#returnrevengeredemption

Me at Brian winning <3

AKA the last of the confessionals

Can I just say: Best.  Results.  Ever. Johnny is an AMAZING guy.  A favorite through and through.  However, him going was the best result from that rock draw (although maybe Trace/Dom/Pippa would've been better).  And without him, Trace and Dom are just kinda there.  They don't pose any immediate threat. What has now come out of this tribal is also just overall better for my game.  Drew? trusts me more.  Steffen? trusts me more.  Sarah and Crow? trust me a lot but like idk if it's more lol.  Junior? trusts me.  Tommy? needs me rn.  Andrew?  Welll actually... So Andrew and I have now had a conversation about our prior "beef" and it turns out, it was just both of us overthinking.  I know Andrew is a definite threat to me and my game, however we now will have a working relationship that can hopefully further my game more.  And he can actually maybe vote for me/I can vote for him in the end if we can continue working together from this day forward.  I was open about my vote against him and my slight like BLAH about him, and we talked it out and we're okay now !   Now, I just need to talk to Dom and Trace, try and wrap their heads around my game and we'll be gucci.  If I can go deep with connections piled on connections and people wanting to kill each other over me?  That's gold. Reminder that while I'm not the best gameplayer, I know how to work a jury.  I'm not a complete asshole.  I've learned.  Lying will get me nowhere and if Steffen wants to keep doing that, I'll genuinely go final 2/3 with him.  But I'm still not set on Drew or Sarah or Crow.  I loved all 3 of them, but they're so fucking smart.

http://youtu.be/B4Z0O0blbpY SHOOK

My names pippa and my confessional game is weak. So sarah just told me i play a great UTR game. IS that good? Idk but im not really being targetted. Im glad johnny went home in rocks last night. That just means i get no blood on my hands and i didnt have to take a good friend out. I can play nice with these people all i want but that doesnt mean im fond of any of them. Andrew wants to keep Crow in, I want Crow out. I don't trust him and he doesnt realize he buries himself in some holes with the stuff he says. Junior isnt my favorite rn either but i wanna know the 3 people who voted andrew. I know Brain was one, but who are the other two? Im convinced it was Crow and Sarah. Who knows????

Wow we have SO MUCH to fuckin talk about okay where I do even start. I guess I could go with all of the messy ass strategizing that happened yesterday. So keep in mind I'm at a state fair basically all day and have to communicate to these MANIACS on shitty barn wifi for 5 hours and get home only just in time for tribal. Basically all the heroes were in and out of each others' pms all day deciding between Sarah, Brian, and Crow for the vote. I obviously do not want Crow going. Pippa and I have a game relationship with him and we can't have him leaking about the hero idol. Plus he's kinda growing on me? Even though he's a sneak and might be the death of me he's super cool and kinda hilarious. Plus he's a connection to the villains so like. Yeah! Basically we kinda decide to finally go for Sarah but make it seem like we're doing Brian. Which just seems too damn simple. Meanwhile Crow is being sketched out by Pippa and I bc there was a villains plan to split up Johnny and Trace. I told this to Junior and I guess he assumed Crow was behind it so he started spreading that that was a plan and Crow got mad at me? But I'll say right here in confessionals that I did not drop Crow's name in that plan. But nonetheless the bird was suspicious. So blah blah damage control and it's like okay well Pippa and I were kinda thinking hmmm should we go for Trace or Johnny but like, it's too risky and we'll kill our games with the heroes. Life goes on yada yada I'm just sitting there stuffing my face with fried Oreos and suddenly Johnny drops into my pms and we're both just like it's 8 and we don't have an official vote so I suggest Johnny make a chat with just all the heroes to hash shit out and figure who we're voting. I need to make sure that they get away from Crow, and I'm just like voting Sarah is free all you have to do is type out 5 letters y'all but then Johnny... Johnny fucks up. And he says why don't we go for Junior :~) And in a chat with myself, him, Pippa, and Steffen, he tells us not to worry and that he has good reason for going for Junior and that we'll thank him after tribal. So there I am. Sitting there with half a fried Oreo in my mouth while Pat Benetar is singing We Belong in the distance (she was really there y'all at 64 idk how the fuck a bum fuck Connecticut state fair booked her she's doing great btw)... And I'm like. JOHNNY IS REALLY TRYIN IT??????? See, Junior made the Big Miss Steak of telling Johnny right before the Kendall tribal that he had the villain's idol. Now I knew before Johnny did, and I advised Junior don't. But he did! So! I fucking run to Junior and say play your damn idol because Johnny is really about to TRY. IT. And this is perfect because Junior could try getting the villains to vote out a threat like Johnny or Drew. But Junior says he doesn't have sway on the villains which is like DUH and I scream and I'm like idk try dude we have like 25 minutes! So he's telling me how he went to villains and got it onto Drew but told Sarah to vote Johnny and I'm freaking out just ever so slightly because I know I could possibly possibly possibly be the vote but it's w/e. And then Miss Sarah messages me at 9:01 asking who I voted and I'm like fuckin uuuuuuuuuuu Junior? I told Junior that I voted him to save face also. And I also told Pippa Junior was playing and idol so sorry Junior! But um yeah. Sarah is just like lol well Junior has an idol and I ask oh rip well who are they voting AND GIRL ISN'T ANSWERING BUT IS TALKING IN THE TRIBE CHAT. Naturally I begin to freak out, and on top of that Drew is going into full despair in my pms saying he feels something really bad coming. Sarah just knocked on my door in a grim reaper costume and just winked before walking away, Drew is having a full Dread Episode, Pippa is like nah you're good hold onto that idol boy, and Junior is like it's good I got the votes on Drew! I think... But yeah! I did... maybe. So obviously I am freaking the absolute fuck out and I just straight up go to Junior like uuuuuu did you tell anyone you're playing this idol and he said yeah and yes he told Sarah so HAHAHA. HAH. But it's fine right? There's no way they pulled a fast one and are just voting me. Right? :') Well tribal comes around and I'm on call with Pippa and she's saying it's fine. So Junior plays and Johnny is like oh fuck. Then Drew plays. And I'm like okay? Um. Yikes. And then Sarah plays some fuck shit that doesn't work and I'm way too stressed so I play my idol! And Junior gets 8 votes! And Drew gets 2! And I get 2! And like! HELLO? So to make a long mother fuckin story short... Johnny of all people is rocked out which was FANTASTIC. CHERRY ON TOP OF THE CAKE. He knew about the villains and the beauty idol so like he could go! Too strong. And he had to get blindsided soon anyway. So Johnny I love you dude and I actually gained way more of a liking to you than I already did from hosting you so you're awesome but WHEW. FAREWELL. And now it's the fallout. Honestly? That's the most pure euphoria I've ever felt in a single moment in a game. And after hearing all the info I have, I think I have this mostly figured out. I freak a little in the chat and Tommy tells me he voted Junior which would make sense because he got 8 votes. Sarah comes and tells me she didn't vote for me, and says that she knows I voted her which w/e be a Petty Betty™ but she says that maybe if someone told her who voted her then maybe she'd tell me who voted me and I think I finally convinced her it wasn't me because I said at this point I'd trade the info? But idk oh well. Also Crow doesn't come forward confirming or denying he voted me, and I approached Brian and he admitted he voted me. Which btw that was the first time we talked in a while, and it's also just some outside of the game things but I think we ultimately hashed everything out. Anyway, Junior voted Drew so my votes were Brian and one of Sarah or Crow. And the other voted Drew. And I'll be pissed if Crow voted me tbh. But we'll see. The thing is though, Crow said to Pippa and I that himself, Sarah, Brian, and Tommy were all on call and typed in Junior, and then stepped away from their computers or something. Which is a damn lie obviously. So I decided to look back at the merge chat during tribal for shits and giggles, and then the reactions of the villains when I played my idol in particular made shit click. They were pretty standard when Junior and Drew played, but when I played was when Crow, Brian, and Sarah started yelling about rocks. And in the back of my mind I didn't think of it much at first but I was just like okay I guess? And then Crow comes to my pms and say congrats on avoiding rocks which was also confusing. But it didn't hit me till after re reading the chat that they definitely split on purpose, and the villains knew that once I played that all of the votes were gonna be null. And they were gonna go to rocks. So now I have to keep an eye out on Crow. Because there's no way he didn't know this was happening. It's all just so sketchy and idk where to go from here, but I know I need Sarah out. She's just way too chaotic, and in a weird way she saved me by sketching me out at 9:01 but also she makes everything very chaotic. She's grown on me personally but she's wild to play with. I guess I can just make a confessional on what happens now because I have shit to say about talks I had with Steffen and Drew. And this confessional got thicc as fuck so. Hope whoever read this essay enjoyed the reading material!

