#repenguin

None of them was asked sooo here I go

12. What was your last dream about?Hnn I’m pretty sure I had a dream two nights ago, and I know I remembered it for a while after waking up, but I can’t really remember now… I’m quite sure it was about me and someone else searching for something… but nothing else comes to mind Dx

15. Favorite song?I often change favorites, especially with songs since they go with my mood and inspiration and stuff. I’d say The Reluctant Heroes from Shingeki no Kyojin has been a hit in my brain for quite some time, it often got me through anxiety and stuff 

62. Are you a good singer?I can sing, I’m not a great singer because my voice is kinda, idk how to call it but, huh, breathy? I don’t know, but it’s not always as clear as I’d wish it to be. But I get the music right and I’ve been told I sing well so there’s that?

63. Biggest Fear?I’m not entirely sure, but I’m afraid of being useless, of not having a place in the world. Sometimes it’s more about me being useless to my loved ones and not being interesting or good enough for them, sometimes it’s more about me fearing a future that has no place for me as a grown up

71. What makes you nervous?Lol a lot of stuff. Phone calls, exams, having to greet a person I know -cause holy shit what if my voice cracks cause it’s morning and I haven’t warmed it up yet and-, having to go out with just one friend -cause what if I don’t know what to talk about and they are bored and there’s no one else to lighten up the mood and-, studying, not studying, being a scout chief cause what if I set the wrong example… A lot of stuff yeah 

What app?

It’s called ‘Anime Freak’, it lets you download anime episodes on your mobile or you can watch them on the moment, you can also add anime to your list and that’s the main reason why I kept it even after I had stopped downloading stuff: I had a list of to watch (One of the many lists) and I kept it in there.

Can’t pin me down: What is one thing that makes you angry?

I don’t really get angry much, I actually get angry almost only at home with my family ^^” But one thing that manages to get me angry in general, even outside, is realizing how many people are throwing away the good things of our world. I got real angry all by myself when I heard the great barrier reef was dying, or when I thought about net neutrality collapsing and not a damn person around me even knew, or when assholes tried to kill a lot of wolves in Italy just because they couldn’t ask an expert how to deal with their damn problems. So yeah that

Better Than That: Are you good at holding in your anger?

13. What talents do you have?I don’t think they are actually talents, more like stuff I can kind of do? I have a pretty good idea of human anatomy when drawing (but I can’t put it in my drawings. I just know when something is wrong lol), I have a good imagination, sometimes it’s too good tbh and I get distracted easily. And idk, I dream well? I mean, at night. I have a lot of dreams. Weird ones. 

Girls: Have you ever gotten into a physical fight?

I did run after a boy with my clarinet as a weapon once, but no I never got into a physical, not yet.

Wait. No wait. I don’t know if this can be considered a ‘fight’ but once a guy at a german mcDonald’s tried stealing my food to make a diversion for something (I never really got to know what was going on) and I kind of stopped him by pressing against the guy. I mean I was defending my lunch so yeah. Good thing the guy didn’t have a gun hahaha

God was I lucky

Obsessions: What is something you’re obsessed with?

Soo I spent the whole day trying to figure out what to answer, but I still am not sure.

I’m very happy that you think that, but… What I can see about me, is that I can do a little bit of everything, yet.. not enough of anything.

And I’m not sure of how others see me, most of the time.This may sound like an excuse but I’ve heard friends talking badly about other friends, even if when we were all together it never seemed to be an issue. I’ve had friends telling me ‘I like you, but I really can’t stand them’ referring to another member of the same group we went out with. And it didn’t happen just once. And it’s stupid, I guess, but I can’t help thinking that maybe they don’t like me either, they just don’t tell me.

There are so many amazing people everywhere I go. Here on tumblr, with me at uni… everywhere. And I just can’t believe how some of them are not liked by others. And me, I’m such a normal person. I’m awkward around others, I don’t have any specific skill or passion to distinguish me, I can’t do small talk and I don’t know how to be interesting. If the amazing friends I meet can possibly not be liked, why should I be liked?

I know this thing is stupid, I just can’t get it out of my mind. And the more I try to be good at something, to be special somehow, the more I realize I just am not.