#ricebcll

                               Take my [ h a n d ]

                                            and my heart and my ( soul )... 

                            because it was MEANT for you. 

“i’m ready. “ the whisper left her lips as the anxiety ascended despite the certainty of her decision. . “ when you do this , you’ll leave him alone , right ?” this was her hail mary , and she planned to see it through. she only hoped that he’d find her letter that contained an explanation. a letter that made it clear that she had no choice but to say goodbye , in hopes that he’d find a way to forgive her, but she couldn’t sit by and do nothing when there was a way to ensure his safety. that she hoped he could find happiness , even if it couldn’t be with her. because she couldn’t say for certain … what their future would look like anymore.

her heart felt like it was suffocating , no matter how much she tried to justify that this is the right thing to do.

@ricebcll​ // original post

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      IT FELT LIKE THEIR LOVING BOND HAD BECOME INACCESSIBLE --- unprotected with each passing word read on a letter left behind. In his mind, none of it made sense --- a ( g o o d b y e ) he wasn’t ready to accept despite how absolute those written phrases sounded. If fear was a type of madness, his entire being was overwhelmed by it and all he could do was react through the chaos of his swirling thoughts. Courage had always been the forefront to any fear he felt, but everything to his core was focused on trying to stop this and finding her. Some may have called him s e l f i s h when he began on his path to find her, knowing that this was HER wish --- but he wouldn’t be able to live with himself if the woman that he loved left thinking that she was saving him from something! 

      With only resolve carrying him, he ran to the only place he could think of --- a place that had only been mentioned in passing conversations between the two. He never thought that he’d have to come here, a place of warning... ( a place where she wasn’t safe ). Every part of him hoped that she wasn’t there... that if he looked through the window of this one place that she wouldn’t be there... but...

                                 THERE SHE WAS... 

                                                     so [ still ]... 

                                              was he too late? 

                                                         He wasn’t going to accept it! 

                     ( he couldn’t )...

      Body became overwhelmed with an inexplainable desire to confirm that she was still all there, that he wasn’t too late --- that she still knew who he was and they can continue loving one another. Bursting through the entrance, the whiskered blond lunged forward and wrapped arms around her frame while he tried to find the breaths to formulate words.

                    HUFF... 

                               HUFF...

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“ it’s cold out , ” hums the doctor , sharp eyes sticking to tohru . his expression is stern -- but then , it always is. in truth , the only thing he feels at present is concern .

SOFT(ish) ANGST PROMPTS | @ricebcll

       Their hands rested on her shoulders once they were reunited again. Kaoru didn’t mean to worry her like that. It’s not like they were gone for too long. But, maybe they should have warned her about their little habit. Well, it wasn’t too late to apologize and explain. It would be a good heads up for next time.

@ricebcll​ asked :  “ my heart won’t stop beating… ”

That, he does not know how to respond to.

It isn't that he doesn't want to talk — in truth, the offer means a lot to him. To have someone there who is willing to listen, to hear him out, to care...

But he doesn't know how. He does not want to make anyone else deal with his thoughts - So he runs away, somewhere far away from the Sohma household where nobody can see him break.

Tohru sits by his futon now he has returned after going missing. He had come home in his zodiac form ; he has returned to his human form now, and is laying with the blankets brought up to his chin.

“ Thank you, ” he says, plastering on a smile. “ but I'm alright. I'm home now, see ? It's okay. ”