#roleplayworld

❀ ──────── { 沈曼语  〜 𝗛𝗢𝗠𝗘𝗖𝗢𝗠𝗜𝗡𝗚 } ──────── ❀

⋆ 𝑎 𝑏𝑖𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑡𝑒𝑎, 𝑎 𝑏𝑖𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑔𝑜𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑝, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑎 𝑙𝑜𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝘩𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡. ⋆

▹  𝗡𝗔𝗠𝗘: Tu Manyu (涂曼玉)

▹  𝗕𝗜𝗥𝗧𝗛 𝗡𝗔𝗠𝗘: Shen Manyu ( 沈曼语)

▹  𝗘𝗡𝗚𝗟𝗜𝗦𝗛 𝗡𝗔𝗠𝗘: Margot Shen/Tu

▹  𝗘𝗧𝗬𝗠𝗢𝗟𝗢𝗚𝗬:

    — 𝘭𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘯𝘢𝘮𝘦

    :: 沈 (𝗦𝗵𝗲𝗻): Depth or water.

    :: 涂 (𝗧𝘂́): Spread or apply (like paint/ink) or referring to a river.

    — 𝘧𝘪𝘳𝘴𝘵 name

    :: 曼 (𝗠𝗮̀𝗻):  Graceful, refined, elegant.

    :: 玉 (𝗬𝘂̀): Jade

▹  𝗡𝗜𝗖𝗞𝗡𝗔𝗠𝗘𝗦: Manyu (default) | Minnie (close friends) | Xiao Tutu (by neighbors or regular customers)

▹  𝗗𝗔𝗧𝗘 𝗢𝗙 𝗕𝗜𝗥𝗧𝗛: January 10th

▹  𝗔𝗚𝗘: 25 (𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦 𝘥𝘦𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘦)

▹  𝗭𝗢𝗗𝗜𝗔𝗖: Capricorn

▹  𝗖𝗛𝗜𝗡𝗘𝗦𝗘 𝗭𝗢𝗗𝗜𝗔𝗖: Snake

▹  𝗙𝗔𝗩𝗢𝗥𝗜𝗧𝗘 𝗦𝗘𝗔𝗦𝗢𝗡: Autumn

▹  𝗦𝗘𝗫𝗨𝗔𝗟 𝗢𝗥𝗜𝗘𝗡𝗧𝗔𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡: Heterosexual

▹  𝗢𝗖𝗖𝗨𝗣𝗔𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡: Co-owner and Repair Technician at "Old Tu's Fix-It Shop."

 ❀ 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗖𝗢𝗨𝗥𝗧𝗬𝗔𝗥𝗗 [Residence]

▹  𝗟𝗢𝗖𝗔𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡: No. 23 Courtyard, Cǎochǎng Hútòng, Dongcheng District, Beijing

▹  𝗩𝗜𝗕𝗘: A slightly rundown but clean courtyard house tucked away in one of the city's older hutong alleys. It smells perpetually of jasmine tea, simmering bone broth, and the faint metallic tang of old tools.

▹  𝗦𝗛𝗢𝗣: 屠师傅修理铺 (𝑂𝑙𝑑 𝑇𝑢'𝑠 𝐹𝑖𝑥-𝐼𝑡 𝑆𝘩𝑜𝑝)

 ❀ 𝗔𝗣𝗣𝗘𝗔𝗥𝗔𝗡𝗖𝗘

▹  𝗙𝗔𝗖𝗘𝗖𝗟𝗔𝗜𝗠: Tian Xiwei

▹  𝗛𝗘𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧: 168 cm (5’6”)

▹  𝗕𝗨𝗜𝗟𝗗: Slim but solid | Hidden muscles under soft curves | Surprisingly toned arms.

