#read and react

Shen Qingqiu was doing his best to Not Think about the fact that his disciple almost definitely thought he was in love with him and Luo Binghe had stated outright that Shen Qingqiu’s older self had thankfully put him off propositioning him until he was older.

asdfasdf Definitely Not Thinking about it!!! About how his cute little disciple!!! Would have propose- cough, propositioned him! Except his older self had already realized that and stopped him! How much longer can he pretend his disciple never said anything?!?

...Way less long than he would have preferred XD

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Shen Qingqiu flushed, “That’s definitely not appropriate dinner conversation!”

 What did he say??? Or rather - what didn’t he say, my goodness! ...Oh, but to have been a fly on the wall for that conversation XD

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I just said that we were fated to be together and that’s why it worked…

 I mean – he’s not wrong XD

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His last thought before sleep was something about being in trouble, but he slipped into darkness before it could fully register.

*chuckles* I’m in danger!!!

Yes. Yes you are. You have no idea how much trouble you’re in, Shen Qingqiu XD

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SQQ: Is it too late to fake my death to avoid this meeting?

 Don’t!!! *Hides Moon and Sun Dew seeds from SQQ*

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SQQ: and YQY doesn’t exist SQH: …bro he’s leading this meeting how’s that going to work? SQQ: don’t care. the man can choke

asdhfasdj I love sassy, snarky SQQ

…actually, as his sass spills out, I feel like he resembles SJ far more than he has before??? Only when he stops hiding himself so much, does he better resemble the actual SJ – that’s some irony for you!

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[+10 B-points for pettiness!]

 …he could earn so many B Points from sheer pettiness

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SQQ: Fine. We’re friends. SQH: Yessss

 Yes!!!!!!

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SQQ: I’m going to try and act like Shen Jiu SQH: Oh shit! SQQ: Hold my flower. SQH: I got your flower, boo! Fuck ‘em up!

Perhaps they were, in fact, friends.

 :D I just. Loved this. So much!!!! <333333

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[Host is not currently earning friendship points with the Protagonist because his relationship with the Protagonist is not platonic.]

What the fuck.

Yes it is?

[...]

 ……… It’s romantic and it’s cute as hell But it’s definitely not platonic And I love it. Give me all the cute, soft fluff!!! There little talks! The easy, casual intimacy!!! I just - asdhgfa;sldfjlsajdkf

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Liu Qingge sighed. “I understand why you won’t say anything, but that’s because you explained it to me. They don’t know the stakes, what you’ve already done.

 This man - <3 I don’t ship them romantically, but I do love their interactions

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He had just picked up his teacup, waiting for Yue Qingyuan to respond, when Peak Lord Wei said, in flippant fashion, “So you’re fucking him, too?”

Oh shit

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The teacup shattered in one hand while his fan broke into splinters in another. With bloody fingers [...] Shen Qingqiu looked right at the man and hissed, “Excuse me?”

Seriously, excuse you?????????? WTF, man???? Also, ow

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The other Peak Lord, uncaring of the dropped jaws around the room, huffed and said, “Oh, come on. Were we really not going to talk about the fact that you’ve been living with a disciple who apparently grew up to be your husband? For over a year? And now Bai Zhan is jumping to your defense? Your disciple moved out so you’ve moved on to an actual adult–“

 Oh no you didn’t–

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Liu Qingge was across the room and had Cheng Luan at Peak Lord Wei’s throat.

 Thank you, Liu Qingge  *glares daggers at Peak Lord Wei*

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“Very well, Shen-shixiong.” Mu Qingfang cleared his throat loudly and looked around the room. “Peak Lord Wei is gravely mistaken about Peak Lord Shen’s character. I say this not as Shen Qingqiu’s colleague but has his doctor.

 Go, Mu Qingfang!!!!

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“First, there is a not insignificant possibility that, prior to Luo Binghe’s time traveling incident six days ago, Shen Qingqiu was a virgin.”

pfffffffff--- Is SQQ’s face going to be able to survive this???