hi loves it's been a while! after i went through my therapy sessions, I decided that it was time to pick up the pieces of my emotional stability and make a fragile little glass ball! and then guess what happened! these fucking fools shattered it. So after merge, i came in thinking lil crow could blend into the shadows and take a day to relax! but then crow is told he has to pick a side immediately and vote out Kendall w/ Johnny/Pippa/Andrew or Junior w/ Sarah/Brian/Drew crow voted Junior cuz junior is a snake that crow has warned others about! junior stayed! kendall went. i was in minority. so after that, i ghosted the hoes. I was over it, i had more important things than these people, but then im alerted that its "me or brian" HELL NO. OH DONT U EVEN DARE TRY AND TARGET ME AND MY SON so crow caused a little bit of chaos with bullshit lies. he told andrew/pippa that he heard they wanted him out (which he didn't!) and then told hinted to johnny that the heroes were cracking (which probably was true but crow had no proof!) ALSO, he threw out trace's name for the lolz! then after I sat back and let them rat me out (cuz i know they're all rats!) they caused their own paranoia, erasing mine and Brian's name from the slate. =) in a last ditch effort to have comfort in numbers, a group was formed to vote out the ultimate snake, junior. 8 minutes b4 tribal junior comes to me asking to work with me and build trust and yadada and knowing there was a good chance he had an idol, crow played phony and told him that we needed to keep the villains strong! (thus protecting his core of brian and sarah). he agreed and suggested to vote drew, so i pretended to agree! then when junior, drew, and andrew pulled idols out of their asses, i sat pretty knowing I received no votes - but nervous about the inevitable rocks. then i drew a rock and production really TRIED me by putting me at #2 but im better than them and survived! so now im sitting in final 11 with my besties and in a somewhat decent position for a change! =)

Andrew is a paranoid ass hoe, first he thinks the second vote for him came from Sarah, then Drew....when in actuality I was the one who tried blindsiding him last tribal, I swear at this point this boy is spilling all this anti-Drew tea to me and now I'm just reveling in it because I still know Drew has an idol and when Andrew feels its time to strike, tbh it'll be time to use that idol on Drew and destroy Andrew in the process, making Drew a bigger target and next to go tbh, but right now we just need Sarah to use her idol, then take a villain out and our villainous plot will be in motion, I like evil

So Pippa or myself might be dying. Drew voted me according to Junior along with Brian who I knew bc Drew is still convinced I gave Crow the idol which yes I did but. Leave me alone! Honestly just trying to get Sarah out this round but she has that weird reset idol and also could have a merge idol so idk man. I kinda have a bad feeling about tonight and if I get these double digits again catch me going into a major depressive episode! Trace and I decided on Sarah early this morning and seemingly got Dom and Steffen on board? Dom I guess is hero strong and Steffen... I really hope he wouldn't vote me out. Or even Pippa. And then Junior wants Sarah out so like here we go I guess! Idk what the fuck Drew is gonna do because he's a snake. Sarah requested us working together today but it was bullshit. Lmao! Farewell! I'm probably dead. Or Pippa is. Last weird thing is I guess is I told Crow it's me or myself (played dumb about if it could be Pippa) and he said he wasn't letting either of those things happening? Idk! If Crow can work some magic and save me that's fine. Idk man. A bird will either save me or kill me tonight. Or Drew. Or Sarah. Pippa? BEYONCE? I'm so tired can we just have the tribal already? Also if Steffen flips I'm snapping his neck.

So if everyone votes the way they say they are, no weird items are played, and Crow throws his vote, then it could really go to rocks. Fuck! 15 minutes till my imminent death at 11th place :')

Jevvon stop coming back and BEING FUCKING BAYLOR, SHE'S MINE AND YOU HAVE NO RIGHT

Before I start, I want it to be known that personally, I don't have any issues with these people.  This is a game. So I'm not going to sit here and feel safe when the Villains were torn apart last vote, I voted in the minority, and I can't trust anyone, not even someone I thought cared so much about me in this game. Tommy's a mouse.  Like I've said since the beginning, there is no way in which working with Tommy would be a good move and him flipping last round without any warning was truly the nail in the coffin.  He would be a rat if he had a spine, but he doesn't have a spine and is playing the same fucking game I've watched him play before, especially in Cutthroat where my boyfriend was also a contestant. Johnny, Trace, and Dom need to be split up.  That's the current goal.  Steffen mentioned Trace and that's fine, I guess.  But I'd rather it be Dom.  I have no relationship with him and don't plan on really trying to fake one. Crow and Sarah are my faves.  That is all. Steffen and Drew are my other faves.  Steffen flipped last round but like, I guess it's whatever.  Drew's a threat, too, but he's useful to me especially right now. Junior probably shouldn't trust me, but it's hard to not trust someone when your name was the one being thrown out the prior round and everyone didn't vote for you to split up Sarah and her goat, but you would've been gone otherwise. Pippa and Andrew are irrelevant right now, but I want Andrew gone blah blah blah.  Like I say all the time, he's just not someone I ever work well with.  And I'm not trying to try. That's it for now.