▹  𝗙𝗔𝗖𝗘: Round, youthful | Big, doe eyes | Natural pout | Dimples when she grins

▹  𝗛𝗔𝗜𝗥: Long, dark | Usually in messy ponytails | Low bun | Twin braids | Stray wisps always escapes

▹  𝗦𝗞𝗜𝗡: Fair but often sporting tiny bruises or scratches from work | Light freckles across nose in the summer

 ❀ 𝗣𝗘𝗥𝗦𝗢𝗡𝗔𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗬

—𝘔𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘶 𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘺𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘢 𝘩𝘪𝘥𝘥𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘤𝘩. 𝘚𝘩𝘦’𝘴 𝟫𝟢% 𝘴𝘶𝘯𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘣𝘢𝘥 𝘫𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝟣𝟢% 𝘪𝘤𝘦-𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘥 𝘧𝘰𝘤𝘶𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘥. 𝘚𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘩𝘺𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨, 𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘴𝘰𝘧𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘱𝘦𝘳𝘱𝘦𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘤𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘪𝘯 𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦, 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘩𝘪𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢 𝘲𝘶𝘪𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘹𝘪𝘦𝘵𝘺 𝘣𝘦𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘣𝘶𝘴𝘺 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘫𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘴.

▹  𝗟𝗢𝗩𝗘𝗦:

▸ Old Man Tu’s cooking (even when it’s too salty or too bland)

▸ Street food, especially 𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘯𝘨𝘫𝘪𝘢𝘯𝘣𝘢𝘰 and scallion pancakes

▸ Stray cats (she names them all)

▸ The smell of rain on hot concrete

▸ Popping bubble wrap from repair packages

▸ Drinking tea so strong it’s almost bitter

▸ Autumn

▸ Gambling (especially 𝘔𝘢𝘩𝘫𝘰𝘯𝘨)

▸ Watching old Chinese movies and melodramas with Old Man Tu and yelling at the screen

▸ Old Man Tu’s snoring (ironically, she complains to him about it but she likes it, giving her the comfort of knowing that he’s still there and alive.)

▹  𝗛𝗔𝗧𝗘𝗦:

▸ Bullies.

▸ People who yell at the elderly or children or to anyone

▸ Wasting food or useful parts

▸ Soggy fries, lukewarms soup, celery

▸ Alarm clocks

— more to be added.

▹  𝗧𝗥𝗔𝗜𝗧𝗦:

 [ + ] — resourceful, forgiving, observant, brave, humble, patient, generous, kind-hearted

 [ - ] — emotionally guarded, avoidant, self-doubting, overly independent, bottles emotions, possessive of loved ones, passive in conflict, hypervigilant, struggle to ask for help, anxious but hides it

 [ ! ] —coldly efficient, emotionless in crisis, lethally focused, physically intimidating, morally flexible, silent rage, no warning before action, sometimes unforgiving

 [ ? ] — quiet in new places, self-sufficient, blunt, sentimental, blunt, competitive, easily flustered, routine-oriented, stubborn, protective

▹  𝗛𝗔𝗕𝗜𝗧𝗦/𝗤𝗨𝗜𝗥𝗞𝗦:

▸ Hoarder of small things: pockets are always full of screws, candy wrappers, hair tie, washers, etc.

▸ Snort-laugh: When something is genuinely funny, she snorts. She hates it but can’t stop it,

▸ Door checker: Locks the shop door, then checks it twice. She also sleeps with her back to the wall.

▸ Flinch reflex: Loud noises make her jump like a startled rabbit and immediately her arms go into Kung Fu stance. She also sometimes covers it with a laugh.

▸ Feeder: If she likes you, she will put food on your plate or give you some food without asking. Refusing is not an option.

▸ Talks to cats: She talks to cats like they understand her. Sometimes, they do.

▸ Keeps a multi-tool in her pocket. You never know.

▹  𝗙𝗨𝗡 𝗙𝗔𝗖𝗧𝗦:

▸ She once arm-wrestled a construction worker for a bag of 𝘱𝘰𝘯𝘬𝘢𝘯 and won. She gave him half the oranges anyway.

▸ Her mandarin has a slight roughness from growing up around old men and street vendors.

▸ She has named every stray cat in the alley that comes to the shop for food.

▸ Her secret comfort food is instant noodles with an egg cracked in and too much chili oil.

▸ She hoards sauce packets from takeouts like they’re gold.