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Mu Qingfang said before continuing. “As Wei-shidi said, Shen Qingqiu prior to his qi deviation 19 months ago was known to visit brothels throughout the city. This shidi investigated his previous habits–“ Shen Qingqiu turned and stared at him because what– “and found that all those who remembered him only spoke of his kindness and his refusal to accept carnal services. It seems that Shen-shixiong went there for information gathering and, at times, to sleep, treating all those working there with the utmost respect.”

Good!!! Let Shen Jiu not be falsely accused!!!

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Shen Qingqiu was not going to give that man credit considering he had damn near yelled the sentiment in his face only a few days ago in order to get it through his fool head.

 :/ Not impressed, YQY. But at least, thank you for doing the bare minimum.

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Shen Qingqiu was back to staring at the far wall, hands still bloody and unable to hold a fan. Face bare, he felt heat begin to fill his cheeks and climb up his neck. 

assadf;lksj 😂 😂 😂

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SQH: HOLY SHIT SQH: BRO?? WTF SQQ: kill me

 asdfasjdfhsljfhkhjhlkjhklh XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

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SQQ: I hate this SQQ: Binghe was smart to think of something to tell MQF that he couldn’t question but ugh SQH: …I think he had other reasons but sure SQH: also did you tell MQF and did MQF just tell everyone that you’re in love with LBH? SQQ: …maybe SQQ: some could read it that way

 SHF:LDGHS:LJSGDHJAHF:LKJADFL:KDAJS MAYBE SOME COULD SEE IT THAT WAY DSKDJ:LSDFJ:LKJ  Shen Qingqiu!!!!!

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“Are all the splinters gone?” Shen Qingqiu asked Mu Qingfang. The man nodded and Shen Qingqiu called on his not inconsiderable reserves of spiritual energy to close the numerous wounds in his hands. “Thank you, Mu-shidi, for your attention and words. Thanking Liu Qingge and Sect Leader Yue for their input as well. If Wei-shidi has something further to say to me about my friendship with Liu Qingge, he is welcome to take it up with either of us at another time. This one humbly requests we go back to the meeting.”

...damn

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Oh, God. They hadn’t even started the announcements yet.

They haven’t even started the announcements yet 😂

and – the author notes – I love them so much

LBH: *Cooks dinner, holds his hand, does his hair, hugs him goodbye* SQQ: This is normal behavior! Binghe’s just being nice to me. SQH: Bruh. LBH: *tells MQF they’re romantic soulmates* SQQ: Clever boy! Binghe’s so smart to throw him off his tracks. SQH: BRUH.

His lack of interest in the working women (and men) in the brothels and apparent virginity.

mm-hmm

A virginity that was lost after dual cultivation with a grown disciple.

mm-hmmm

A disciple that he had previously lived with and admittedly had feelings for.

mm-hmmmm!

Feelings that may or may not be connected to the fact he and Luo Binghe may be fated lovers.

mm-hmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!! -

Even Shen Qingqiu could only stay oblivious to his surroundings for so long.

Wait, really? XD -

To his surprise, the candles were already lit and the door was opening before he could touch it.

“Shizun?” Luo Binghe greeted him, big eyes blinking in concern at him like the white lotus he was, waiting to welcome him home like Shen Qingqiu half expected to never happen again.

awwwwwwwwwww <3333 Good little wifey, welcoming his Shizun home ^_^

- (This whole next section is heart full, head empty, no words-) -

He was sixteen; it would be wrong to rely on him like he had his counterpart.

But goddamn, Shen Qingqiu needed a hug.

💔 -

“…This Binghe knew that Shizun would likely be tired after his meeting and dinner and wanted to make himself available to assist Shizun however needed.” Luo Binghe said slowly, looking Shen Qingqiu over critically. Shen Qingqiu felt fragile, exposed, and so very lacking. He flinched when Luo Binghe’s gaze lingered on his shaking hands and hid them behind his sleeves.

