#really baked

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recovery is bullshit oops!

I don't think he's being faithful. :( But I'm feeling so good about myself and have been meeting so many different people, that it doesn't make me sad to possibly end this. *Sidenote: I come to this cheating conclusion because we were both really baked (me hitting my new "water pipe #wtf" and Isaiah lighting his joint on the stove like a ratch). I was being completely honest about how faithful I've been to that dude and he told me about how jealous he's been about my new coworker and all the other guys that pay any attention to me. We tried to talk about other stuff, but I was feeling bad vibes and even when I tried to relax and think of everything positively, nothing made it better (I'm a high ass). He keeps calling. I think this is the third time and he texted me, but I'm too much of a pussy and a big cry baby right now to look at my phone. I wish I could sleep. I know I won't be able to though. He keeps calling me and it's hurting my heart every time. I wish I had my inhaler because I can't stop wheezing. I'm gonna be so pissed if I have to go to the hospital tonight because of Isaiah. I'm going to take slow breaths and try to calm myself. I'm just rambling and getting side tracked, but hearing what I heard threw so many plans apart. I can't stick around if it is really what I think. I feel shaky. Back to my story; before I freak out again..Isaiah and I started talking about other things and he was being a little weird. He then did this weird rushing off to brush his teeth and go to bed thing and I was thinking "wtf no, I just told you how completely devoted I am and I expect to hear that I am getting the same in return still!" I asked if he was "being a ratchet." When him and I say it, **only between us** we are both talking about being faithful. Example: "make sure you're not being ratchet at the parties tonight," to make sure I know not to act too wild and remember who's the dude). He hesitated for a long time (could've been taking a hit* ) and then said not all the time. I was like what and he did this weird nervous chuckle/laugh thing and I'm pretty sure I asked again and then the phone sounded weird and hung up. A few moments later, he called me back and I texted him asking if he is serious. He called, texted, called, texted, and called again. I should have let him explain, but I couldn't handle it. I am and was pretty stoned and could just be overanalyzing and he could have meant how people normally used ratchet. Idk. I hope it's not true, but if it is then I'm not sticking around because I know that there are plenty of guys who actually know and appreciate finding a good thing. I'm good with or without.

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