#rpc rant

Sometimes I wish I wrote more popular muses so that I could get more engagement with my rp blogs than I do with my ocs. But at the same time I do love writing them a lot with the few people who come my way.

I feel like I might lose an rp partner I have enjoyed writing with in the next days or week. I hope I am wrong about this because I adore writing with them. I have just been noticing a lack of muse from them for our threads recently, though it tends to come in waves from them when it comes to engagement.

Do you ever just want to go back writing with an rp partner after like months even some years, but knowing that they have moved on or they deactivated completely. I miss so many plots with people I know I can't write with anymore.

I know that irl comes first and sometimes your rp/writing momentum can drastically decrease (12hrs in game rp session to 2-3 replies on discord). I know that it's okay and shouldn't be hard on myself. But after hearing my rp partner saying that they like rp in game more, find in game rp more engaging, doing/writing multiple rp with others at length while giving short reply to our own rp, I can't find myself to rp anymore. Our last in-game rp session was basically similar to our multiple old scenes. Even though the session only lasted 2 hrs, I was looking forward to the end just 10 minutes in. At this point I feel like my oc is just an npc in their story.

Ugh, I or tumblr messed up and sent an rp meme from my main instead of on anon and I am not sure whether my partner knows that that's me. Well, if they remember it cause I told them earlier so idk we'll see how it goes. I'm just glad that we are going to write with each other again.

Its fine to have favorites but don't let your other partners and friends go ignored when you do. We deserve attention too and no one likes being the flavor of the month and getting put on a backburn when you get someone new and shiny to write with.