#ruby updates everybody

Alright, so... let’s just pretend update 005 didn’t happen. I ended up scrapping all my ideas, so that’s that. Now, I think I’m gonna redo my entire theme, and just wipe my slate clean for a bit. 

I’ve gotten back into Hogwarts Mystery lately, so that’s probably what I’m gonna be freaking out about for the next..... idk how long. It might be a good thing though, since most of y’all are here for the HP content. Either way, This time I’m back for kind of real. I think. We’ll see. I actually have content I’ve completed. I just haven’t posted it yet. So, yeah. 

Disclaimer: I am still on indefinite hiatus. 

Okay, now, first thing’s first. I’m not coming back yet. However, I want to come back soon. Now, in the meantime, I have three half formed ideas, but I need your help with them. Out of all the characters I can think of, none of them quite fit into the stories I have planned. Therefore, I need some input. 

After all, who could give me better ideas than the people reading my stories? So, please send me a message or an ask if you’ve got ideas. They will all be answered privately to preserve the secrecy of my stories before I post them, so please don’t send them anonymously unless you want them published. (especially since they might get scrapped. At least one of them probably will.) Anyway, come talk to me about the following...

What I have: 

Royal AU 

Peter and the Starcatcher inspired AU

Greek Gods AU

What you should talk to me about: 

What characters do you want to see me write for? They can be any character of any race, gender, fandom, etc. 

I’m also stuck on some plot points, so what dialogue, situations, tropes, etc. would you like to see in these potential stories?

I’d also love to read other writers’ stories in these AUs because reading is one of the best ways to inspire writing. So, if you’ve got a link to one of your stories, one of your friend’s stories, or even just a story you enjoyed, please send me a link. I also wanna start reblogging stories again, so this will be a great way to introduce it. 

Please don’t be afraid to state your ideas. Even if it’s only a little half of an idea or you think it sounds silly. It could still be a start. Don’t be scared to state what you have. No ideas are bad ideas because they can always be edited and improved once they’re out in the open. Some of my best stories have come from “bad ideas”. So, please, share your thoughts with me. I want to write stories you want to read. 

*PLEASE READ*

Okay, so I almost made this post last night, but I thought it was a bit rash. Now, I’ve been thinking about it, and I now see that it’s a good idea. 

I love you guys all so much. You mean the world to me. I’m just tired of giving and giving but not getting enough in return. Relationships should be cyclical. A gives to B, B gives to A, A gives back to B, and so forth. 

I’m just tired of giving to the point where I’m empty. I wanted this blog to be a safe, positive, life giving space where we, as a community, love and support each other. However, I know I’ve seen my mental state take a turn for the worse since I re-made this blog. Now, this isn’t to blame this blog for all my problems. I love this blog. I love all of you, but the stress and the lack of support has really impacted my current state for the worse. 

In a place that I created specifically for friendship and support, I find only isolation and discouragement. I’ve thought about returning my blog to its former glory, by writing for a specific character and that character only, but I'm simply not inspired to write for that character at the moment. I wish I was, though. I made so many friends when I wrote before, but now, people don’t see me as enough.

I wanted to be part of another community where I’d feel a little less alone, but I haven’t found what I was hoping for yet. So, I need time to recuperate and recharge. Being empty, I’ve learned, has a dangerous effect on my mental and physical well being. 

This is why I’ve decided to go on an indefinite hiatus. 

Between the 72% decrease in notes and the 3% interest in things I write (yes I calculated the statistics), I’m tired of it all. 

I’ll be around for the next few days if anyone has any questions, but after that, I’ll be gone for a while. Contrary to what some people think, I do have a busy life. 

I need to rethink this entire blog. Maybe it was a mistake to come back. I thought it was a good idea because I kept getting asks about my fics on my main, but the statistics speak for themselves. Sometimes, things aren’t what you think they are. I’d hate to do that after all my hard work, but I don’t want to clog up people’s dashboards and favorite tags.

So... I was planning on writing, editing, and posting something tonight... but I can’t use 3/5 of the fingers on my right hand anymore after an accident today... even just writing this post is kind of difficult for me. I’m being sent to urgent care atm to see if I broke anything. I’ll let y’all know what happens, but in the meantime, I have no other choice than to go on a small, indefinite hiatus while I heal.

UPDATE: