There wasnāt going to be any dramatic deleting of my account or long explanation(*cough*), just my quietly transitioning back to only lurking and eventually, to nothing at all. Basically, I decided I wasnāt adding anything positive and I didnāt want to drag others down. Plus, thereās the overall need for me to be done with TWD because of all that negativity being a major factor, obviously. And, unfortunately, I donāt know how to enjoy Tumblr and be done with the show at the same time. That seems kinda impossible, you know?
Anyway, I was doing fine, but then during my lurking the other day, I saw the forum drama that had popped up and I felt that surge of Fandom Wank Crusader pull on her cape and drag me back in lol.
But now that thatās settled and over(kudos on making that super duper clear, TSDF), I think Iām going back to my original plan, and hopefully, have the willpower to stick to it.
This post isnāt some passive aggressive attempt to have anyone convince me otherwise, but I guess Iād consider it more like an explanatory placeholder. Because maybe I can come back when I donāt feel such bitter anger and irritation when it comes to any and every element concerning the show. Maybe, eventually, it wonāt all feel like missed opportunities and disappointment and the slow destruction of the only good thing this show had going for it(for me). Because, though I maintain that it was never a good show, I could forgive it a lot of things because I liked the humanity it presented and the family I rooted for. For the bonds and love I celebrated. For the amazing and flawed and beyond strong Carol that I championed.
But theyāve kinda destroyed all of that for me and I canāt get past that, especially what theyāve done to Carol. And Iām tired of settling and defending the scraps. Sheāand weādeserve better than what theyāve saddled her with and I just cannot find it in me to celebrate any of it. Maybe that makes me a bad fan in some peopleās eyes, but, I dunno, I still think i'm a good one.
Anyway, though Iāve not managed to avoid the long, explanatory post, Iāll be quick with the rest. See you around and take care, all of you ā¤ā¤ā¤