😟 😟 -

Luo Binghe must have felt the change in air pressure or something because he stepped closer after Shen Qingqiu removed his shoes and walked the smallest of ways into the dwelling. “A-Yuan,” he started, voice low and soothing. “What wrong? Please, let this Binghe help.”

😟 ❤️ 😟 ❤️ 😟 -

Shen Qingqiu froze in his tracks, hand coming to his mouth to stifle the sudden sob that escaped his chest, loss and intense longing stabbing through him.

💔 💔 💔 💔 💔 -

“Binghe? Could I… Could I hug you?”

😭 😭 😭 💔 ❤️ ❤️ 💔

“Of course.” Luo Binghe was already opening his arms to him as he said the words and Shen Qingqiu didn’t quite fall into him, but it was a near thing. His knees collapsed but Binghe caught him, holding him close as Shen Qingqiu ended up sitting on his heels with Luo Binghe kneeing upright before him, face buried into a wide but still lean shoulder.

I’m not crying

Luo Binghe leaned back a little and Shen Qingqiu made an embarrassing sound of protest only to calm when pressure from his hair suddenly eased as Luo Binghe removed the ornamentation from it. His hair now free, Shen Qingqiu asked weakly, “Could Binghe hug me, too?”

I’M NOT CRYING

Luo Binghe’s arms came around his shoulders and held him tight. “For as long as A-Yuan wants. I’m here. I’m here.”

I’M NOT – I’M NOT BAWLING DEFINITELY NOT WIPING TEARS FROM MY EYES

Shen Qingqiu snuggled closer, breathing in his familiar scent as a hand stroked his hair, and the pain in his chest dulled to something manageable.

YOU’RE THE ONE CRYING, NOT ME!!!!

They stayed like that for a long while, Luo Binghe murmuring quiet assurances that he was there, that he wasn’t alone, that he was happy to be able to support him. After some time, Shen Qingqiu exhaled and so much of the tension that he held melted away.

Okay. Okay, not crying. This is good. ...

There was a light pressure on his head, almost as if Luo Binghe had kissed him, when his disciple said quietly, “That’s it, A-Yuan. You’re okay, you’re safe. Your Binghe has you.”

Damn it! Now I’m trying not to cry - again!!!! 😭 😭 😭

A tremor rocked through him and Shen Qingqiu had to fight tears as he thought, but you’re not my Binghe. Not yet, maybe not ever.

Yes!!! Yes, he is your Binghe!!!!!!! Now, and forever!!!!

He shouldn’t be doing this. He shouldn’t be curled into his disciple like this, crying because Luo Binghe would probably never love him the way he wanted. He didn’t want the taste of another life the other had given him but this Binghe, who smiled at him and cooked for him and greeted him when he came home.

😭 😭 😭 STOP TRYING TO MAKE ME CRY AGAINNNNNNN

The one who now all of Cang Qiong knew he had feelings for.

…whoops.

 …okay, taking a moment to breathe. ...Alright. I think I can continue. -

He had to tell him what he had said to Mu Qingfang tonight, before he could hear his confessions, somehow twisted by someone else.

^^;;; Yeahhhh… no clue how that could possibly be twisted…

But how could he? How could he bear for him to know how he felt when he was Luo Binghe, protagonist of this fucked up harem novel he had started reading as a teenager, number one eligible bachelor desired by so many and he was just… Shen Yuan?

WHEN YOU’RE JUST EXACTLY WHAT AND WHO HE WANTS 😭 😭 😭

But maybe that was a personal problem.

