#run ins

It was like a magnet, her eyes finding his, and it shook something in her she didn’t know was still there, and then the anger creeped back up to replace that feeling. Dev looked good, naturally, but it made her angry to see him looking so good, seeing him made her good day turn sour, sipping her coffee she wasn’t exactly sure what to do. One side of her brain thought it’d be fine to catch up while the other just wanted her to throw her drink at him, call him an ass and go on her way, but she chose the latter and swallowed whatever anger she had. They’d already made eye contact she might as well just get their confrontation over with, “I’d say it’s good to see you, but I haven’t truly decided if it is or not” She said as she tapped on the back of the empty seat at his table, “may I sit?” 

my favorite days are the ones where i just end up running into people i love. like completely unintentionally, we just happen to cross paths throughout our day. this is where timing fucks me up. like if i had lingered another moment, or if i didn’t take the time to say hi to someone, i wouldn’t have run into that next person. it just makes my day so much better getting to see other people i care about. i can feel myself light up and i hope them seeing me gives them the same excitement and joy and happiness.

i ran into smoothie boy’s roommate twice today and it brightened my day. i saw him last night too at the gym. i was working out and a friend of his walked past me and we stopped to say hi and then smoothie boy’s roommate caught up and noticed me and did his “oh hey emma!” thing that he does everytime he sees me. it’s always an octave above his greeting for everyone else and it makes me feel special. like one night sonora and i were practicing and she went to a friends dorm to ask something and i stood awkwardly by the door until i moved in a little closer and upon seeing me he stopped talking to acknowledge me and go “oh hey emma!” to which i always respond with an equally excited “hey smoothie boy’s roommate!” (granted i do use his actual name). and i just like make a small like sigh. like i sigh why i see him cause it just brightens my day. he’s a super wonderful person. but yeah he said hi to me and we talked a bit and “oh yeah i’m just here to work out” and me responding “i’m running for the first time in forever!” i always just talk without thinking with him. i just talk like i blog. whatever’s on my mind i have no filter with him of “oh should i not say it like this or should i say something smarter?” i have none of that with him and it’s refreshing. he always accepts it too. he responded with a “well i’ll let you get to it then!” and we parted ways. i saw him locking up his bike today and he was wearing these really nice fitted maroon pants and i walked past him and said “your pants are very colorful” to which he thanked me and asked where i was headed. i told him to get food and he continued to ask about my classes and how they went today or if i have anymore and i told him none and asked about him. he said he’s got class all throughout the day so i wished him luck and went ahead to get my food. then later than day i was walking up to a study spot and he biked past me and we both made eye contact and he did his small little smile and laugh while looking down and i smiled back. it just made my day a little better. 

And here he was. Surrounded by laughing people, celebrating a life free from fear and oppression. Both things brought on by people like him, he thought bitterly to himself as he stared at the bottle.

“Oh... hi.”