#repare

Reuniting with an old friend has many emotions.

With one word you flashback to a plethora of old conversations

With one smile you are brought to a collage of all the happiest moments you spent with them

With one laugh you are brought to a cornucopia of pleasures the two of you shared

With all of the great memories you are put back with the thought of why the two of you fell so far apart

You remember how destructive they were to your morale and self-esteem

You remember how hard you tried to stitch yourself up and run to take care of them because you knew that they were hurting

You knew that they needed reassurance of the fact that they were good enough

You knew that they needed somebody to lean on

But you needed reassurance

But you desperately needed somebody to lean on

But you desperately needed somebody to tell you that you were good enough

You had to make the hard decision

You had to understand that trying to build somebody up eats away at yourself

You lost sight of your self-worth

You lost sight of who you were

You had to let them go because although you saw that they were frenzied with pain

They couldn’t see that you were just as broken

You had to abandon them and pick up the pieces

You had to pick yourself up

You had to tend to your needs and find out what make you, you

You had to become intoxicated in the art of self preservation

You never could have anticipated any of this

You had to mature and become the best you, you could be

That person meant so much to you way back then

And still holds a special place in your heart

But if you choose to let them back into your life, the life that you’ve worked so hard to make; would you fall back into the state of mind that you were in before?

That’s a risk and a reward and you have to learn from the past and fully understand that no matter how hard you try, you can’t change anyone

You can’t mold the perfect person

You can’t fix what’s broken

You can only build upon the broken

You can only encourage to be encouraged

To let that person in or to set them free again is the decision you have to make

Most importantly you must not take steps back

You must move forward with or without them

Be true to you

It doesn't have to be. You see a vibe you like, you remember what it looks like for later. Go thrift shopping, clearance shopping, whatever.

Then, when you see the thing that looks similar to what you want you get it. Fuck being on style or "trend".

I've wanted an all black grommet style belt for about 2-3 years now. I didn't want to buy one new because I don't need one.

Went to the goodwill outlet and I found one for 50 cents. Only thing wrong with it was some of the black paint on the metal had chipped off.