NJCKADSLNCJKLASNDJKLCNAKJLSDLANACLKJDSX I CAN'T BELIEVE KENDALL IS OUT!!! FINALLY I GET MY REVENGE ON MY FIRST TUMBLR GAME I EVER PLAYED! I'm sorry Kendall, but you definitely didn't trust me as much as you seemed to have in the beginning, and I really wanted to work with you, but I guess it's bye bye for now and onto the next target

So before the vote, I come to find out that there is a chat made between Steffen, Drew, Sarah, Brian, Tommy, Kendall; all with the purpose of voting for Junior, which is why everyone else all targeted Kendall, because her name was already out there, and getting everyone else on board, including Tommy and Steffen who flipped on that group, to vote for Kendall was amazing and now I seem to have more of a footing in the tribe, but right now, I'm not trying to be the second voted out of merge again because that's not a good look, so I need to keep this momentum going

I'm starting to get nervous because after talking to Steffen, I'm starting to realize that I'm being perceived as the leader of the group of people that voted for Kendall, which I personally think is just because of the way I talk, and that taking a huge part in me being looked at as a leader, which really isn't good. Steffen clued me in on the fact that Junior was sketched out that anything that he says to Dom or Trace is going to get back to me, which is bad because that means the three of us are already being grouped together, and I'm not liking that because that's my ideal f3 tbqh, and now I'm just trying to think of ways to get out of this. Realistically, me being "talked" about isn't going to damage me that much because there are so many people in this game, who i really really don't think would vote for me. Particularly Dom and Trace in our "cracking a cold one" chat, Tommy because him, Trace and I have something going, and Tommy has had that strong relationship with me from day one, Steffen won't because I made him KNOW that he's my ride or die in this game, and we share an idol and then there's my good buddy Crow who I've been friends with for years and don't see targeting me either, but it still can happen. After that, I'd like to think that Andrew, Pippa, Junior, Brian and Drew all trust me enough, especially since Drew and I share an idol, and I know that Junior has an idol, and I think I'm the only one that knows, which is spectacular for my game, because that means he just has to trust me a little bit more than he has been. Even though people are looking at me, I still think it just means they'll go for other people before they go for me, and unless there's some twist or idol going around, I don't see myself going down. Starting next round I really want to start trying in immunities and try to get myself a good standing to make a BIG move when I'm immune, but I'm really going to start to try to lay low so I don't get called out, and hopefully that'll keep me in a safer spot for an extra round or two more than I would've already in the first place.

So for the vote tonight, it's seeming that everyone is just waiting on a consensus between Crow, Sarah and Brian, and I really don't know what everyone is going to decide, but this whole point of me staying low key and trying not to be called out is what I'm going for, and I just have to hope that my alliance chooses Sarah, but if they don't, after my talk with Steffen, I should really just go with the flow a bit more, so that's what I'm going to do. Slowing down to the best of my abiltiies for now, and this round, when you see my vote, you should expect me to go with the flow.

I guess it's going to have to be Crow tonight because my group can't come to a damn decision, and I need to seem lenient. This whole thing just sounds very sketchy though because I really believe that Crow isn't going home, and there is some coo going on, which involves Junior, Steffen, Drew, Crow, Sarah, Brian and Tommy, and I'm about to be blindsided and one of my allies is about to go home. I'm just getting this hunch that this tribal is not going to be what it seems to be, especially when I was on call with Steffen, he seemed very stone cold and he was messaging people while on our call, and it just makes me think a move is being made.. All I can do is have faith in the people I've had faith in, and hope that nothing is going to go wrong in terms of me in this game, and we'll see what happens after that. Best thing I can do is blow up everyone's game on my way out and reveal Junior, Steffen and Drew's idols and see who stays shocked LMAO

Okay.... something is happening. Andrew confirmed for me that they're trying to split up Trace and I, and it's likely them going for Trace, but I'm not really sure if this is actually what's going to be going down. Andrew and I are trying to figure the fuck out what to do, but I low-key think whatever happens is going to end with Junior's idol being played and Trace going home. I don't want to approach him because I think that there's a high chance they can change the vote to me.

IF SOMEONE DOESN'T SPEAK UP IN THIS ALL HEROES CHAT THEN TRACE IS GOING TO GO HOME AND I'M GOING TO HAVE AN ANEURISM LIKE FFS THESE PEOPLE NEED TO STOP BEING A BUNCH OF BITCHES

Coming into the drama like https://68.media.tumblr.com/7194960b6ca49813e94a1479697f4e0f/tumblr_orhzfe7Tut1vdcoklo1_500.gif

I love my game imploding everywhere

Well shit I know where the idols are Villain idol-Junior Beauty Idol-Drew Merge Idol-Drew Shokan idol-Me Before Shokan-Sarah honestly I feel this whole mess is because of me and I want to cry

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh THE ANGELS HAVE SPOKEN, I AM THE CHOSEN ONE THAT JUST FUCKING HAPPENEDDDDDD SHOOKETH. AND NOW IM AT MERGE WITH A LOT MORE LIFE LEFT IN ME GAWD. GAWD IS GOOD. PURRAISE GAWD FUR VITTORY

https://youtu.be/2e2WBCDcOSs

http://youtu.be/fi-5lcsiBHc godt

Okay now that I've got my composure back, here's a recap of what happened: 1) I made a chat with Steffen and Drew, made a very logical and reasonable plea, and awaited their reply for several hours 2) I flat-out told Dom and Ashton I would be voting for one of them for the sake of clarity. Ended up deciding on Ashton since he tried to lie to me again like I'm some idiot? 3) Steffen and Drew were honest with me - flat-out said they were sending me home 4) I get frustrated and rageful. I decide that just because they say I'm out doesn't mean I'm out, so I go to Ashton and spill tea on how they don't trust him 5) He runs back to Drew and tells him what I say 6) I explode in main chat because I have nothing to lose and make it a point to know that the 4 of them are tight 7) 45 minutes before tribal, Pippa messages me, saying how she likes my genuine nature, doesn't think I deserve to leave, and would be willing to hand me her and Andrew's idol. 8) I freak out and then find myself in a f3 alliance with the both of them - the deal is that I play the idol on myself and vote for Drew. (Which is what I did) 9) Before our idol exchange is complete, Sarah starts rage-calling me (on Snap and on Skype) to say that I wasn't going anywhere. 10) Confused, I let her continue as we go on call. She tells me of her special idol that resets the challenge. She promises to throw so that I can merge. and I was over here contemplating how I would face Matt and Bodhi after getting pre-merged. wowza! dont count miss crow out! VL Confessional: caw caw aint dead yet bitch!

