#runningconscious

I was just finishing my conversation when striding towards me came five armed policemen with a dog... I felt like I was in a computer game or on a film set... They passed by, again it was as if I didn't exist.... I was simply the watcher of it all...

We are all the watchers of it all in truth... There is a place within us that is still; always still. The place that watches everything, absolutely everything we do.

A part is always watching. The more we can know we are that part, rather than believe we are the person living out the stories... We are free.

As my new book 'Girlfriend for a year' makes itself out into the world, it is re connecting me with old friends... My book on conscious relating is opening up dialogues again with people I met and enjoyed connecting with six years ago...

It was 2009 and Suzy Miller was creating the first ever UK ‘divorce fair’... It was called SOS which stood for Starting Over Show, and it was about Starting Over from divorce in a holistic and empowering way.

I am home, the flat is warm and Anadi is making me a cup of Chaga... It is a mushroom drink recommended by Eugene.... It is for the whole nervous system... Because every single mushroom is linked, and so are we.. I have yet to look up its properties, so my interpretation may not have done it justice... But Eugene's description inspired me... It sounded very magical mushroom indeed.

'I could live all alone in a desert island' he said... Yes, I love being alone' I affirmed, 'but the more I find I am able to be alone, truly alone, the more I find that this attracts people...' He agreed... Because we are all connected, the more we connect to ourselves then we are able to be alone and know the connection with others is not so much even about a connection, we are know and experience that we are one ... We are quite simply meeting ourselves in every person we encounter...

The timelessness of the never ending conversation, one I began with them over ten years ago, and it continues in circles around the South Downs... And what I notice in the main, is that the essence of all of us is more apparent... That as the years go by, we know one other more deeply, and there is a trust and truth, mainly born form our own self acceptance. There is something about journeying side by side with our friends, whether that is actually as we run in circles, or metaphorically as the years go by, that the love deepens as we know ourselves and one another better...

This has always been true... Running has kept me living a stiller life, and creating a lifestyle that includes a lot of time in nature and alone... Researching best places to run!

It didn't take me long to discover that if life is over full or over fast, then running gets squeezed out, gets slower, doesn't feel as good....and neither do I.

It is a truth often missed, that if we work to look after ourselves, and find out how to be at ease and clear, this has a positive effect on those around us...

Learning to be with ourselves and love ourselves is often deemed selfish, but if we are centred in our selves we have limitless love available for others.

This is very evident when we look at our relationships with one another...

Because we are now such a connected species, it is said that it isn't six degrees of separation any longer... It is three; and so this emphasises to me how vital it is to take responsibility for my every breath and thought and action as it impacts directly or indirectly on everyone...

By the same token I am committed to clearing my own emotional baggage so that I am as still and clear as possible, and can walk freely in this world, without being affecting by others or affecting them with my pain...  Like stubbing my toe...!

An ongoing commitment and journey.... 24/7

We exist in paradoxes all the time, and our emotional core is so affected by everything we experienced when we were little, that often it is very hard to distinguish what we like and what touches  our emotional set point. I know that if you ask me if I would like to go and watch a game of rugby, I would say 'no thanks', and yet two days running, I have sat with it all around me and liked it as a backdrop to my own world...

This is why exploring our own paradigms or maps of how we see the world is a very powerful transformational way of being...