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‘ZAKDARN - OHWOWOWO' video available now the squad.  https://youtu.be/Zu_7BCJ4o9s  

how do i even start to explain how my thanksgiving went?...it was amazeballs fa sho...made me feel so happy...so lucky...so blessed :) she actually came to a show!!!...so it wasn't santa cruz (ms. CL galore) lol...she came to the bay!!!...and hands down made it my favorite show to play... the best part was being able to spend time with her...we got to chill together...just me and her...we had our freedom to be "us"...it was thee best feeling in the world... we spent most of our time together in her hotel room (408 wha whaaa!!) and absolutely did nothing lol...we just wanted to enjoy each others company...for us, it doesn't matter what we're doing, just as long as we get to be next to each other we're content... in those 2 days...she was all mine and i was all hers...we held hands (publicly) cuddled, kissed, touched, and felt each other as much as we could...i loved being able to lay with her and hold her in my arms...it felt so good and so right...it felt like it was meant to be... i will forever adore and cherish the moments we created in those 2 days...i wish i coulda made it last forever... then came the sad part when we had to say goodbye...the sad realization that we won't have what had ever again has hit me so hard... here is where life feels like it isn't fair...being with her has made me realize just how much i really care for her...that everything i feel for her is real...she makes me so happy...when i'm with her, i feel like i don't need anything else...but life keeps telling me that she can't be mine... i've fallen so hard for her...completely and absolutely head over heels for her...i can't see me living my life without her... but at this moment...we can't be together...there is an obstacle that makes it feel impossible to get thru without hurting other people... now it's a matter of seeing where life will take us...time will tell of what's to come...i still will daydream and fantasize of "one day"...i just wish that i could make it a reality... whatever happens...i know that i will never forget her and what we had...how could i, she's my true soul mate...i will forever miss her, forever care for her, and forever adore her...she will always have a big portion of my heart... i miss her so much already...my heart hurts...saying goodbye to her is the hardest thing for me to do :'''(