#rootrants

I did a bunch of junk I needed to and I'm feelin p hella now Like not ALL the junk I need to do just a bunch and like That feeling just needs to carry on bc last week was DUMB lik couldn't catch a break at all Also my bedcouch should b here by the end of today (the tenth) or the next few days but I rlly rlly hope it gets here today I really want to sleep on a not air mattress and be able to vacuum my floor without having to literally disassemble my bed

I know the manager that actually does the scheduling said it was ok for me to come in at 9 am instead of 7 am (cus I just got off at 1am cus I was on closing staff) But I'm absolutely sure he didn't alert any of the managers because he was on his way out of the place and the only other manager who knows is the one that mostly stays on closing staff cus I directly told her about it So I'm just gonna save everyone the confusion and hassle and show up at 7am like I'm scheduled to even though the manager that's on the opening crew doesn't in the least deserve me appearing that early after a closing shift (we open at like 5 am and we get a HUGE breakfast rush at about 8 am that I'm pretty sure the scheduling manager didn't even take into account when he said I could come in at 9 instead so) coffee my new friend we will be very well acquainted in about 4 hours

Jfc I posted that Steven universe thing before I went to work and it has probably the most notes of any of the posts I've actually made myself and Tbh kinda makes me wanna post about more headcanons/theories I have but haven't shared bc I feel like they're either far fetched, super obvs and have already been posted about, or rlly dumb because my self confidence level is -20000 how do I even work at a fast food chain

Not excited to go to work today at all uggh Somebody tell me ways to help get rid of an eternally lethargic feeling that doesn't require me to get multiple surgeries and wait around five years for it all to happen I'm getting really sick of this shit and I have shit I need/want to do but I can't cus these shitty lack of feelings keep coming back and I'm getting reALLY INCREDIBLY ANNOIED UGGH

Wakes up a half an hour after my roommate and covered in worried cats cuz it's fuckinG COLD AS FUCK TODAY UGGH I DONT WANNA GET OUT OF BED BUT I MUST

So I attempted to look up "transgender insurance" and I came across an article that was talking about the repeal on the transgender ban for Medicare and why the fuck did I even attempt looking at the comments I'm fucking crying that bullshit reminded me about how fucking many people out there would legitimately murder me at the drop of a fucking hat and think they were doing the right thing and my insecurities about starting up a conversation with anyone at all come bubbling all the fucking way back up again and even though I know I'm probably in one of the safest places for a transgender person in all of fucking America I'm legit petrified to go outside and deal with anyone again like seriously why do people have to be such gigantic piles of shit like this I need to get my ass in gear with certain projects uggh I'm legit fucking shaken and terrified at comments angry old white men put onto a newspaper website why does malice and ignorance have to exist uggh

I kinda feel like a dick for making a rant on that bot/machine post but Tbh I don't even care I'm so sick of people being all "THE BOT APOCALYPSE IS COMING STOP USING ALL THE MACHINES THAT ALLOW ME TO POST MY FRANTIC IGNORANCE ON THE INTERNET"