#reboot2020

It’s been months I thought .. then I realized with bemusement actually its been YEARS. 

How the hell did that happen?!   I know, I am actually painfully aware of how difficult it has been for me to write, to be creative and I know why.  none of that matters really. It is what it is... erm was... and now is different. 

I am cautiously optimistic that the fact that I actually logged back on to Tumblr that maybe all the words and thoughts rattling around in my head will make their way on to the page.  I have things I want to share, even if it is just with the void of a long dormant blog.  If you are here and reading my words - know that I appreciate you. Chances are if you are still with me after all these years, I probably know you, and thus love you. 

Being quarantined due to Covid-19 and watching how the world reacts to it has spurred me to examine my life. To examine how decisions are made and the why of choices we make. As individuals and as a society. 

I intend to make use of this time to reboot - to reclaim my creativity.....  and to celebrate life to its fullest to the best of my ability.  Sometimes in order to do that a harsh look at what one deems important is in order. 

 I have allowed myself to feel trapped in some places in my life especially financially. Is that feeling based in reality or a figment of my imagination? Is it a symptom of our greater society and it’s compounded illnesses driven by a separation from truly living and being in touch with each other, our world because of a disease related to consumption and greed? 

It is probably a little bit of all the above plus other contributing factors I haven’t isolated and pinned down. 

I look at the increase in anxiety driven ailments, and physical illness as a direct result of stress, and emotional distress in all areas of our society and in all age groups and I think- we all need a reboot. Society needs a reboot. W

We need to collectively regroup, return to our center and reconnect to life. I think we have been “living” as part of a disconnected machine and deluding ourselves in to believing it was real.  

With the need for social distancing forcing people to step back. Many are realizing that they don’t know their children, they don’t know their spouses, they don’t know themselves. They are drowning in fragmented existence that resulted from a disconnection from what is real and this time has allowed them to come up for air. Many of us don’t like what we see in this brief respite. 

 Now the tough questions we have been stuffing under the rug demand we look at them and answer them. The things in our life that have been making us sick, are going to be revealed if we dare to look at them. It’s not going to be comfortable, but I believe it to be worthy. 

I think we owe it to ourselves to ask what is truly important to me, to my family to my community?  What do we need society to look like in order for every person to truly “live” a life that fulfills them and is sustainable. We definitely live in a magical time of connection and awareness - lets put these powers toward the betterment of our existence.