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05 de marzo del 2018.

Hyakujuu no Ou ni Tsugu

I look at the stars thinking of you

The question that blundered my mind and made me nervous was if he liked me. We flirted and always walked together during P.E. But how could I be sure that there were mutual feelings for me in reponse? I didn’t know how to act or think around him. I even remember my ex-boyfriend was trying to win me back in this confusing time. I wanted Ian. I was over my past relationships and I was ready for an adventure with a boy I had never known before. Our encounters always brought me joy and I wanted to keep feeling this way. If I truly wanted him, then I need to ask him, right? The problem is: how would I ask him? I was afraid he would say “no” or “I don’t feel the same for you” which would not please me in the slightest. Ian needed to know this burden of affection I had towards him. I WANTED him to know. I truly liked him and I was willing to endure any obstacle that standed in my way. There was nothing that could have prevented my emotions towards him. I remember when I had the guts to spill my beans to him. I was nervous to even face him, but in the end, I didn’t face him. My cowardness knew no bounds. I decided to write him a message on facebook. We interacted causally and kept asking small personal question. The feel of keyboards still burn my fingertips when I asked him if he had a girlfriend. The reply was “no” but that he did like a “girl” and I could feel my stomach sinking. What was I to do? He didn’t like me. Clearly, there was another girl on his mind. How wonderful! I swallowed my pain and wrote him a long passge. I described my feelings for him and it was okay if he couldn’t reciprocate my feelings back. I also wrote that in hopes of this affection that our friendship that had just begun, would not change it’s course. I finished my love speech and waited. Before facebook change it’s gadgets, I remembered when it would say “Ian is typing” and I could feel the dread in the air. Finally, he finished and sent his reply. There I stood, frozen to my seat and eyes glued to the computer. His message caught me off guard. All he said was “Damn, it’s about time.” I personally was confused by the answer and I asked him to clarify. He told me that he was waiting for the right moment to tell me how he felt. I still didn’t understand and then, finally he expressed a liking towards me. My face lit up and the butterflies flew powerfully inside my stomach! He liked me back! Me and not some girl I imagined a few moments ago!!! I felt thrilled and happy all in one. And from that day on our love encounters grew strongly. Til this day, he and I are still together and madly in love as the first time. He is my soulmate and the man of future as pray for everyday. My life is different in the most unique ways because he has opened my eyes to the beauty of the world. Somehow, I believe God had something planned for us to meet and reunite as old souls.

Mindy Kaling, to "Glamour," on men vs. boys Dammit, enchrenchment is *Hot.* Believe me, men, boys, whoever.