…Wow. That’s- actually some pretty good insight, right there. THIS is why, despite everything, they’re able to make this work – unlike his novel counterpart, this Shen Yuan is learning to give Luo Binghe agency, and not project his own expectations onto him!!! -

He should just enjoy what he had while he had it. And what he had right now was a disciple that cared far too much about him

💗 💗 💗 -

“A-Yuan.” Luo Binghe’s tone was serious again and Shen Qingqiu was startled by the hand gently but firmly guiding his face up until he met those fathomless black eyes. It was the same expression that had startled him the night before, though his mouth softened as a thumb brushed away some rogue tears. “Never apologize for your feelings to me. A-Yuan need only be himself around me and I would take all of him as he is. You spend so much of your time taking care of me; allow me to return the favor.”

I’M GOING TO START SOBBING AGAIN -

Luo Binghe looked at him for a long moment. “Does A-Yuan only care about me because he is supposed to?”

“No! Of course not!”

AHHHHHHHHH He’s just so instinctively indignant!!! Of course not, Binghe!!! How could you ever imagine that I, Shen Yuan, could do anything less than care about you because it’s you???? -

“Let this disciple take care of his Shizun, A-Yuan. Please.”

Shen Qingqiu unthinkingly raised his hands to cover Luo Binghe’s own and said, “Okay.”

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH----

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The boy was still far from grown, but he deserved better than Shen Qingqiu going over his head and treating him like a child. If he was mature enough to support Shen Qingqiu like he had, then he was mature enough for this talk.

Or at least… an edited version of it. There was no need or desire for him to get specific about certain activities.

pffffft -

“Thank you for allowing me to help you,” he said shyly

😭 😭 😭 -

“I was only surprised. I like doing A-Yuan’s hair because it’s a way he relies on this Binghe and no other. He trusts me to see him undone the way he trusts no one else.

asdljhaskdjf awwwwwwwwww -

Shen Qingqiu frowned at his slip into more formal language and puzzled over it for a moment before dismissing the concern. “I didn’t think of it like that, but you’re right and I would probably only ever ask Binghe to help me with this.”

Luo Binghe drew in a sharp breath and paused before saying, “Hearing that makes this Binghe so happy. This Binghe would only ever want to help A-Yuan.”

ONLY EVER A-YUAN

Shen Qingqiu frowned in confusion. “Really? Are you sure—”

“Only A-Yuan.”

ahskfjhskd ONLY. EVER. A. YUAN. -

“Well then, I want to explain, Binghe.”

<333 -

But, despite what Luo Binghe said, he deserved to know and Shen Qingqiu did in fact owe it to him.

<3333333333 -

“The. The reason I was upset today was that many Peak Lords spent a lot of time today gossiping about this master. Specifically, t-the news of my poisoning being cured and the fact that, prior to that, I was. Entirely inexperienced.”

Awwww….. poor baby…. But, what a way to put it XD ”Entirely inexperienced” aka I only ever got off being mad at Airplane’s crappy writing until I met your unfairly sexy older self, who of course I had to be attracted to, given that he’s the most beautiful man ever, and more importantly, a grown-up and guilt-free version of you. Really, this master stood no chance, and of course my husband took the opportunity to educate me and relieve me of my inexperience...... XD Okay, I kind of ran away with it there ^^; -

How Binghe had suggested we are tied by fate, and how I. How I said it was special to me.

ashfashfkasjdhfksajdhfksjdhfksajdhf SPECIAL TO ME- -

“B-because it was my first time and that I acknowledged him as my husband. And how.” Shen Qingqiu gripped his robes tightly and barely managed to get out, “How I feel about Luo Binghe.”

ALKUDHALKDHSKLADHSKAJDSH HOW I FEEL ABOUT LUO BINGHE!!!!! -

Before Shen Qingqiu could blink, Luo Binghe had come around to his side, lifted his face up, and kissed him.

!!!!!!!!!

!

!!!!!!!!!