Now that merge has come around, I've been offered wayyy too many alliances. First off, we have the general, villains alliance of the last 5 of us. Then we have the inner core of that between myself, Tommy, and Sarah. Then we have the true inner core of that between myself, Sarah, and Brian. Then we have the iconic power duo of myself and Sarah within that. THEN I'm now working with Andrew and Pippa in a final 3 alliance. AND ON TOP OF THAT Johnny is trying to orchestrate an alliance between myself, Brian, him, and Steffen AND THE CHERRY ON THE FUCKING CAKE Is that Drew is still trying to salvage w/e the fuck we have at this point... but I told him no. so. there's that. ANYWAYS. CROW HAS LIFE AGAIN IN THIS GAME!

SO WOW! Honestly, the past 12 hours has been overwhelmingly shocking, and I've purposely taken a step back for multiple reasons. One was because I didn't want to dig too deep into people about what happened with Ashton's blindside, particularly with Crow and Steffen, and also I didn't want to be too eager. Last time I played I was way too eager at merge, and it caught me on the second vote, so I'm not trying to go down that early again this time. Let's recap though: 1. Crow got an idol given to him by a hero, and no one knows which one yet, and that person made a deal with him that Crow couldn't tell anyone, and it means he won't even tell me. 2. Crow doesn't trust Steffen anymore because Steffen voted for Crow originally, and then used his power, which made Crow think that Steffen didn't trust him, and that Crow would use his vote against Steffen, which made Crow wary. 3. Steffen had a second "idol" he didn't tell me about............ INTERESTING! I mean listen. I wouldn't have told Steffen if I found an idol either, but still, I partially thought we had an understanding, but I also totally wouldn't expect him to just give it to me, that's his, and he can do what he wants with it. If anything, I can guilt trip him about our idol. 4. Drew knew about Steffen's vote steal idol, which means that those two revealed themselves as a tight duo as well, and I know that I have that tight duo relationship with Drew, and also with Steffen, and in fact I share an idol with both of them, so I'm curious as to what they may or may not have told each other... All I will find out soon I'm sure. 5. Tommy told me that there was an alliance with Isaac, Kendall, Alex, Drew, Pippa, Andrew, but little does he know that I was in that alliance too, and I think it's getting out because Alex told Tommy after the aftermath of the Isaac vote, which is very interesting, and also turns out that Tommy was told I was the one that threw out his name, so Tommy may be wary of me at this point, and I need to look out for that. I told Trace and Dom that I was in that alliance, so this way they knew about it before they could be told I was a part of it as well, and they find me sketchy, and Steffen already knows. Last but not least, rip Ashton. What a great lad, and would've been an incredible sheep in my grand scheme, but now I need to look for alternative options. My plan for the day is to talk around, not talk about any proposals of plans or anything, except with Steffen, and then get Steffen back on Crow's good side. Brian and I did our part, and now Crow and Steffen need to go through therapy in order for the four of us to be able to be double agents for each other during this beginning phase of merge. I'm curious how this day is going to go on, but it shall be interesting to see how everything plays out. This is where the game takes a step forward, and everything resets, and I'm ready to play an under the radar snaky game. I think a lot of people trust me, and I'm going to have to do a lot of damage control along the way, but at this point, I'm playing with no fear, and I'm going full force into this merge in a very strategic manner, so bring it on!

Coming into merge, you need to count on your relationships, and I know mine are overly shaky, but I still think I can bounce back from some of them. These are the people I trust in order: 1. Steffen - My ride or die, he knows I won't turn on him, we share an idol together and I've told him almost everything about my game, but still huge threat. 2. Trace - Too standup of a guy, and I know he trusts me or Dom the most, but legitimately wants him, Dom and I in the finals, so I'm gonna keep with that. 3. Crow - I really don't see any benefit in Crow's game where he turns on me, and it's great to know that because we're that good of friends. 4. Dom - We don't talk as much one on one, but we still are pretty damn solid, and he doesn't seem like the kinda guy to make a move against me this early. 5. Andrew - I really really really want to work with Andrew probably more than anyone above, but at the same time, I've gotta just keep on my toes because he wants this bad and seems like he would do anything to get it. 6.Drew - I just don't think Drew is going to last deep, but we share an idol, and it seems our relationship was by force, but he was the one who asked for a deal, so i'll hold to it for now? 7. Tommy - Tommy is a fucking sociopath, but loves me for some reason. We'll see with that boy, but I see people coming for him hard soon, and I'm not going to be too bothered if he goes. 8. Brian - I built this relationship with Brian right when we swapped tribes, and I know he isn't too active, but I want to have his back for Steffen's sake, and hopefully it will transfer to my sake as well. 9. Junior - I have been bro'ing down with him a lot, and I think there's a very good shot that we can maintain a decent relationship for the time being, but I'm not looking to solidify deals or anything. 10. Pippa - I think she's still mad at me from the Isaac vote, and I just can't believe that she wants to work with me. I think Andrew will work on her for me. 11. Kendall - Kendall and I share a bit of interest in this game, and I think she has bigger fish to fry, but she's horribly inactive and doesn't deserve to be here anymore, and in order to knock down Sarah, I've gotta go for Kendall first. 12. Sarah - Easily the biggest threat to my personal game left right now. She knows that I threw her name around the only tribal we went to, and now I have a big Bull's Eye on my back, so I've just gotta lay low, remain cordial and hope she tries to use me for moves opposed to going for me. Only time will tell. I do know that Sarah/Brian/Crow/Junior are VERY close, I'm not too sure about Tommy, but he seems like he's not too hellbent on the Heroes vs Villains thing. I'm trying to lay low so hard, and I'm hoping to use my relationships to the best of my abilities for as long as I can, but I know I'm going to be under fire sooner rather than later. I really want to come off as unthreatening for the time being and hope that people don't see a purpose of coming for me, but at the same time, I want to utilize these idols that I have in my back pocket and show that I can add something to my resume, but only time will tell how things will go. I want to purposely not invest as much time in talking to people for the sole reason of sticking around longer, even if it's at the expense of my allies.

so like...time to put the charm on trace his insecurities are getting idoled out and basically being a goat so hopefully i can convince him that hes being johnnys goat and that he can flip ... not that i want him to flip right away but hes now my work in progess WISH ME LUCK? FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK IMMA NEED IT 

I've been lackluster on these, oops.  Hopefully I survive this round in order to ensure that I can be super extra in the following rounds and make more confessionals. Anyway, game stuff ! Crow and Steffen?  Not on great terms right now!  Hopefully that gets fixed because an alliance between the three of us plus Johnny is supposed to be a thing that's supposed to run this game.  So yea ! Crow and Sarah?  My parents!  Favorite alliance I have with my 2 "day 1s."  I'll try and stick loyal to this, however I think that going to the end with either of this people is death. I think I'm currently in a shitty position to win.  Like I'll need to become super duper likable quick because I'm currently sitting around big threat after big threat.  Sarah's being targeted.  Andrew's being targeted.  Drew's being targeted.  Johnny's being targeted.  Steffen's being targeted.  And of COURSE, almost all of these people are people I'd love to go far with.  But realistically, if I had to pick a final 3 right here, right now.  I'd love to go to the end with Pippa and Kendall.  I feel like they're both likable, but I feel like they're games are kinda lackluster up to this point.  Who am I to speak though when mine isn't too hot either? Anyway, that's just me rn.  I'll be back later after immunity!

