#redstainedledger

2:Talk about your first kiss.My first kiss wasn’t anything ‘spectacular’ or ‘amazing’. It was actually very stupid. I was kissed by a boy in one of the dark hallways of the high school we both attended. It wasn’t anything really worth remembering or sighing over.

4:Talk about the thing you regret most so far.Hm, the thing I regret the most. There’s plenty of things I regret, but the thing I regret the most so far was not saying no sooner in the first relationship I was in.

6:Talk about the worst birthday you’ve had.I don’t think I’ve had a birthday I would say was the ‘worst’, sorry.

8:Talk about the thing you are most proud of.I’m most proud of graduating. That was definitely one of my highest achievements.

10:Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had.The biggest fight I had wasn’t really a direct fight, instead it was through the words of others and very indirect. It lead me to reconsider friendships and feel very sorrowful for one of my family members.

12:Talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had.My worst dream so far was one that dealt with my grandfather’s decline. He looked worse in my dream than he did when he were alive in his last moments. It still gets me choked up, mostly because he was one of my favorite family members.

14:Talk about a vacation.I’ve had too many good vacations I could talk about, but my favorite one was when I went to Florida in December of 2014 and I got to catch up with my grandparents on my dad’s side and meet my nieces and nephews that I adore so much.

16:Talk about the best party you’ve ever been to.The best party I’ve been to would have to be one of my friend’s sweet sixteens. It was a surprise party and it was one of the few moments when I felt like I was equal to everyone there. There wasn’t anything risque there, instead it was just some friends eating pizza and playing video games. 

18:Talk about something that happened in elementary school.I ended up moving a few times when I was in elementary school. Many memories that weren’t too fond.

20:Talk about something that happened in high school.I realized long-distance friendships lasted longer than friendships with people I saw on a day to day basis.

22:Talk about your worst fear.I fear the ending of life, specifically the end of people of I care about live’s and my own.

24:Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.There are plenty of things I could write here, but I’ll share the one that my friend told me quite recently. “Though miles may lie between us, we will be friends forever.”

26:Talk about things you do when you’re sick.Usually, I’ll watch shows I need to get caught up on and eat a ton of soup. Thanks, Campbells.

28:Talk about your fetishes.You’re going to be disappointed, but I don’t have any.

30:Talk about what turns you off.Ignorance.

32:Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.The daycare I went to for four years. It was a beautiful place, and so friendly too. It didn’t let me down, although some people did. I remember the rainy days, the sunny days, and the inbetween days. It felt like a second home to me. I couldn’t complain, unless I were left out or if I left someone else out.

34:Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured.The day I skinned my knees on the sidewalk on a tornado warning day had to be the worst physical pain I endured. The blood stained the concrete, and my hands clung to a recycling bin (it was trash day, of course), and my Razor scooter. I felt like crying, but I was so out of breath. The collision wasn’t something I intended or what I hoped for. I was thankful a woman got out of her van and drove me back to my home, which was a block away. She then helped me clean the knees I harmed. I was thankful for her, and I wish I asked for her name. She didn’t need to do that for me.

36:Talk about your guilty pleasures.Reading well written fanfiction and collecting anything I can from Warped Tour.

38:Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.There are so many, but “Let the Right One In” by Nightmares reminds me of the one person that messed up my feelings last year, “Cheerleader” by Omi reminds me of one of the rainy day I worked and my old co-worker (she’s only a year older than me) and I sung that on the way to our favorite ice cream store, and lastly, “Tear in My Heart” by Twenty One Pilots reminds me of the couple I DJ-ed for (and they allowed me to play that song, so yeah.) There’s more, but that’s just a few.

40:Talk about the end of something in your life.The end of my last job ended on good terms. The good terms were the fact that they didn’t need me to clean toilets for the rest of my life.