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Today we talked about complacency. That kinda got to me. I don't think I've talked about complacency negatively since I left the Navy. I like routine. And I need routine but not the complacency. Complacency kills. Complacency gets you shocked by wires. Complacency gets you too close to the rotor head. Complacency will have me drinking again. I have to remember that I am an alcoholic. And I can't drink because of the allergy and the obsession. It will kill me. And I don't wanna die. I wanna live.

Sobriety has been good to me. It hasn't been easy but it's been good. I'm learning more about myself and trying to get back to some basics. I just recently tried to go into isolation. It's easy. I don't work outside of the house. I can communicate thru Facebook and text messages. I even took a week off from AA. I could've been working out and journaling and blah blah blah. But I didn't. I slept until I had to get my babies. And even that was a struggle. Someone called me on Tuesday morning thou. She wanted to meet for coffee. That shocked me. No one has ever called me for coffee in AA. So I went to the Wednesday meeting and shared what I was going thru. You know what? I was being selfish and self-centered. I have absolutely no reason to be anxious. There's food on the table. The lights are on. The kids are ok. My family loves me. I already have more than others. I was like, "Look at God!" Once again he got me to where I needed to be and let me hear what needed to be heard. Then I went to another meeting but this one was at a sober house and it was a women's meeting. Those are my fave. It's always way more relatable no matter the age, race, or religion. One of the strongest women I've met had a breakdown because of her kids. Someone had to remind us all that we are not God. We are human. We can't fix everything. And that's tough for a woman to swallow sometimes. Often we have to do everything for our families whether there's a man in the picture or not. We have to detach ourselves from the situation with love and make sure our foundation is strong. We don't need to miserable over something we can't control. It's hard. But what is alcohol gonna do to make it better? Nothing. Especially for us alcoholics. What ever is effecting sobriety needs to be fixed. Such a great meeting. That's the thing about AA. There's no way I can or want to make every meeting. But every meeting I go to has a powerful message. So now I'm gonna have to start being diligent about going to my meetings again. Even when the anxiety sets in. Because I won't be good for anyone or anything else until I'm good for myself.

I think I'll be blogging today! #100daysofsobriety #100days #sobriety #redchip #90daychip #thankful #aa #nailsdid