Taylor knows. How does she ALWAYS KNOW?
“Why do I love @taylorswift? Because it’s like she took a flashlight, shone it into my soul, and just wrote down what she found.” - Me, to anybody who’ll listen.
I got kicked out of my home via text message on 12/2/17. I was blindsided, and labeled, and my reputation was dragged through the mud with a group of my friends. Without me even knowing, my roommates, who had made elaborate promises to love me forever and keep me around as “Uncle Johnathan,” told people that I was mean, and unkind, and that I was causing problems for their marriage.
My Reputation had never been worse.
I spent the next few months (including my birthday, and Christmas, and New Year’s Day) feeling hopeless and lost. My only saving grace was my best friend. He constantly reminded me who I am, and who I am not. He told me all the good things about myself - told me all the reason why the different slanders against me weren’t true.
I’m not over it yet; I’m still angry; I’m still confused and shocked, and each emotion hits me differently and fresh at different times.
But I had Taylor’s “Reputation” to get me through. I got to experience her anger, her hurt, her sadness, and her journey back to strength and dignity as I was experiencing it for myself. And I can not tell you what a help she was to me in my most difficult times.
My best friend and I are going to see Taylor in Tampa and in Miami; I can not wait to dance my feet into the ground, and to celebrate this challenging, hurtful, damaging, yet joyful and love-filled time with him at these shows. He’s my Call It What You Want - he lights fires to keep me warm, he ran away with me when he didn’t have to, and he loves me like I’m brand new. I’m so excited to get to share these moments with him.
I’d love the chance to tell Taylor this in person, to hug her, and let know what a huge impact she’s had on my life, and how I woudln’t have been able to come through to this other side without her. Can you reblog this for me? I don’t know how Tumblr works best, but I just really want her to know what she means to me, and I know the best chance I have for that is getting you guys, my friends and fellow Swifties, to reblog so she can see. I’d really appreciate it!