#robert lore

First, here's a big ole chart before i get into it, just in case you dont feel like reading lol.

piss baby era

Basically for half this era he lived with his parents still- his dad was around but not really involved because of work obligations and such, he was loving towards his wife but also avoided raising rob.

Robs mom was a chainsmoker due to stresses she had while raising rob when he was a baby, and it stuck with her for a crazy long time. Since Robs dad was absent a considerable amount more, he formed a much stronger and closer bond with his mom. She was big on DIY and home reno projects, which rob did with her often.

At school, rob was basically kind of a jock stereotype. He was rowdy and fun with his friends, but he wasn't really an ass at all? Just rambunctious. He played football for a while, but he mostly just played because he liked when people cheered for him lol.

His mom's smoking eventually caught up with her and she developed lung cancer and passed a good time after. This hit rob and his dad very hard, because they both cared really deeply about her. His dad (Johnson Campbell, or John) was basically killed by her passing. He spiraled very far into depression and addiction, and he was basically never home because he was out drinking.

There was some frustration towards rob from both him and his dad because they both were very aware of why his mom smoked. Rob got blamed for her death and there was plenty of resentment built up between him and his dad.

Because of this resentment and a general sense of insanity just radiating off of John, there was child abuse involved and it got pretty physical at some points. Being young and still loving of his father, rob begged the people (mostly neighbors) who helped him not to call the police, because he was still under the impression that his dad would return to his old sweet (although distant) self if he just waited long enough. The final time John ever got the chance to hurt rob was when rob was given his face scar, which involved some SA that i wont be talking about lol.

After that rob finally snapped and decided to find someone who could help him, he called the police, and his dad was arrested (rob was sent into foster care but he didnt stay for long because he was nearly 18)

During the short time between robs mom passing and him accumulating all his scars (it happened over time) he became very reserved and bitter at school. He stopped talking as much and he quit the football team after a physical altercation with someone on another team. Over all he was just a really angry and stressed out guy.

Emo era

During his emo era he hung out with an equally dysfunctional group of people in a street racing community. They taught him a lot of what he knows about cars (his current favorite hobby) and he has crazy good driving skillz 😼. He got into a crash that mega fucked up one of his legs, but he and everyone around him were hellbent on being as destructive to themselves and others as possible, which led to him not treating the injury (it still bothers him to this day)

Because of all the intense betrayals rob felt from his dad, he stopped letting people get close and comfortable with him for a very long time. He became way too cautious of everyone because he misinterpreted someone telling him that he should keep space between him and others for a while. He was incredibly aggressive and more rambunctious than before.

It was almost like he had to overcompensate. He was angry at the world and he let it rot him from inside out. He developed some anger issues that stuck with him even to this day, even if he's way better at dealing with them now. He would always be getting into fights with his friends (sometimes play-fights, other times real). It must have been so exhausting LOL 😭😭😭😭

Because a lot of the people he hung around also came from rough family situations or just general shit, they didnt have the best advice for rob on how to deal with his feelings towards his dad. He was already angry and frustrated at him (very very rightfully so) and it was amplified because of encouragement from his peers.

His street racing era continued into his early 20's, but the people he hung around slowly started to grow apart as people. A lot of them were older than rob, and they were beginning to settle down or giving up their rather reckless lifestyle. When rob began losing his group, he started regretting how he pushed a lot of people away from him. He wanted to make changes to himself to become a more likeable person. Also he needed a job lol he was living in his car for a very long time

undercut mcqueer era

(yes im referencing that one arcane post shhhh)

Rob made some pretty drastic and visible changes to himself. Most noticeably, he worked really hard on just generally becoming more gentle and soft-spoken, because he knew he had to stop actively making himself unappealing to others.

When his mom was sick in the hospital, he spent a good amount of time there. He learned to look up to a lot of the nurses that treated his mom and decided that was the career he wanted to follow. He lost this motivation while he was emo, and he basically avoided hospitals like the plague for half his life.

He wanted to return to the nursing field as a job opportunity, but since nursing school seemed so daunting at the time, he started working/volunteering in places like nursing homes to prepare himself. He ended up liking this job much better, especially because of the connections he got to build with people.

Cars and mechanical things are still very dear to him, and he works on his own projects in a garage he rents in his free time.

He met lee when he was around 27, but poor boy still thought he was straight 😭😭 he was and still is very repressed because of some harmful views his mom carried and what happened with his dad. Meeting lee made him start actually connecting some dots about his sexuality+ figuring himself out !!

Because rob was able to realize how much of an ass he had made himself become when he was younger, he now is convinced that he can find the rest of what it wrong with him and fix that, too. He is very wrong! He needs therapy! He is severely traumatized!

His "coping style" for his trauma is to basically never come in contact with anything involving it ever again. If he doesnt see it, he can't remember anything that happened, and he doesn't have to dig into his past at all.

Also where he falls on the fight, flight or freeze scale is freeze. He's like a deer in headlights sometimes lol

I believe that is all, i tried to handle some of these topics as delicately as i could but if i come off as blunt or rude in any part let me know and i will totally edit the post lol. Sorry this ended up being so long and ramble-y, hopefully it's a somewhat coherent story because it is late and i am tired 😭😭

If you have questions feel free to ask, thank you for reading!