Okay so fuck. We merged. And first I'd like to say. Ahem. YES. TWAS I WHO STARTED THE FIRE UPON DREW'S HOUSE!! So fuckin basically I had been thinking about giving Crow the hero idol after his rant in the one world bc like I don't trust Drew and getting him out before merge would have been amazing. So I'm screaming about it in my host chat and then Pippa messages me hey I have a really awful idea and I'm like oh fuck we might have the same idea can we call and I'm like okay we'll say our ideas in the 3 2 1 and the it happens and we're both like "GIVE CROW THE HERO IDOL AND GET HIM TO KILL DREW" dfghjkl and I'm like AAAAA and she's like AAAAA and we're both like AAAAA ! ! ! ! !! ! ! ! !!! ! !  ! ! ! ! !!! !  ! ! !!! ! ! Anyway Pippa gets good with Crow and I'm like fuck okay Crow seems like he's someone who plays based on loyalty but we could be TOTALLY fucking wrong BUT he does end up playing the idol and voting Drew. Perfect plan, right? Well know because Steffen exists. And I should have seen this shit coming because I knew from way back when from Isaac's rat ass that Steffen found that vote steal day 2. And of COURSE Steffen doesn't take the opportunity to vote Drew anyway because Steffen rarely makes big moves (looks back at the ballsy comment). So Ashton goes and I feel like shit but at the same time it sounded like Ashton was up Drew's ass so I'd rather him then Dom especially bc I think we wanna target Dom this round if he isn't immune? Also I now have Ashton's idol all to myself :~) Still woulda been nice tho if Drew went bc basically what this was was Drew asking too many questions about Alex leaving with the brawn idol so I basically called a meeting with Drew by some train tracks and was gonna push him in front of the next oncoming train house of cards style but... can't have everything! Honestly this was just Pippa and I being like - rather be iconic and lose than be boring and win. And like fuck it we tried making a power play okay? Idc I can say I tried. And now it's fuckin hilarious bc everyone's on a wild goose chase to find who gave Crow the hero idol bc it was actually revealed on an official pic that that was the hero idol lmao. Whoops! Also I'm pretty sure Crow told Sarah bc I got some interesting info from Junior last night that at like 8:30 Sarah had to get off call with Junior because Crow needed to call her and I'm like hmmmmmm but idk if he leaked who gave it to him. I know they're close tho. So now it comes down to who to take out. Basically Junior and I had a talk and there are kinda floater minions who can get far - specifically Kendall and Brian for Sarah and Dom for Drew. He initially wanted to go for Kendall or Brian but I suggested maybe link up with Sarah's crew first to take out Dom before Drew gets into too big of a power position. That way, I can be pushing my own agenda of continuing to work with Crow bc Pippa and I have a final 3 deal with him at this point. Which idk how strongly we're all gonna stick to it but I'd like to stick to it as long as I realistically can unless I'm voted out first? Yeah idk. We'll see. But this could also garner trust with Sarah. The other fun thing is if Dom (a hero) goes first then Junior's paranoid ass said he'd be fine taking out Brian (a villain) next, just because Junior still has a worry that the heroes will gang up on the villains and I'm like lmao at this point I don't trust most of the heroes left but okay Junior! Yeah honestly I'm gonna try working with Brian but we kinda have a messy history both in and out of the game, and I usually don't with people but I can at least try with him even thought I want him out soon? He probably wants me gone soon too so like oh well. Only person I haven't talked to all game tho. Also there's Johnny and Trace which side note - Johnny, Sarah, and Drew have kinda been labeled the leaders I think at this point? Idk if Junior, Pippa, and I are also seen as a faction but I guess we'll find out soon. So I'm looking out for Johnny too bc I'm kinda suspicious of him, and I think Trace is definitely with him. Anyway I think we'll get a clearer picture of wtf is happening after immunity results, but I just wanna make sure I'm good with Crow, keep Sarah from being paranoid, get a good target on Dom, and test the waters with Brian. Whew. I have my work cut out for me and if I flop 13th place here I come!

Operation STAY UNDER THE RADAR is in full swing. Here's my philosophy on this. I think that I'm fairly safe this round, and my name will probably not go around, just due to the Villains who I have relationships with, and I just don't see it happening. I don't care if I'm on the wrong side of the vote this round because the second round of merge always proves to be the most hectic. Everyone wants the first round to be easy, which means that it's typically side vs side, but the second round is when everyone jumps around and starts acting crazy, and that's where I'll SLOWLY slide from the cracks. I don't care who goes, I hope idols and shit are played and, as long as it isn't me, I know I'm strategically capable to work any angle I need to next round, but why be pushy now? It's still final 13 and I'm not looking to become a target for at least 3-4 more rounds, until I have to finally start hustling at this game. It's all in the plan... It's all in the plan.

Honestly, this round they're going for Junior or Kendall, and I, for the first time, have no fucking idea where those names came from, but once I know exactly who is doing what, I'm just going to make my rounds and make sure that people trust that I'm doing what they want me to do, so they think I'm more valuable. I'm at a point in the game where I am laying lower than I ever have before, and I think that this is going to be a really good round for me. I'm waiting to see which person my alliance of five is going to target, and then that's probably how I'll vote, and no one will think differently of me for it. Personally, i'd like it if Junior stayed and Kendall went home, but Junior going home wouldn't be horrible either because he's a villain, and I can't get a great read on him, but I'm also contemplating trying to scoop him up as an ally, so we'll see what ends up happening. This round should be pretty simple for me. I just have to play it cool, and then hope to advance my position as time goes on.