Shen Qingqiu didn’t even have time to process what was happening before Luo Binghe pulled away, glaring at him. Hand still on his face, he said, “Shen Yuan, this Binghe apologizes for kissing you and likely making you uncomfortable. I need you to understand something: I love you. When I told you I would not approach you as a disciple, that was for your comfort, not my own. If this Binghe had his way, he would never leave your side and we would bow to each other tomorrow. There is no one else for me, only you.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! -

I will do my best to respect your boundaries, but you must know that hearing you doubt my regard for you is probably the fastest way to make me lose control of myself. Even if you never believe me, please don’t say so in front of me.

awwwwwwwwwwwwww 😭 😭 😭

Shen Qingqiu blinked up at him, taken aback, lips tingling as if from an aftershock. “Oh.”

“Oh” indeed -

Luo Binghe hugged him. “Thank you, A-Yuan. Even if we never get around to dual cultivation, just being beside you and your most important person would make me the luckiest person in the world.”

Staunchly ignoring part of his statement, Shen Qingqiu lifted a hand and pet Luo Binghe’s hair. “This Shen Yuan would be the lucky one.”

DEFINITELY NOT GOING TO CRY NOPE -

“Apologies, A-Yuan,” Luo Binghe said, voice lower than Shen Qingqiu expected. “I felt the urge to kiss you again and had to move away.

Good Binghe – but also, poor, poor Binghe!!! All these feelings, and he doesn’t get to show them properly!!! But he’s respecting his Shizun and his boundaries!!! Ahhhhhh, I just love this Binghe so much!!! -

“But my fear is that, in retelling, the information I gave Mu Qingfang privately will twist. I don’t know exactly what he has written down and how it can be open to interpretation.”

What did he say – no, better question: what does Mu Qingfang’s notes say??? And what was going through his brain through that whole session?!?!?!??| -

It probably came from me describing how intimate everything felt and that I couldn’t imagine doing such a thing with anyone I trusted less than Binghe.”

sal;fj;aslfja;sldfjlsa;df my heart is melting -

He hadn’t put a lot of thought into his sexuality, really, outside of having to come to terms very quickly with his attraction to an adult Luo Binghe. But he was designed to be the most beautiful man in the world; what other choice did he have, really?

asjhfadf Ahhh, you’re too cute, Shen Yuan XD XD What possible choice did he have XD XD XD

“That’s okay, A-Yuan. I was just trying to understand. I think it’s okay not to know.”

It is okay to not know!!! -

“First round?”

Yes, this tea was delicious, the right blend of rosehips, chamomile, and passionflower. “Yes, since it only took one for the cure to go into effect.”

……….pfffffffffffffft -

“Um. The cure specifically requires a heavenly demon to… finish inside his partner.”

Shen Qingqiu’s face was on fire.

XDDDDDDD -

“As an adult, Binghe expends some energy to seem either fully human or fully demon at any given time. How could I claim to care for him and not take him as he is?”

awwwww -

Luo Binghe made a wounded noise and, before Shen Qingqiu could voice his concern he found himself in a tight hug from behind, his disciple’s face against his neck in a way that felt a little too close. He said, voice watery, “Thank you, A-Yuan. Thank you.”

awwwwwwwwwwwww

Shen Qingqiu pat his head, confused. “I didn’t do anything, Binghe.”

“You care; that’s enough. That’s everything.”

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

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On a scale of “small splinter” to “literal end of the world,” Luo Binghe would categorize the crisis he was having as a relatively mild “Liu Qingge is standing too close to his Shizun like a pet waiting to be praised.”

That was Luo Binghe’s position, thank you very much.

ashfaljsdhf I love it XD That’s his position -

It was late by the time he hugged Shen Yuan goodnight and left to let his future husband Shizun sleep.

asfasdjf -

Oh, Shen Yuan.

Oh, Shen Yuan, indeed ^^;; -

At a loss, with no one to rely on but himself, Luo Binghe headed back to his shared dorm room to meditate, hoping the exercises would help him clear his mind enough to actually think.

