#rowansparrow

One of my favorite things you’ve ever written was when Hunter’s daughter got herself into trouble on the bridge and everyone jumped in to save her. I was wondering how Crosshair might react in a similar situation, except this time it’s HIS child that’s in danger? After the finale I just really need some Dad!Cross content. 😭😭

Ahhh omg thank you so much you’re so sweet.🥺❤️

Yes I’ve always got a hankering for Cross’buir okay here we go.

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I think Crosshair would take it much more personally than Hunter. He’d see it as a personal failure. Yes Hunter also feels bad when his baby toddles off BUT he also understands that kids will be kids and so he doesn’t dwell on what could have been—more, what is. The facts. Baby is safe and sound. That’s all that matters. Truly.

Crosshair doesn’t see it that way.

He thinks about everything but the facts. All the could’ves and the should’ves. He could’ve kept them safe. He should’ve been paying more attention.

He could’ve lost them.

Even when they’re safe in his arms again. Crosshair carries his guilt indefinitely; no amount of reassurance is going to assuage him. It’s honestly best to just not say anything to him about it, just let his guilt run its course because it’s going to regardless. He carries the safety of others on his shoulders every minute of every day and when their safety is compromised in any way he takes that very personally. His burden is heavy.

It’s hard seeing him sulk about for that period of time afterwards but he eventually comes around—once he sees his lil nugget happy and playing again and then it all registers with him. Everything is OK.

And he swears he’s gonna do better.

When his child goes missing Crosshair would be just as frightened—downright terrified—as Hunter. But you would never know that just by looking at him. He’s dangerously calm. Hunter allows vulnerability into his stature. Crosshair doesn’t. He hides his fear substantially better—I once said Hunter is in fact so damn emotional and fueled by his emotions in real-time, whereas Crosshair internalizes it. Hunter feels in the moment but rebounds quick and is back to business. With Crosshair it’s the opposite, he has a delayed effect, feels it all later and it’s harder for him to shake.

A fic that I have re-read several times...

There are a few lol

The first is this amazingly wonderful gift that @lilhawkeye3 wrote for me a while ago. I re-read it so much because it is just so wonderful and it makes me feel so much better when I'm feeling sick in general but especially when I am having bad cramps.

The second is this multi-chapter fic by @captainrexisboo. It is such an amazing story and I have gone back to re-read it so many times just because of how well written it is and just how spectacular she is able to write emotional stories. Every time I read this fic, I just get so enraptured with it and I am finding myself up till one in the morning to read through the whole thing again.

The third ones are this and this and this by @snippy-tano. God there is so much that I could say about these fics. They just give my heart such a leap any time I read them and I'm usually wiping away a few tears by the end just because the payoff to the build is always so so well done.

The last fic(s) I'm going to recommend aren't one's that I have re-read yet because I am still making my way through the series are this and the sequel to it by @rowansparrow. I kid you now when I say these are the best fics I have ever read. I want to print them out and bind them in a book. Every chapter is like living a lifetime with these characters and the world that they create is just stunning and beautiful. I have spent sleepless nights with these fics. I have sobbed my heart out with these fics. I have theorized with these fics and hoped with every fiber of my being that I never get to the end of this fantastic journey that I have been taken on. I really don't have the words to describe how much these fics have genuinely changed my life and how they are constantly present in my mind. I will scream from the heavens that these fics are so worth reading because they are.

Farewell

For @rowansparrow! Her Jedi Lyra saying goodbye to Master Plo Koon, not knowing this will be their last meeting.

rowansparrow: Be safe.

meme-constructor: Der will uns bestimmt zum Frühstück knuspern., sagte er mit zitternder Stimme.

rowansparrow: Human again currently.

meme-constructor: Mate again for a while.