I FEEL BETRAYED *blood drips from my heart* APPARENTLY there was an alliance made with Kendall, Sarah, Brian, Tommy, Steffen and Drew in it, and they're all trying to get Junior out tonight and I'm fucking choking. How DARE they try to do something without me? They must go bye bye now. I am absolutely using this to get the rest of the numbers onto voting for Kendall and hoping that it works. Again, I'm not going to go to town with this, but hopefully Kendall can go home tonight, and then Drew and Steffen have no choice but to come back to us, and then later on, I can even blame Tommy to Sarah and just say that I was going on self preservation and that  I need to do stuff to work on this.

http://youtu.be/DqrxfTd1F6c

Okay so after the Kage lies, I don't trust any of these hoes, not even Steffen. But of course, I have to play nice so that I don't blow the chance that Steffen and Drew try and help me out in the event that we do lose the next immunity.... For now, I'm just holding on until merge. If I can make it there, these heroes are going to be in a world of hurt... Hopefully I can convince the other villains on the other tribes to throw the comp because I have a feeling we're merging after this round.... caw caw ain't dead yet bitch!

You can either die a hero https://68.media.tumblr.com/6865565e8f6874638a408978740a5014/tumblr_inline_opdge0EYlL1qmr3lf_540.gif Or Watch Yourself Become the Villain https://68.media.tumblr.com/5360b301c2e4b72ce630309bc465912d/tumblr_inline_opdgb2nk1x1qmr3lf_540.gif Or Basically You Can Stay as the Villain the Whole Fucking Time https://68.media.tumblr.com/4514f1145df82fdc43882bc09efee733/tumblr_inline_opdgc0LQn21qmr3lf_540.gif which will I be???

VL Confessional: These heroes are so gross and hypocritical....like if you identify as a hero, read these instructions so you can help the rest of us: http://www.wikihow.com/Disappear-Completely

I feel I just need to express how infuriated I am right now. Brian and Kendall really have not been throwing their all into this game, and I feel it'd be unfair for Crow or Junior to go home simply because our tribe dominates another challenge, while Brian and Kendall don't do shit for the tribe. I know I'm potentially in danger when our tribe loses, but at the same time, I want Kendall or Brian gone, and almost don't mind doing it, but I know it'd be mad tricky, and I just need to get back with my alliance at merge, so I know that I'm not the biggest target, but in this tribe, I am almost certain that I'm who Sarah is going to try to make a move on, so it's nervewracking considering I'm doing the challenge as I type this, but we'll see what happens.

nAre you telling me that Johnny has never lost a post swap immunity challenge in two seasons? I'm a fucking king. Safe again. See you in the next round! Hoping for a merge. Crow is probably going, which sucks, and even though he's probably my closest friend in the game, I'd rather him go than the four I'm in an alliance with.... BUT ON THE OTHER HAND!! If Crow whips out an idol and takes out anyone but Steffen, I'll be pretty happy too because that means the group of (soon to be, if this happens) five would be too reliant on each other, which means no one would turn on me in the immediate future, and Crow would be safe AND that idol would be out of play, which would be fantastic. I know it's impossible for Steffen to go home this round, and I don't really think Crow would vote for him anyways, so we'll see what's up.

ok shit I suck at sending confessionals. Let's go back to last vote our first tribal on the brawn tribe. It was really just a 50/50 decision between Kage and Crow going. I would've preferred Crow to go but i'm not gonna stick my neck out for him so no big deal to me Kage goes 3-2-1 after drew throws his vote away just showing how fucking fast he is thinking. And that was it...OH Also I lied to Crow and Kage the whole time saying I was gonna vote drew. Sorry I'm more loyal to my hero friends than I am my GL buddies. 

now we get to this new challenge and the hosts rob us of the one (It was actually fair but i'm gonna be bitter anyways) and now we have to go to tribal again with zero options. It's Crow or bust. It's too early to flip on the alliance when we haven't even hit the merge yet especially when I have very little relationship with crow. But just is case I need to make sure Crow doesn't vote me in case he whips out a quick idol. So now it's time for our favorite game on the brawn tribe......"LIE TO CROW OVER AND OVER AGAIN" This episode we will be saying that we are voting for DOM. Obviously Im not gonna actually do that but hey I don't want him to vote me so it's all i can do.  

Thank god we didn't have to go to tribal but also fuck we didn't go to tribal. Lowkey I think it still woulda been best to take out Pippa and if we swap or merge and I'm there with her that paints a huge target on our backs, but tbh at this point I'm hypothetically gonna say we could get the target on bigger threats like Sarah, Johnny, Drew, Junior etc etc. I don't see myself as a huge threat so honestly I'm hoping it's fine? I also have these 2 idols at the moment that I really wanna get to the merge with, because going to a 3 person tribal while holding 2 idols is a dangerous fuckin game. Guess we'll see!

I'm a paranoid guy and rn it's coming out. I have no reason to be be paranoid but this vote is the first time in 26 days now that I'm actually worried I could go home. I'd look stupid playing the idol so I shouldn't do that...really all I can do is trust my allies. AAAAAAAAA SO STRESSFUL. everything should be ok I just need to chill 

Looks like I'm going out. Idiots. I deserve to be here over a LOT of people. But if they aren't going to listen to my wonderfully constructed argument using ethos, logos, and pathos, then they're either A) Idiots. B) Blind. C) Jealous. D) Illiterate Like, if this is about strength, I deserve to be here. If this is about trust, I deserve to be here. If this is about sociality, I deserve to be here. Just because we started on opposite tribes, that's justification enough? I hope they all get what's coming to them for being passive with opportunities in this game. I stuck out my neck for Brian, rallied against Richie, and stood by Kage in the end. This is some bullshit "all-stars" if they're afraid to make a move to oust a worthless hero in exchange for a powerful ally.

WE GON GIVE CROW AN IDOL omfg im screaming. andrew and i decided being iconic is better than being boring! hosts pls allow this 

http://youtu.be/k3uWD-Txres oop

this is the only solution to get drew out! we wouldn't have been able to do it otherwise. no matter how many times you say "drew is a solid player and will beat us all" they always trust him. I love drew to death but i need to do whats best for my game and for andrews. Isaac was my f2 but andrew now had that spot. Crow is a good ally because he literally lost all of his allies the moment he said all that shit in the one world. I also love crow to death and i havent really talked to anyone else. i decided that if i could be a villain in this game, i would. no more misses nice pippa. shes here to play. also i feel like andrew or crow thinks im trying to control this game (and maybe i am) but in saying that i feel like raven saying "i was the pupper master". I'd rather be iconic than boring, wouldn't you? so bye drew, and have fun in puppeteer hell.  

