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By: A Chill Explorer

“I don’t just think. I rehearse, replay, redesign, and regret — all before lunch.”

— Probably Me

Hey there,

I’m a Chill Explorer — someone who lounges in comfy corners, stares at ceilings, and questions everything… including the ceiling.

Born in 2005, and since then? Well, I’ve been overthinking my way through life like it’s an unpaid full-time job.

👧🏽 Kid Me: The Drama Detective

As a kid, when my mum scolded me, I didn’t just pout and move on. I’d stare dramatically into the void and think: “Maybe she’s not even my real mom. Maybe she kidnapped my real one and replaced her.”

Every bedtime story ended with me questioning family trees.

I also spent an embarrassing amount of time wondering who loved me more — mummy or papa. (Answer: Neither, when you mess up the Wi-Fi.)

👀 Teen Me: The Insecurity Intern

Teenage years = Peak spiral season.

I overthought my big nose, my dark skin, the number of friends I didn’t have, and every “hmm” sent over text.

One “k” and I was in my room writing emotional poetry with sad playlist volume at 100.

My brain? A never-ending ‘what if’ machine.

🧑🏽‍💼 Adult Me (Or Whatever This Phase Is)

Welcome to Corporate Overthinking™.

Now it’s about my CGPA, career choices, and life decisions that feel like playing Jenga blindfolded.

I’ve always hated studies. Always loved art, music, writing… but guess who chose a business degree? Yep — Miss Stability Over Passion. 🙃

And guess what? I still overthink. I overthink deadlines, future jobs, whether to email with “Regards” or “Warm Regards”… it's endless.

💡 Why I’m Grateful for My Overthinking Brain

Sure, it brings stress and the occasional emotional breakdown in the shower. But it’s also my superpower.

Because of it, I:

joined case competitions

did internships and live projects

improved my CGPA (somehow)

became someone who cares deeply about her relationships

If I fight with someone, I overthink it to the point of apologizing with food, memes, or over-the-top voice notes.

💫 In the End...

I’m just a Chill Explorer. Still spiraling, still overthinking — but also still learning, growing, and feeling things way too deeply.

And honestly? I wouldn’t have it any other way.

📌 *“Overthinking doesn’t mean you’re broken.