#rheiveon

For me, 2019 was still hectic and even less personal arts, but at least I got full time job that year, and less depression ticks, and a bit more happy in general although got hospitalized midyear, but hey, I’m still alive somehow.

I wanted to do a lot more in 2019, but I didn’t end up doing them either was too busy or something else needed my attention. I still need to improve my art skills in general and storytelling, still a lot to catch up. Really, while we now got easy access to internet and social media let us connect and follow more artists and arts in general, the way everything so fast right now made me felt suffocated sometimes. The feeling that you’re lagging behind felt even more greater now; in catching up with latest news, trends, games, arts, animations etc. It felt so overwhelmed sometimes, that I forgot what was my goal in the first place. What I wanted to do, why did I draw, why did I pursue my hobby in the first place. Did I wasted 2019 away like previous years? I asked myself a lot. 

But 2019 wasn’t as bad as 2018. Few of my friends got married, engaged and some got better job and doing better health-wise. I’m grateful I am still alive to congratulate them, and be happy with them in their ventures. That year I also got to contribute more to our local animation industries.