I haven't really said much about being back on the blog again and I'm so sorry for that. I put a lot of pressure on myself to be back to the way I was last summer after my hiatus as well as two years ago when I disappeared. Grief zapped everything I once loved, which was followed by the return of some older issues (depression and my ed), and I ended up paralysing myself as nothing I wrote (or did) felt 'good' enough anymore. I felt like I was letting the little community I built here and love dearly down, if I'm honest a part of me still feels that way.
I can't promise I'll ever be back to the person I used to be, but I can promise to try, and hopefully rebuild this space where so many have found some safety in ♡
Edit: warm welcome to all the new followers (nearly 4.5k though I suspect most will be inactive nowadays xx) anyways, in the words of deadpool…you’re joining at a low point, but we’re gonna change that xx