 ❀ 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗦𝗧𝗢𝗥𝗬𝗕𝗢𝗢𝗞

 [ UNDER DEVELOPMENT—TO BE ADDED.]

 ❀ 𝗞𝗘𝗬 𝗥𝗘𝗟𝗔𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗡𝗦𝗛𝗜𝗣𝗦

 :: 𝐓𝐮 𝐗𝐢𝐮𝐥𝐢 (屠修理) — 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐟𝐚𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫

▹  𝘪𝘯𝘧𝘰 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘥𝘥𝘦𝘥. :: 𝐓𝐮 𝐋𝐚𝐧𝐡𝐮𝐚 (屠兰花) — 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐬𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫

▹  𝘪𝘯𝘧𝘰 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘥𝘥𝘦𝘥.

 :: 𝐗𝐢𝐞 𝐗𝐮𝐚𝐧𝐣𝐢𝐧 (谢玄金) — 

▹  𝘪𝘯𝘧𝘰 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘥𝘥𝘦𝘥.

The last photo I edited to use for my RPA's muse as a member of my first family in rpw.

Until now, my mind still resists the fact that I am no longer part of it. Prolly posts blog about this fam soon but right now I just want to take some rest. I just want to dissociate myself from this world. I have been crying for the past two weeks bc of this.

Im still healing..

Anyway, I hope you like my edit.

Another gloomy morning has started for tamara, another shed of tears leaked out of her sleepy eyes. No matter how hard she tried not to get jealous over that girl, but just a glance of their naughty conversation on his status or hers it hurts her so deep inside her heart. It kills both of them that they had this conversation and argument about that girl all over again. The fire of jealousy burned her until it got on both of their nerve, the pain of a knife that stabbed her right into her heart and lungs. Leo already exploded in madness and anger cause of her that kept talking about that girl over and over again, everyday, asked about this and that. She seems couldn’t believe from everything that he already explain to her. Another mess morning for her and late night fight has just begun. She wipes her tears away at the same time the sound of the door bell rang. She rush herself towards the front door and unlock it. Is no other than her two closest friends, david and ally that came. Just by the first glance, they could tell that their little baby girl has been cried. “Let me guess, your lovely jerk again?” ally voice out after she got herself in. All the things she could do is just giggles lowly while wipe her tears away as she lead two of her besties inside, they kept making fun of her along their way to the kitchen. As all of them finally entered the kitchen, david suddenly wrapped his arms around her and completely got herself drown inside his embrace. “Tell us what happened, we are here for you..” he tried to loosen her stiff body by caressed the back of her hair. Got trapped in that situation only causes her to cried more and more. She may look strong on the outside but, she just a cry baby to all the people that close to her. Lead her towards the living room to sit down, as ally looked at her with a giggles while preparing their breakfast. Both of them sit down against her red couch. David landed his palms against her puff cheek to caressed the tears away from her big eyes. Without even he said a thing, she finally voice out with her shaky voice. But before that, she took david phone and open his facebook account and showed the phone screen right infront of his face. “See? He start again papa. I saw his status this morning across my timeline when I woke up. I don’t know what to do anymore.” The phone suddenly falls down from her hold as she covers both of her swollen face. David took his phone again after he called out his wife and take a check on it together. Ally only flashes a soft smile before giggles lightly while ruffles her husband hair. “Not that far different from us honey..” she laugh before get herself back towards the kitchen. David gaze back to take a look at tamara gloomy expression.

