#rivertalesans

My darlings, you're not alone in feeling this way [Lonely, that no one loves you, that you wonder if anyone will miss you if you died, that you’ll never find Unconditional Love]. Over a billion people on this planet, and I assure you more than half have felt this way one time or another. About 20% of those people refuse to see their self-worth and end up ending it all, and sure... it stops THEIR pain... but that doesn't end for the others around them. The people they couldn't see that cared about them, the people who were too shy to approach and tell them 'hey I think you're cool!' or 'I have liked you for a while... but you never noticed me'. Those people will always hurt. Just because that one person refused to see their own beautiful worth. You'll hear it a lot "you're still young, you'll find someone" but honestly? You're NEVER going to find unconditional love. That doesn't actually exist. Unconditional love is a fairy tale or an old wives tale, told to little kids to get their hopes up about their future. LOVE exists, just not UNCONDITIONAL love. Love is give and take. Love is tolerance and acceptance. Love is tit for tat... but love is fucking annoying and frustrating. Love is putting up with the other's bullshit, while they put up with yours. Love is tearing your goddamn hair out and wanting to strangle the other with said torn out hair. Love is war. Love is pain. Love ISN'T FUCKING EASY. Not cursing at you, just being passionate. Because that is love. My typing this to you, is love. Because you may not know these things I say until I say them. Someone else might be going through the same dealio and me typing this could help them! But love can be near, love can be far... love can be touch, taste, smell, or sound! But love is NEVER unconditional. There's ALWAYS a gain to love. Someone seeking love will always want something in return... that being usually, someone to love them back. "Unconditional - not subject to any conditions." There's nothing in this world that is unconditional. People who give to the poor? They some way or another in the backs of their minds are expecting for accolades of some sort. Either from God, from others, or to be recognized as a caring person. Animals that are human's pets that allegedly 'unconditionally love' their owners? They don't! They "love" them because the people FEED them! The food stops, the animal runs away or dies due to their sick dependency on their human. The dogs that are shown sleeping on their master's graves? That's because they don't grasp death as a concept and expect their human to wake up and feed them or play with them. Eventually they realize their human wont, and they give up. But don't ever ask for unconditional love... because if you find it? Guess what... that person is a goddamn liar. They're planning on trying to get SOMETHING out of you, and the fact that they are lying about unconditionally loving you, means that they are not worth your time. I'm jaded, I've been engaged 6 times in my short life time. One of my mates DIED on me, the rest either lied to me, cheated on me, abused me, or left me. But I'm perfectly fine with never being loved again. I'm really done trying, because I just can't trust people enough anymore. My last bad breakup had me in tears for days, and I ended up crying so much I couldn't produce tears. I still can't, but I also don't want to try to love again because I can't trust people enough to anymore. But you need to learn to love yourself, stop with these depressing statuses, asking people if they care... or talking about thoughts of how you'll off yourself... and start looking at your beautiful goddamn face, puff up your healthy lungs as you take a deep breath of nice fresh air... and say to your reflection: "FUCK YOU I'm amazing" because you're telling your self-doubt and your bad thoughts off. Not telling yourself off, but telling THAT part of you off. Make it a routine, then smile at yourself in that mirror... nod and say "heh told THEM" and go on with your days. Because you are amazing, and you'll soon find your confidence... don't bother yourself with trying to find a mate to make you happy. YOU make YOU happy... and the mate will be attracted to that confidence and appear as though magic had summoned them. <3))