I think I'm starting week four of testosterone. It's hard to tell because the calendar switched months and it's apparently not written on my phone even though I remember putting it there.
I let my beard grow out which makes it easier to see where new hairs are coming in. I saw like maybe two new ones on my face, But my fuzz is getting darker, like how my beard was before the failed electrolysis. I have a small patch on my chest that used to be there and then had gone away. It's back. The hair on my arms was usually blond despite me having naturally dark hair, and now it's getting darker. Kinda wanna shave my beard though. It's really annoying.
Bottom stuff (contains TMI):
It feels a little bigger and its definitely more sensitive. Like holy fuck more sensitive. I need to get fucked. I'm also dryer. Good. I actually like how I feel dry.
My throat has been sore since like, a day after I started. It never went away. But now my Voice starting to crack and the otherday I sounded like I had a cold. Perfect. I'll just keep eating ices. It's June anyway. Nobody will question me.
Hell week was extra painful. But it lasted like one day? After that, for two more days, there was only blood when I peed. And it was only a little bit. Like a red tint to the pee. The cramps were torture though. Like enough that I skipped the pride parade. But honestly who needs it? I'm having a really hard time with the community which I'll probably whine about in another post because it's been bothering me to hell. Like honestly I'm so fucking depressed from it. I just want to be loved. I see so many people talking about how loving the community is and how we're all one big happy family but they actually treat me how my family did treat me which wasn't good. They're toxic and I wanna disappear.
The breakout isn't so bad anymore. I think it's starting to regulate. My skin seems to be about as oily as it always was too.