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*He smiles at the cup, setting down the files he's been working on all day.*

😏😉

👀 And a good evening to you as well~

And interesting bit of information to learn of you, indeed my dear! It is fascinating to me that you should mention that your obsession was dormant because this was around the time that my love for this man began to take form! While I was indeed introduced to Tony in 2008, that was actually NOT my first time seeing my gorgeous muse. I was introduce to Robert in 2004 when my mother watched Gothika for the first time and while the plot was interesting, I was more fascinated by the handsome assistant to the main character. He took my breath away, Pete Graham had, but I was not aware of who he was. But when Iron Man came out - oh my heart still flutters - I began to understand exactly what I was in for. My mother asked me to go with her to see Iron Man because she was excited to see one of her favorite childhood actors playing her very favorite character. I remember the burning like fire in the pit of my stomach and the way my cheeks grew hot when I saw that scene in Iron Man for the first time.

I was done: There would never be another hero in my life the way Tony was. And Damon agreed: Him and I began to change his story to better suit being with Tony. The rest, well, it's beautiful chaos and something I will never forget no matter how much time goes by. My children - should my girlfriend and I have any - will know of this man and the way he changed my life! But that's not to say I was completely sold on Robert yet. And it wasn't until I saw his performance as Sherlock that I truly began to appreciate his diversity when it came to the roles that he could play. I knew in that moment, there would be no one on this beautiful but darkened world who would inspire me the way that he has. And I will never be afraid again to admit that. So, I think the timing didn't work out for you so that it could work out for me, and the same could be said for my feelings for Ben. After seeing him in War Horse, I thought that I could easily have loved him had I not already found out about Robert. Maybe I'm reading too much into it, but I fail to believe the universe is that lazy. Your timing with Robert didn't work and mine didn't for Benedict, so we could meet here in this time of our lives. 🌺💕 Thank you for sharing this with me, V. I truly believe now more than ever that our connection runs deeper than I believed.

Tumblr is being tricky again; I only just saw your Wednesday reply to my Ask a few hours ago (absolutely thrilled you enjoyed my Stephen x Hope bits; I took extra satisfaction in making her an Artist, keeping in mind several Artists on tumblr that I have gotten to know over the years). And I haven't yet received anything about Stephen's butterflies. Why, I had been thinking that you had gone quiet because I overdid it with the snippets 😉--or that real life stuff was commandeering your time and focus. So that I am doubly glad to find you in my Inbox again. Communiation may challenge us at times, but I trust we'll find our way, with patience & persistent.

It just hit 3:30am, so it's back to bed for me as my eyes are bleary and my lids are heavy. Wishing you all the best and sending along my love.

Vicki xx

Oh no my dear flower, I could never grow tired of seeing your works!

I loved reading every single one of them and in fact, they were what inspired me to pick up my pen and get back on drawing once more! I did have a rough patch for a couple of days in a row, but I was blessed with an act of friendship that snapped me out of it. I am now back on my horse, and she seems to be cooperating for the time being. Rather than putting reigns on her, I have chosen to let her take control of where we go and how fast we get there.

I am very disappointed that you didn't get the message I sent you about Stephen, however, as it was meant to lift your spirit after I saw your message about letting go of a friend. Let me see if I can perhaps recreate at least part of it for you:

"As we go through life, we cherish the bonds we form with people, and we treasure them as they continue to grow. But as with everything in life, we find out that eventually, everything must come to an end. We cannot predict when these endings will come, nor how truly hard they will affect us. But rather than be absorbed in the darkness, look for the beauty in the endings. If you have had one door closed to you, then that means you have done all you can in this chapter of your life. As Stephen has, do not let the darkness consume you, and instead make something beautiful out of it. Though this friendship has ended, and though it may hurt, that means you are needed somewhere else. Now, gather the happy memories to give you strength and spread your wings to fly, beautiful one, to where you are needed next."

I assure you, no matter how hard Tumblr tries to keep us apart, I will never stop trying to reach out to you, dear flower. I hope the night has found you well, and at peace. I look forward to the next time we speak, no matter when it is or how brief it may be.

All of my love,

Stephen xx 💜

Thank you, my dear. That means a lot to me.

I'll be okay, I'm just a jumbled mess of thoughts and disastrous emotions. It too will come to pass, but knowing you reached out does help.

I do struggle with my writings, though. I had a lot more on my page, but I took them down for personal reasons. Sometimes I want to put them back up, but there are more times when I feel it's not a good idea.

I don't necessarily do it for likes or reblogs, I do it to try and give people like myself an escape. I hate to admit this but I am a feedback author, as I've called myself. While I'm not looking for praise, I'm looking for people to tell me if they like it, if they didn't or if there's maybe something else they'd like to see. Numbers isn't the issue, voices are.

I have struggled with this for a great many years and - I keep the stories for myself mind you, I don't delete them - I don't see myself ever being able to change. It's one of my most self destructive qualities I'm afraid.

Aww, thank you dear!

I hope that you have a wonderful New Year as well, full of smiles and abundant blessings. May you find inspiration in all that you see and receive much love for your works 💜💜

Thank you, kindly. That means a lot to hear. 💜