#rows rants..

so basically this girl Ky (not her actual name lol) and i have been friends since we were literal babies because our mom's were best friends, so we kinda grew up together, but when we were like 10–11 we had like a falling out thing where we didnt talk for years and like about 2 years ago we got back like in contact and became friends again, and while being friends we both like got feelings for eachother and dated for a bit, it only didnt work because I had feelings for someone else at the time so we like broke up obvi, but like a few months later we got back together and dated for like 2 weeks and we broke up cus she had to move away and so we didnt think it would work, but basically after that break up we like stopped talking for a few months but recently, like 2 or 3 months ago, we got back in contact again because she literally lives DOWN THE ROAD from me, and so basically I have like really strong feelings for her, and I dont think I ever REALLY stopped having feelings for her tbh, but she has a boyfriend right now so like im just waiting for her but like its highkey eating me alive cus im so jealous of her boyfriend and its just ruining me I cant lie 😭 and I keep avoiding hanging out with her cus I feel guilty for crushing on her, but like idk what to do cus Im obviously not gonna be a home wrecker but waiting is exhausting asf 💔 and even if she was single I fumbled her so bad so idk if shes ever gonna like me like that again..