Draco/Pansy: "I can't breathe when I'm with you."
She couldn’t breathe whenever she was with him. She hated that. Since they had been children, Draco had stolen her breath, her sense, her soul almost. She turned from a vibrant, living creature to a fawning ghost, clinging to him, desperate for any kind of acknowledgement, holding ever more tightly as he shrugged her off and sneered at his friends.
It hurt even as she was doing it.
She despised herself for it even as she rated days by how much attention he paid to her.
“Hey Pans,” Draco said. He slid into the booth at the pub and her will slunk away and her smile grew tremulous. She knew he wasn’t there for her, probably thought she was a nuisance, but a traitorous part of herself reminded her she’d had her hair done that morning, that she’d looked so good when she left her flat that three separate men had stopped to smile at her on the street. If there was ever a day he’d finally see her, it was today.
“Hey Drakey,” Pansy said. She always sounded ridiculous when she talked around him. Her heart rate sped up and her mouth got dry and sometimes she thought she didn’t even like him so why did she want his attention so much?
Draco rolled his eyes at the nickname, then jabbed Blaise with his elbow so hard the other man narrowed his eyes. “What?” he asked.
“She said yes,” Draco said. He grinned, and for a moment the war-haunted man was replaced by the exuberant, arrogant boy he’d been at fifteen. “Astoria said yes.”
Pansy fumbled with her bag as her heart stopped. Could a heart stop? Could you live without a beating heart? Apparently you could. The bag was designer. She’d bought at in Paris. It went with her shoes, but not in a tacky matchy-matchy way, not the way Astoria always dressed. They complemented. She pulled out a few coins, probably way too much for the drink she’d had. “Congratulations,” she managed to say as she stood and dropped them onto the table. One fell to the floor, but before she could reach down to scrape her fingers across the sticky wood and find it, Blaise had it in his hand. He tossed it to the others with the grace she’d lost. “That’s great. Be sure to send me an invitation.”
“Of course,” Draco said, oblivious as always. “Wouldn’t dream of leaving you out. Blaise - “
But before he could go on, Blaise had risen with panther-like fluidity. “I hate to have such atrocious timing, Malfoy, but Pansy and I were just leaving. There’s an exhibit at that new Gallery I wanted to show her. Congratulations, of course.”
Pansy almost tripped on her heels at that artless lie.
“That’s great,” Draco said. “Have fun.” He was already scanning the room to see who else he could tell.
She and Blaise were half a block down the pavement when she said, “Gallery?”
He quirked his lips up in a half-smile. “Now that you’re finally going to look past Malfoy, I thought I might be able to talk you into coming up to my flat to see my etchings.”
The pick up line was so hackneyed she laughed but when she looked at his wide, slanted eyes they were studying her with so much care she knew he was serious. Guarded, maybe, but serious. It was the last thing she would have expected. She’d known him since they were eleven. How long had she missed this?
“I - ,” she began.
“No pressure,” he said, his hand on her elbow steering her toward the district where he lived. “But I do have an excellent collection of small pen and ink drawings by continental artists you might enjoy.”
“And high thread count sheets?” she asked, now sure she knew where this was going and already tired. She’d thought better of Blaise than to try to get a quick fuck out of her apparently obvious pathetic crush. But then, she’d thought Draco would see her perfect blow out and her good shoes and notice her. She wasn’t doing well in the assumptions game today.
His hand on her tightened a moment. “I want more than sex,” he said.
“But less than love.”
She was going to turn and go when he said, “I didn’t say that,” and she was frozen, heels on the cobblestones and expensive bag swinging from her arm. Her breath had caught in her throat but this time it felt like something other than misery. This time it felt like magic.











