I think of you all the time
the news genuinely gutted me, rip coco and roscoe please know that my intentions for this fic were always pure, I am not trying to downplay or benefit on Lewis’s trauma or pain.
This fic goes out to all pet owners who’ve dealt with losses.
From the very beginning, Roscoe wasn’t just a dog. He was a heartbeat at Lewis’s side, a warmth that grounded him in a world that spun far too fast. Born into Lewis’s arms as a bundle of velvet fur and clumsy paws.
Roscoe grew up with the steady hum of engines in the background and the soft rhythm of Lewis’s laughter guiding him.
When you came into Lewis’s life, Roscoe was already a legend in his world.
The first time you met him, he barked once, then pressed his wet nose into your palm like he already knew.
Lewis had looked nervous like his best friend’s approval mattered more than anything else and when Roscoe licked your hand, Lewis’s shoulders relaxed.
Later, he admitted in a whisper,
“I think Roscoe loves you. That’s the highest stamp of approval I could ever give.”
From then on, Roscoe was everywhere.
The first night you stayed over, he sprawled between you both on the bed, snoring like he had every right to the middle spot.
He was there when you moved in together, dragging his toys from room to room until the house truly felt like a home.
He was there when you and Lewis had your first real fight voices sharp, your tears heavy.
Roscoe had nudged his head into your lap, whining softly until your hands stilled in his fur, until Lewis’s anger melted into silence.
The three of you ended up curled on the couch, tangled together in forgiveness.
When Lewis proposed, Roscoe was wearing a little bowtie, tail wagging furiously like he knew something important was about to happen.
On your wedding day, he was the proudest ring bearer in the world, trotting down the aisle with his head high, carrying your forever in a velvet pouch. The photos still hung on your wall Roscoe grinning wide, tongue lolling out as if even he knew he was part of something eternal.
But Roscoe wasn’t just there for the good moments.
He was there the night you lost your first pregnancy, when your world broke apart in silence. You had crumpled in bed, body shaking with sobs you couldn’t control, and Roscoe had climbed up beside you, pressing his weight into your side, resting his head on your stomach like he could shield you from the pain.
Lewis had held you, tears in his own eyes, but it was Roscoe’s steady, grounding warmth that carried you through the darkest night.
Through it all, Coco had been there too her bright eyes, her soft presence, the way she made Roscoe come alive with joy whenever they played.
Losing her was brutal.
Her death tore open something in Lewis he couldn’t put into words.
You’d held him as he cried into your shoulder, whispering, “It’s not fair. They’re supposed to be with us forever.”
And though Roscoe helped soften that grief, her absence never stopped stinging.
Years passed, and Roscoe grew older.
His muzzle turned silver, his body slowed, but he was still Roscoe still padding after Lewis, still curling up beside you, still the center of so much love.
Until, one morning, the house felt too quiet. Roscoe’s breaths were shallow, his eyes tired.
Then came the day everything fell apart .
The vet’s office blurred through tears as Lewis carried him in, his arms trembling.
Roscoe slipped into a coma, his heartbeat faint. The vet’s voice was gentle, but the truth was brutal.
The decision broke Lewis.
He cradled Roscoe close, whispering, “You were with me through everything.
Thank you for loving us.
Thank you for loving her.
You’ll always be my boy.”
You held Roscoe’s paw, stroking his fur, whispering his name and when the injection came, you both felt it the slowing, the stillness, the end.
Lewis didn’t let go for a long time.
He pressed his forehead to Roscoe’s, tears falling freely.
“First Coco… now Roscoe. How do we keep going without them?” he whispered, voice shattered.
Walking out of the vet’s office gutted you both. Lewis held only Roscoe’s leash, the clip swinging loosely, no dog at the end of it.
The silence in the car ride was suffocating at home, the emptiness hit like a tidal wave.
His food bowls still sat in the corner, water untouched.
His toys lay scattered on the rug, waiting for paws that would never return.
His bed still held the indent of his body, his scent lingering like a ghost.
The house felt wrong without him.
Too quiet.
Too still.
That night, you and Lewis sat on the floor beside Roscoe’s empty bed, holding each other in the silence.
The grief was raw, unrelenting, but beneath it was something else: gratitude.
For the years you had, for the love he gave, for the way he had been there through it all.
Roscoe Hamilton.
Beloved boy.
Loyal companion.
Gentle soul.
He had been part of every moment, every triumph, every heartbreak and though his paws would no longer pad across the floor, his presence remained eternal, untouchable, and forever stitched into the story of your lives.
Love like his doesn’t end.
It lingers.
It shapes you.
It stays.
