i wish you guys could see beautiful world in my head where miarose and connorjay are real. rose, mia, and jay are the outlaws, with occasional cameos from eddie boober AND!! respawn. the outlaws found respawn and he and rose reunited and rose is trying to have a good relationship and take care of him. AND rose and lian’s sisterisms are returned as well, leading to lian and respawn developing a sort of chaotic siblings-ish relationship. à la nearly stabbing each other and then playing x box games right after.
in their early outlaw days, rose and mia work well together on the surface, but this is clouded by the fact they are both jealous of the incomplete picture they see of the other. rose thinks mia does not struggle at all to be the strong, confident survivor she is. mia thinks rose is so nonchalant and that none of this gets to her. these jealousies come out in picking on each other. this dynamic intensifies and morphs into pretty much a very adversarial version of gay chicken, very much “you want to fuck me so bad you woke up at 4 am to meticulously coat all my hair ties in nair.” connor and lian are always trying to get them to talk it out. it gets to the point even jay intervenes. none of them are successful. but alas, they do reach a breaking point and decide to talk it out. sexual tension resolution, followed by feelings. from there, it develops into something really sweet. they come to understand each other’s insecurities and fears. they give each other the space to explore their own insecurities and fears in each other. as two characters who’ve both felt so hypersexual in the past, they start to make desire AND love feel safer between them.
in the first outlaws story arc, before rose came on the scene, mia and jay had a whole coldish acquaintances to platonic soulmates arc. they were working the same case, investigating a string of murdered sex workers in major cities across the country. obviously, this is something that triggers both of them, and then they run into each other, who they haven’t actually seen since a certain gymnasium was blown up, despite jason’s years of working with roy and few missions with lian’s teen titans. it becomes apparent after a few instances of running in to each other that this is a highly emotional endeavor for both of them. after a rough night on the case, they stumble back to a safe house and absolutely blow up at each other. but then, they run out of steam and they’re both left panting, tears in their eyes, the big bad no closer to being found. jay breaks the silence with something sad and pathetic like “wait don’t…leave.” but he doesn’t have any reasoning really, so he just marches to his safe house kitchen and starts making a box of brownies. the awful night morphs into them taking care of each other. mia showers first, and after the first 20 minutes where mia makes no progress towards being done, jay sits with the door ajar and times/talks to her. jay showers next, and mia sits and talks to him as well. or tries to—jay copes in the opposite way and takes the shortest shower possible, wanting to get out of there asap. but then they sit on the bathroom floor and talk about anything possible besides the case or their wounds until jay remembers, “oh shit the brownies.” (the whole shower routine becomes their ritual in the future for cases that pick at their wounds)
when the outlaws aren’t doing missions, jay and connor are getting up to some absolute bullshit. more getting trapped in ancient cities and stumbling upon magic cults and such. they have vastly different views on vigilantism, but they’ve come to know each other so well, they understand why each other needs their specific outlook. they just know each other, and See each other. that’s all either of them crave really. to be Known. so they compromise and course adjust and Love each other
it’s almost as if i should write my fic or something….
