#rosetta ryder

To: Reyes Vidal From: Rosetta Ryder

Though maybe not on Kadara, but here on Voeld it's about 4:00 AM, or the equivalent, I guess. Space time is weird. I just get so tired sometimes. It's the most mundane complaint, but when I say tired, I mean tired. Deep in my bones, my mind, my lungs, my damn soul, if you buy that kind of thing. One completed mission is replaced by three more, like a fucking Hydra of bullshit busy work. Then there's all the dying. Look, I don't have a problem taking that shot when I need to, but ever since we got here it’s been death, death, and more death. Some of the shit I’ve come across... I hope I never get used to it.

I just, I want to get this over with. I want to kick the Archon's ass into dark space and then

I'm 30 years old and I'm thinking about retirement. I came here so fucking ready to explore and see new worlds and plants and animals and people and sure, there's some of that, a lot of it even but I am just so

Tired.

Anyway, I promised to try to share my feelings more. Hope you don't regret it now.

To: Reyes Vidal From: Rosetta Ryder

I’m still mad. No, fuck, I was never mad. I’m hurt. Fucking dammit I’m hurt. I trusted you and you didn’t trust me, Reyes.

And yet I’m still stuck. Thinking of you all the time. I don’t even know if it was real, but I miss you.

Everything feels heavier. Dimmer. Duller.

I hate that I feel this way.

Help me understand. Because if this is the alternative I don’t know if I can stand it.

Listen to me

To: Ryder From: Reyes Vidal

Peebee told me about the Archon’s ship, and I can hear you second guessing yourself all the way from here. Don’t. You’ve been through enough, and no one else could have made that choice.

Come back to Kadara - you deserve a break. I’ll make up a reason if you need.

Reyes

Reaching out

To: Ryder From: Reyes Vidal

You know I’m not the clingy type, but I worry when I don’t hear from you after something like this.

From what your crew (who is also worried) has told me, the situation on the Archon’s ship was worse than anyone could have predicted. If I had you here I would make sure you were looking at me as I said this: it is not your fault. I know, it tears you up not being able to save everyone. But I don’t doubt for one moment that you did every last thing you could to try, and the ones who made it out are grateful for it.

Talk to me, Ryder. You don’t have to do this alone.

Reyes

RE: Reaching out

To: Reyes Vidal From: Rosetta Ryder

I’m fine, Reyes. Just busy.

Rosetta

Your “queen”

To: Reyes Vidal From: Peebee (the perturbed)

I’ll cut right to the chase: can you get off Kadara for a while? We’re on Eos and I’m running out of ideas here. Like, she’s still working, but she’s not all there, not really. This shit really got in her head. Cliche as it is, I think she needs you.

Time to step up, loverboy.

Peebee

To: Ryder From: Reyes Vidal

Word on Kadara is you found the Turian Ark. If anyone could, it was sure to be you. A real shame about their Pathfinder. Is there any truth to the rumors of his relationship with the new one? I can’t imagine what he must be feeling.

I don’t want to imagine it.

Apparently, I’ve been distracted lately. Keema keeps teasing, saying I have the look of a man in love. She isn’t wrong, but that is not what distracts me.

Your last visit was a surprise. I don’t know where you found such attire in Heleus, but if you wish to buy more, I’ll send you all the credits you need.

Return soon. I am not too proud to say that I miss you.

Reyes

RE: Your latest feat

To: Reyes Vidal From: Rosetta Ryder

Hearing from you was exactly what I needed after the YEARS I just spent running around on Voeld. (SAM keeps telling me it was only four hours. I think he’s lying.)

It was… difficult, the whole ordeal with the Turian Ark. Apparently there were still 15,000 stasis pods on board, and most of them are intact. I can’t deny that it feels pretty damn good to save all those lives. But still, I think… Rix is holding it together better than I ever could.

But let’s not go there, okay?

We’re just docking at the Nexus and I have to go make nice with some people, but know that I miss you too. I don’t know how soon I can come back to Kadara, so keep writing me. Maybe with some plans for my return?

It’s stupid how much I love you.

Rosetta

RE: RE: Your latest feat

To: Rosetta Ryder From: Reyes Vidal

Ahh, the Nexus. You have my condolences, as well as, of course, a standing invitation to come and use your diplomatic talents here, with Kadara’s leader. He would be quite happy to make overtures with you, I’m sure.

I know you don’t take compliments well, but I would be remiss if I didn’t tell you how proud of you I am. It was not the perfectly ideal outcome, but 15,000 turians are alive because of you. That is more of a difference than most of us mere mortals make in our entire lifetimes. Like it or not, you’re changing everything, Rosetta.

(Are you blushing? I hope you’re on the bridge. Peebee sends me photos when she catches you blushing.)

You’ll be pleased to know I am making plans for your return, but I’m afraid if I told you, that would ruin the surprise.

Sending my love, mi reina.

Oh these are so cute!

So her favorite flowers are lilacs, which inspired her hair color. I need to do some more figuring out on what kind of plants the Ryders could’ve had on the Citadel, bc I love the idea that she had a lilac bush growing up (like I did), but it might not be doable, idk.

She definitely loves her pyjak, who she named Dwayne (after Dwayne Johnson bc she’s a giant dork), but her favorite animals from the Milky Way were bears. Because they’re both ferocious and adorable. No other reason.

For ice cream toppings, I think she’s a caramel syrup person. Feels right to me.