#relisations

well it is to much to say that the world actually begun today. I think it's fair to say that there is empirical evidence to proof that it did not begin yesterday either. But for me it begins today. Right now. Every second is a possibility to restart. To begin anew. To start the world all over. 

The last few weeks have been a constant stream of thoughts about the future. What to do? Where to go? What am I actually doing? Still those questions have not been answered. But I can conclude that I have come a long way just by taking myself time to still here and write down a few reflections from my quite ordinary unusual life.

I have since as long as I can remember decided that 13 is my lucky number. Naïvely I thought that made me stand out. Being special. Now I've realised that a lot of people think the exact same way. Hence, the choice of lucky number is not what makes me special. Nevertheless, I have during almost all of 2012 been waiting for 2013 to arrive. Seeing as this has the potential of really being my year. The year where I begin to realise my dreams. Find myself and all the other nonsense that you are supposed to think that you want. No, it's not to sound special that I attempt to imply that those are not things on my wish-list too. But I think that with this year I will instead think that the best thing that can come out of my lucky year is that I realise that life is now and that the search for the things on the wish-list is probably the actual life. Reality plain and simple. 

And to be fair the year has kick-started in a fairly positive way! Not letting you in on any more details. Just wanted to put it out there that the what you're looking for might be closer than you think. Or miles away. I'm gonna keep the list in mind but consider it more as a blurry mix of things that I might want to do one day - 'Sans stress'. And that that blurry mix might change in five minutes. If it does then what was the point of spending all that energy in search for the things on it?