Alex C going home is literally making this the best day of my life... The only thing that's better is knowing that there's a VERY good chance he also left with an idol in his pocket, which is one idol out of the game, on top of the person I didn't want here the most. Now it's just Sarah, and a loose Kendall left vs the world, and they won't make it anywhere. Another great thing about this round is that Brian won immunity for our whole tribe, so now we're safe and guaranteed a spot in the top 14. I'm honestly not surprised I made it this far, but now I really just need to continue to lay low, with the consistent maintaining of control of our tribe. The one thing that was interesting this round is that Alex C. apparently found an idol for the Brawn tribe, and had to give it to a member of the Brawn tribe, so he chose Drew, as to where Drew gave it right back to him (all according to Drew), which now means that either Drew is coming up with some BULL FICACTA (Jewish term, don't judge) or he's actually telling the truth, and there's a very good chance Alex C, the dumbass of all dumbasses, left the game with an idol in his pocket. Other than that, there isn't much to add to this round unfortunately. At least now I know about idols and how they work, and that the Brawn one is out of play. I wouldn't be surprised if another idol has already been found, but I'm getting no luck looking for it. I think I'm going to propose to my alliance with Drew, Steffen, Ashton, Trace and Dom that we need to all compare notes and look for it together to get it, but what that really means is that there's a VERY good chance that if Dom finds it, he's going to give it to Trace, if Drew or Steffen find it, they're going to give it to me, and if I find it I'm definitely giving it to Steffen. I have enough people willing to give me an idol because they think it'll help me out, and you BEST BELIEVE I am not giving that idol back like Drew did.... What a fucking bozo

I just have to reiterate how happy I am that Alex C is gone. I just can't believe it. I think Sarah is going to think I had something to do with this, but oops?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ChGisl7_61M&feature=youtu.be

So considering we won immunity, I figured it'd be a pretty lul day for me, and I'd be able to just calm the fuck down for a half a second, but clearly that was never going to happen because so much information got thrown at me yesterday from Drew, and I didn't even expect that information to come my way but it did. Firstly, Drew found the Beauty idol, and had to will it to someone on my tribe, and OF COURSE he picked me, and then I gave it back to him as a sign of trust (same I did with Steffen) and I know when I ask him for the idol as well, if I'm in trouble, then he'd easily give it to me, which is fucking fantastic. ON TOP OF THAT, I found out that Kendall told Drew that Sarah I guess found the Brawn idol, willed it to Crow? and then ended up getting it back (at least that's how I assume Sarah got the idol, and again, her having the idol is all hingent on what Kendall told Drew, and then Drew relaying that to me). Now I am very aware of every idol in the game (minus a potential Villains super idol), which is actually amazing because I am 99% sure I am the only one that knows about Drew's idol and Steffen/my idol because Steffen and Drew were both VERY focused on not telling anyone, and I'm assuming that Crow/Sarah/Kendall/Drew/I know about Sarah's idol, but Kendall has no idea that she made that oopsie, and that it's going to come back to bite her. Being immune is awesome, and people are anticipating a f14 merge, but I just don't think it's realistic. I think we're merging at 12 or 11, and we have a swap after this, which would be pretty awesome. Going into this later phase of the game, the only thing I have to worry about at this point is an angry Pippa and a potentially still bitter Sarah, because I went after her during the joint tribal, so I just need to be careful of that. I am overly confident in A LOT of my relationships, but I'm NEVER going to be too confident, not making too many concrete deals when we get to merge because I know that people talk. I am done offering deals and alliances, and I'm going to let my social game shine through and just get included in as much as I can, and show that I am game to work with anyone, so that way I can continue to know more than anyone. Knowing the most in this game shows that you're an incredible player, and definitely holding onto more information about idols than everyone in the game is already impressive, and I have the Isaac move on my resume, and now I have to get to merge and be ready to make more important moves.

okay jk I misunderstood Drew. Sarah does not have an idol. Kendall was planning to tell Sarah that Drew had an idol, so this way Sarah could run to the Villains on the Brawn tribe and tell them that Drew had an "idol," which is funny enough because Kendall doesn't know that Drew actually has an idol, so that plan would've blown up the fact that Drew actually has one. On 9/15/17, at 10:35 AM, Drewbert wrote: > lol yeah still no word on where the Hero, Villain, or Brain idol is LOL YEA LUL I HAVE THE HEROES/VILLAINS IDOL, and I am quite sure there's only one of them, so you just don't know buddy ;) I've been thinking about it, and definitely going to the finals with any combination of Dom/Trace/Ashton is my best bet. I legitimately hope that we can get to the final six of this game with that alliance that I have, and then let my f3 with Trace and Dom reign through, and then I can maybe beast it out. As much as Steffen and Drew trust me, and honestly I trust them the same, them getting to finals could result in a big loss for me, but I do know that they are arguably two of the biggest players left in the game, along with Sarah and Tommy and Brian, so now I know that those people are going to be under fire more than others. I just need to continue to target weaker players I'm not working with, so that way I can let the targets be the main threats until at least final seven, and then people might start looking at me and I'm going to have to start making moves. My ideal situation is that I can truly blow the fuck out of people's games if they get me once, I use my "second chance" idol that Steffen and I share, and then convince Drew that the next round I need to borrow his idol, but hopefully this is later in the game, and will turn to the point that I am the biggest threat, and then I just have to find a way to steamroll to the end. I know this game isn't going to be easy, but I'm very ready for merge and I'm ready to start this merge off right and start making power moves and make a name for myself. People don't see this underdog coming.

Current Alliances: Trace - Ride or Die Steffen - Ride or Die Drew - Ride or Die JT^2 - Tommy and Trace Drinking a cold one with the boys - Dom and Trace Menninists - Ashton, Trace, Dom, Steffen, Drew Solomans - Andrew, Steffen, Pippa Disbanded 30s Alliance? - Kendall, Andrew, Pippa, Drew Cross Tribal Pregame Friends Deal - Crow, Brian, Steffen I really just need to spend some time on Jonathan in the near future because he's the only one, who I don't have much with, but from what I heard, he was the bottom of the villains, so it shouldn't be too difficult, but there's also a great chance he goes home this round. Praying for more alliances and mixed deals to fall into my lap. This is only the beginning, and another alliance made is another opportunity to better position myself. Just staying as cautious as possible

I also need to not ask Andrew what’s happening at tribal because he’s going to think I’m playing too hard and that I’m being intrusive, and especially after I most recently screwed him over, I gotta just tread lightly with him and continue to prove to him that he can trust me. Where it’s funny, because the person, aside from Crow/Steffen/Trace (it's all a tie between these four), I like in the cast the MOST is Andrew, and I fucking ADORE him, and it’s just unfortunate that he might get fucked because of me on his swapped tribe, but if he makes it out, I'm going to be eternally grateful, and I'm going to need to find a way to not make a concrete deal with him at merge because he knows that I did that last time in Soloman (since he hosted me), so I just can't do it again.

