays a LOT, and here I am, a B student with nothing to show for it. (2/3)

But I don’t let that get in the way of my life, and of course there is not doubt I will struggle a LOT because of my diagnoses, I remember that I have pushed through it all my life. Likewise, you are 23 years old, look how far you’ve come from when you were younger! You may not feel great now, but never give up on life, I know in my heart you can do great things! (3/3)

I can 100% get behind this crossover!

Shane’s the fearless skeptic, walking in and boldly greeting the supposed ghosts inside like old friends, while also telling them to come kill them if they aren’t cowards.

Ryan’s the cautious believer who jumps at shadows and wants careful communication with the dead, which is hard to do when Shane seeks to piss off everything within in a five mile radius.

They go to Markiplier Manor looking for the spirits that are claimed to haunt the empty halls, but the longer they snoop, the more and more it’s looking like it’s just an old, empty house. Shane is once again being annoyingly proven right, until Ryan takes a hard look into the old cracked mirror by the front door…