Thinking about autistic RikuâŠ
Riku who wasnât diagnosed until after he became a keyblade master, and that was only because Merlin took one look at him and was like âoh my sweet summer child.â
15yr old Riku at the peak of his masking having actual fits of physical rage in his bedroom that he doesnât really have an answer for other than âtoday was hardâ that are actually meltdowns. Weâre talking throwing things, braking shit, rocking and hair gripping. The whole nine yards.
Riku who struggles comprehending why his friends make plans and then donât follow them through. Like building the raft. They said they were going to do it, so he was doing it. Why was he the only one taking it seriously?
Riku whoâs grasp on humour and sarcasm is good up to a point. Meaning he knows how to do it himself, but if itâs directed at him it takes him a hot second to sus it out. He usually ends up giving actual explanations to people for their sarcasm, even though heâs registered what it was, and then gets told âI was jokingâ. Which fustrated the hell out of him because he KNEW that!!
Riku who has really bad light sensitivity and itâs part of the reason he keeps his hair long for such a long time. Sometimes he kind of wishes he could have the blindfold back.
Riku who despite purposefully keeping his hair long, spends nearly every day tying it back because itâs too much, then taking it down because thatâs too much, then putting it back up and taking it back down until he seriously considers taking a pair of scissors to it.
Riku who doesnât like to be touched unless heâs initiating the touch. Sora is the ONLY exception to that rule, but even then Riku has days when he moves out of Soraâs hold because itâs too much.
Riku whoâs special interest is Gummi ships and is VERY happy when they go to see Cid and the RGRC because Cid is the only one that can keep up with his 1000mph rants about mobility blocks and rotation weaponry.
Riku who values silence, and no one can figure out how he deals with Soraâs constant stream of chatter, until he one day moves his hair back to show Mickey the earplugs in his ears. He felt guilty about it for a long time until Sora told him he already knew about the plugs and didnât mind, he just like being with him.
Riku who likes to play with kairis hair but canât abide having his own hair touched.
Riku who will usually eat anything but if you give him avocado he will have the biggest sensory ick moment youâve ever seen. Same goes for mushrooms.
Riku who steadfastly refuses to sleep in fuzzy PJâs because âno thanks Iâd rather be flayed alive, it would be less stressful.â
Riku who, at aged 8, told kairi that if she put that scarf around his neck he would âabsolutely start screamingâ and then did when she insisted heâd catch cold. Scarfs are demon cloths.
Riku who would rather sit at the back of squalls office in the corner while the other man works, than sit in the science lab with everyone else because Squalls office is quiet and he likes that Squall says what he means.
Riku who ignored his own emotional, physical and sensory needs/wellbeing for months while looking for sora and ended up having a meltdown in front of Mickey and master YenSid.
Riku who now has an app on his Gummiphone that Cid, Squall, Even and Ienzo designed to help him build routine and regulate/track his emotional well-being.
He relies of the breathing exercises game a lot in Quadratum.
Riku who is the reason chip and dale created dark mode in phone settings because nobody could figure out why he barely used his phone until he admitted that it always felt like he was looking into the sun.
Riku who has keyblade related Stims, like tapping the flat of the blade with his nails or messing with the key chain when heâs stressed.
Riku who also has stims such as: flicking his tongue inside his mouth while heâs thinking; twirling strands of his hair incessantly; scrunching his nose; clicking his fingers when heâs distressed; tapping the toe of his boot against the opposite heel when heâs stood still; imperceptible swaying; holding his thumb knuckle gently between his teeth; soft popping noises with his mouth; tapping his palms with the tips of his fingers.
I have more but this is it for now.