“You guys fight again?” he smiles to her and she nodded her head as an answer. “Tamara, what I already told you about this a long time ago? This naughty girl just…” david heaves out a sigh. “Curiosity kills you baby girl, If you don’t want to see their lovey dovey act just ignore his or her status that full with both of them. Don’t turn yourself into a stupid girl like ally..” “HEY!!” she shouted from the kitchen when she heard what he just said. A giggles slip out from both of their lips. “Tamara, this is not the first time you had this kind of situation right? And why it keeps coming back repeatedly baby girl? Don’t you feel tired with this?” “Papa I am, I am tired. This jealousy thing could distract my mind the whole day, I can’t eat, I can’t drink with the imagination of them together.” Just by look at how her body shaking and her tears keep leaked out of her eyes, she was down, totally drown in sadness. “I thought his friend, yul and himself kept repeating themselves everytime you asked them that you mean a lot more to him” “I know but from what he said and what he did was totally different. She got the proper treatment from him but he treated me like an Ice papa. Am I robot or something? After some of her friends message me at the same time with her, it kept bothers me papa.” Her voice shaking, she still remembered a few days ago when that girl friends attacked her with hate notes. Calling her bitch, slut and told her to go away, feeding her with the caps of leo and that girl comment that causes her falls down on the street as he made her way back from her campus. “Tamara there’s a reason why all of his act happened, your past with him, his real condition stressed and your drama plus clingy act.” “We both moved on from our past already papa, I would have stop this drama if he stop that acted like that with that girl! Why he can’t be like that to me? If he said I’m way more important than her. I tried to did the same thing as her, but you know what he did? He ignore me, like I’m completely invisible for him. I’m not clingy again to him like before. You know what hurts me? I beg for just a hug from him papa, when that girl can easily kiss, cuddle even please him papa. I don’t expect him to back as the old him before cause I knew that won’t happen, never happen. He don’t want too papa.”

“Dear, listen to me. Let me explain you about the reason why he changed like that. First from what I saw, If he back to the old him and treat you the same way like before, he thought you might think that there’s a hope for both of you. Which he scared to take, he traumatize as well tamara. The fight and drama that you always had everyday when both of you guys still in relationship, it leaves a personal pain and scars on his mind along with his heart. Why don’t you try to position yourself as him? You’re good at that. Imagine yourself as someone else. He don’t want to hurt you anymore baby girl, he can’t take a look at you crying again because of him. Also he’s tired with all of the thing that happened in his real, and when he’s back here to run from his real, here he met another trouble which is you. Don’t try to denied it! Try to imagine after a long day at work, he wish that he could take a rest but in the end he need to face your drama again tamara. If I were him I would run to that girl, who could make me comfortable.” “He don’t want to make me cry again? I understand that he can’t be with me long enough like before cause his busy, but everytime we talk he will always fill his timeline with her post and you know how I felt papa? I waited for him all day, just so that I can have a chance to talk with him but you know what he did when he’s here? Throw an ice to me and rain that girl with roses. There was once when me and that girl worried about him and we made the same status over him, I waited for him to answer me. I can’t sleep waited for his pm but you know what he did when I open my timeline? He comments on her post, and said that he was fine, only tired due to his work and wants to stay for her. I was relieved papa, I knew that he was fine from her status. I don’t have to worried about him anymore, but I slept with tears papa. I feel like stupid papa, he said I’m important to him but his act is like I’m a trash from his past.” “Tamara..” he pulled her closer at once cause he can’t take to see her drop another tears again. “You need to remember that he made it clearly that the reason he stay was to be with you. He’s been through a lot cause of you and along with you. You can’t just expect him to understand what you’ve been through, but you need to understand his condition as well. Do you think is not the pain for him when he saw you got hurt with a lot of people cause of him. He’s lost now tamara, you need to be patient and give him time. You start to lost your trust on him right? You’re afraid to lose him.” Suddenly ally brought me a glass of water to calm myself down as she took a seat across us.

