My red flag is that I can't help people if someone's watching me do it or even notices that I did it at all
And I'm not talking about like picking something up for someone or whatever, i mean like if I want to do some laundry to lessen the load for my mom, I can only do it while she's not home and the big reason why I'm considering not doing it is fuck, what if she acknowledges it?? What if she says thanks and I'm hit with that terrible sense of wrongness similar to watching someone color outside the lines?? That strange guilt where suddenly you feel like you did it for the praise despite knowing yourself, knowing that she may think I'm doing it for the praise and somehow manage to judge me for it??
Anyways this is why I can't have roommates I would NEVER get anything done