Everyone's like "Crow ur fine." "Crow ur totally safe." but Crow knows better, momma didnt raise no fool! i still see the hero/villain split and i still see my ass on the wrong side PLUS no bitch seems to want to talk to me about game whatsoever but when I bring it up they're like "yea I'm down!" and its like well.....hmmm if you were really wanting to play with me, wouldn't you come to me earlier? so I can't wait to get 15th and be a victim of yet another iconic robbery. the fact that Kage is making it farther than me is honestly enough to make me nauseous

[9/15/17, 2:25:51 PM] Do m: Ok but real talk [9/15/17, 2:26:02 PM] Do m: Drew and Steffen are huge threats [9/15/17, 2:36:33 PM] Trace Demarest: yeah i think we need all 6 of us in the merge regardless [9/15/17, 2:36:39 PM] Trace Demarest: that would make me feel much much safer [9/15/17, 2:37:51 PM] Johnny (Kuang Si Host): Especially with two massive targets in our way before any of us get targeted [9/15/17, 2:38:22 PM] Trace Demarest: yeah exactly [9/15/17, 2:38:29 PM] Trace Demarest: and i don’t think either of them have idols tbh THEY BOTH HAVE IDOLS YOU FUCKING MORON LMFAOOOOOOOO

I have a lot to say since Alex has been voted out so I'm just splitting it into two confessionals because this one is going to be my explanation not only for Alex, but for everyone in the game I couldn't fully explain my motives to, because I know there wasn't a single person in the game that knew all 4 of these reasons: 1) What this vote was was a statement back to the people who had rose to power through voting out Isaac. Even if you were no longer with Sarah, it went to show that the people she tried to and succeeded in damaging weren't going to let it happen without repercussions. There's a law of returns in these games, and I wanted to make sure this was seen through to. If Isaac going was a statement to it no longer being heroes vs villains, then I wanted to make a statement that everyone wasn't just going to lie down and die, and that I could work with the villains as well. 2) That brings me to the second reason. I needed to collaborate with the villains. Junior and I had a discussion about how this tribal was going to be the one everyone on Brawn and Beauty was eyeing in order to see which directions the 5 of us (3 heroes and 2 villains) would go after such a massive blindside that redefined allegiances. Would the heroes come together and take the easy vote, would one hero flip, would villain turn against villain, or would a solid 4 come together to take out a hero? Obviously the latter was decided on. Isaac going and me being on this disaster of a brain tribe is me new slating it. I wanna work with villains. Fuck hero strong. I'm going to do what I think I have to do to survive from here on out. 3) This is one that I couldn't really disclose to people. I wanted Drew to lose possession of his idol. Getting you to hold Drew's idol for that tribal was easy enough, since you basically voiced you wanted to hold it anyway. And Drew with an idol is too much power for him. Quite frankly, I would rather go far without him, and if I want to blindside him eventually, him having no idol is fantastic. I'm sorry Drew, but I don't want this to be your 200th win. 4) This last reason could sting a little, but honestly I just didn't wanna move forward with you. When figuring out between Brian and Sarah, and then deciding on Tommy, you were very condescending through a large portion of the ordeal. You yelled at me in pms, made me and I know for a fact other people, feel stupid and belittled for thinking what we thought. For me, treating other people like that - with no common courtesy or self-awareness of your immaturity - doesn't fly for me. And if I feel that morally you don't deserve to go further in the game, then I won't have a problem voting you out. I think you're inherently a good person, but I think you need to do some maturing in those regards. There's something in Survivor about faking it till you make it in terms of social game where you really have to hold in a lot of what you want to say because it could just be social suicide. This was your social suicide. 

Okay whew I'm submitting this right after my Alex confessional but hello it's vote out one of the last 4 brains day and I wanna launch myself off of a building! Because I will feel immensely guilty voting any of these people out! Basically Junior and I have formed a final 2 on this brain tribe, figuring that if we do not swap it could very well get to that point that we are decimated so much that we are left with 2 people who have to duke it out, in which case if I'm sitting there with someone then I'm playing an idol on myself to auto-survive the tribe. But now that leaves us with the massive dilemma of taking out Jonathan or PIppa. Pippa is someone who obviously I have an extremely close relationship both in and out of this game. She is one of my best friends not only online but just in general, so voting her out makes me want to throw up not gonna lie. Then there's Jonathan, who I have established a very good relationship with. I feel like we get where each other is coming from but I know he's dangerous. But then I know it's also dangerous to move forward with Pippa, unless I get in a scenario where Junior and I have to vote her out - which I will do. There's just no way I can go into a swap with Pippa, so am I banking on us losing again for Pippa to go and Junior and I to stay? Maybe so! The thing is, Junior wanted Pippa gone this round not only on the off chance I would back out in taking him to f2 of this tribe, but also because he feels like keeping Jonathan in the swap as a threat is a good idea for a meet shield. But that's only if we swap. And of course there's a problem in taking Pippa into a swap considering I would be seen as with her, and I would probably get targeted over her if people try to split us up. So idk! I wanna vote out Jonathan tonight and I'm gonna feel like shit if it happens. Or I could just be getting blindside. I'm paranoid about Pippa letting slip that I have 2 idols so that she could blindside me, but I also think if I tell her we could use these to save ourselves once we're final 2 on the tribe, then she'll wanna take me for that safety. I s2g though I do not wanna go out with 2 idols, so I might give one to Pippa to hold. And then if it's me her and Junior at an f3 scenario on this tribe I'll just say I'm playing one on her in case Junior plays an idol which I really don't think he has because I've convinced him so much I'm taking him to the f2 of this tribe. Important side note if I survive this swap however - I had a good talk with Kendall last night. We both got good explanations out of each other for why Isaac and Alex got voted out. And I think she would wanna work with me down the line. That's the other thing. Idk if Pippa would wanna work with her at this point, and according to Kendall from Sarah - Pippa and Sarah are getting kinda close. Which is a big no no for me because I need Sarah out ASAP. But Kendall wants Sarah out too, but she just doesn't probably have numbers for it on the beauty tribe right now since apparently Sarah and Tommy are super close, and Sarah has Johnny who questionably has Trace. BUT apparently Johnny has voiced to Kendall that Sarah shouldn't be around too long so I don't fuckin know. There's too many damn layers to all this and I'm just trying to survive this swap man.

I could have totally fucked myself trying to be my typical, shady self. Since I was telling both Drew and Kage what they wanted to hear, I was cautious with my words. But secretly, I wanted to keep Drew, so I was trying to come up with a possible plan that could save him. But before I even got around to doing that, I find that Drew has run to Kage to tell him that I told him I was voting him (after I specifically told Drew not to) so he made my choice much easier. I don't put it past Drew though to get close to flipping the table on me, but as long as Kage trusts me, I should be good.