“She still remember the chat, which that girl send to her about their past when tamara took leo from her hand. She blames tamara completely for it. This is karma that she got from the thing that happened on the past baby, which from what I see is not all her fault, is his fault as well. But the thing that I hate is he got a chance to run and back to her when tamara here suffered by herself when karma attacked her. They supposed to past it through together even not as a couple but at least he stay by her side, hold her hand to pass that miserable. I hate it the way she attacked tamara with her army, not by herself. When yesterday I tried to re-pay the same thing to all of that girl but she end up blocked all of their account from mine and I’m powerless.” Ally voices out with anger. “Baby, you can’t always blame him for the entire thing that happened. Is tamara fault as well, she agreed with their relationship. And you know he’s tired enough with tamara’s drama baby. Also the way you got involve on their relationship. This is the same thing that happened to us, you know with that photographer girl? But leo is not me, we have different ways to finish this messed. Maybe this is his way to clear it, He done a lot of things for tamara too baby. Come on just think about it, if tamara really don’t mean a lot to him why would he easily get stressed over her drama and kept staying when he can just walk away in a minute if he hates it that much. He worried everytime tamara gone somewhere and immediately inform us, why would he blame himself if something happened to her? He helped us to take care of tamara a lot. But I think he now already reach his limit, like what happened to me before. I understand him completely how he felt, you should have knew it as well ally.” Ally only can slipped out a sigh, she really hates it everytime her husband make a point on something. On the other hand tamara only listen to their argument, everything that papa was right, but she already lost some of her trust to him when he confessed that he did had sex with someone when she’s left for a therapy. She’s afraid the she will completely lose him if he and that girl are back together. Her mind was in messed and she was stressed. It hurts. “Tamara look at me” ally let out her low whisper that easily calm her down “Imagine his heart is a rock and you are a moss that attached to him. You know that a moss can break that hard rock but it needs time, it can’t just completely break in a few days. Also just take that girl and her friend as a human who wants to clean you out, but no matter how hard she cleans it. There will always a stain left that can grows as time pass by, is a process. The thing that you need to do now, be patient, stay strong and change your attitude if you still want to stay with him. That human will get tired by herself if she keep clean and clean the rock away from that moss, you can’t lose to her just like that. Where’s that strong girl who used to get bullied by the whole high school, this is nothing to you tamara. Also you won’t just care about someone when you don’t have a feeling for that person. You guys still in need for one another, you guys both don’t wanna lose one another. When I’m still can’t figure it out is the reason leo stay with you is cause he feel pity over you or this is the way he repay you back after the way that he hurt you.” Ally stiff and annoyed expression show up until her husband shout at her. “This is the reason why I called you stupid baby, don’t feed tamara with negative thought” david covers her ear completely with his palm that makes her smile cause of their small fight with one another. “Try to trust him again baby girl, you’re close with yul as well,his best friend. Stay strong okay? Remember no pain, no love. Don’t worry we will always be here for you and no matter what decision you take, you have our bless and support right behind.” She felt so relieved and happy that she had such a bestie that she already took them as her family and they always been there for her. But still what she need right now is her man, that person who control and cause all of the messed between them. She can’t take her mind off him no matter how busy she was that day, her mind is full with him. She still wondered why he got so mad everytime she mention about her. Is it cause he don’t like the way she talked about his new lover or is it just he tired over that topic. She couldn’t focus on anything that she did that day until the late night just arrived. She decide to meet the club girl that she knew a few weeks ago, she listen to everything she said and always help her to find the best solution. At the time she arrived at the club, she couldn’t find the shadow of that girl around so she decide to lose herself with a couple of drink and hit the bar. Some of the bartender already knew her existence in that club, so one of them immediately serve what she always ordered everytime she dropped by. Enjoying her loneliness between the loud music and the crowd until someone who taps her shoulder snapped her out. She was surprised and worried by the person who stand right infront of her after she turned her body around. “R….Roy” she stuttered. “What are you doing here?” he was known as her stalkers, cause he still won’t give up no matter how many times she rejected him over and over again. “I’m just hanging out by myself, been stressed all day at work. You tamara?” just like she thought he took a sit right beside her. “Just loosen myself as well hehe” she flashes him an awkward smile before she tried to avoid his gaze by kept on drinking her drink but it turns out to be a bad decision. She just talked bluntly to him as she got drunk.

As tamara completely “enjoy” her time at the club on the other part of the world. This man don’t even want to touch his phone when it finally hit his break time cause he already knew what notification he got from her. The fight between both of them still got into his nerve even he already made himself busy at work. He didn’t even know what inside her mind that made her to kept repeating the same topic over and over again. He was tired and exhausted with it,  no matter how many times he repeat himself his girl can’t even seem to thrust him. He’s totally gone mad and crazy because of her.