…good luck. You’ll need it. -

Because Shen Yuan already admitted to loving him, even if it wasn’t the way Luo Binghe loved him yet.

asdf <33333333 -

He hadn’t intended on being so blunt with his feelings so soon but seeing his Shen Yuan upset drove him to the edge of his control.

awwww, bby…. -

Now, now, he was nearly jogging in his haste to find a quiet place to calm down and not attempt murder on one of the many who dared make his A-Yuan cry. Either that or turn back around to the bamboo house and convince Shen Yuan that he wanted him more than his next breath. His beautiful, kind, brilliant A-Yuan, who could somehow not see Luo Binghe’s devotion after everything.

This… will not be changing anytime soon, poor baby… -

Luo Binghe needed to– …requires a heavenly demon to finish inside his partner. He needed– …I enjoyed it. He– How could I claim to care for him and not take him as he is? Gods, but Luo Binghe wanted nothing more than to–

 XD <3333333333333333333333 -

…oh, hi, Ming Fan. ‘sup. -

If he had learned anything over the past week, it was perspective. He knew now what it looked like when someone was jealous of his connection with Shen Qingqiu. While he doubted Ming Fan felt the desire to taste their Shizun’s moans that had seeped into Luo Binghe’s bones, he could tell the boy wished Shen Qingqiu relied on him more.

…wow -

While he would rather die than betray his A-Yuan’s trust, maybe some things could be shared. A common enemy or ten, for example.  

XD 👍 -

This lowly one does not know the details, but nearly every Peak Lord with the exceptions of Peak Lords Liu, Shang, and Mu… And Peak Lord Wei was especially vicious…”

TBH, the first time I read it, I got confused why Peak Lord Wei was on the list of exceptions 😅 I am not good at names, and that last ‘And’ tied Wei Qingwei in with the others in my mind. …not helped by the fact that I often listen to it while at work, rather than read it properly at  home ^^; -

“Well, Shizun is wise and above such petty squabbles, but this disciple is not.

asdhljk Bless you, Ming Fan

Yingying will…

A-ha! Caught that on a reread! 😏 I get what that’s referring to/implying now! -

With the other Peak Lords handled, Luo Binghe could dedicate himself to what really mattered.

Shen Yuan.

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww -----

Luo Binghe: WHO UPSET MY A-YUAN? I JUST WANNA TALK! (He did not, in fact, just want to talk.)

<333

This did not go the way I planned. I wanted MBJ and ZZL this chapter but I’m sad and wanted to post to feel a little less so. This was a struggle to get out with my computer crashing and me losing a good portion of the last bit.

: ( ooooof >_< I really feel your pain, there >__<

So, I think I can sum up this chapter by stating…

TOO MANY FEELS!!!!!!!!!

and – I have to admit that I tend to read and react to things… shallowly? I have to force myself to pause and consider things, and normally I’m to busy ravenously lunging for the next word, the next paragraph, the next page- So… when I miss things and misunderstand things, that’s really all on me ^_^;;;;;;;

That’s it for Chapter 2!! I’ll probably end up doing chapter 3 tomorrow,  around the same time!!!

Shang Qinghua had done him enough favors that he had earned a little trust when it came to his interpretation of his favorite character and maybe future husband.

…a little trust. maybe.

Yes, Shang Qinghua had argued that Mobei-Jun would find Luo Binghe’s existence more incredible than actual time travel. Go figure.

XD  XD  XD

SQH: he’s been staring at me for a while and I’m trying really hard not to vibrate out of my skin

Or to think about the possibility of your ideal man choosing to marry you? 😉

SQH: He didn’t have a love interest!! SQH: hell, I’m not convinced he has one now! SQQ: …feels like that’s something you would know? SQH: oh, like you’re one to talk

asdfasjdlf 🤣 🤣 🤣 

Shen Qingqiu had plenty of practice at not reacting to things externally

He’s really good at it! ...for better, or for worse ^^;;

“Who, me?” Shang Qinghua chirped, nearly wringing his hands. “No, of course not, why would you say that?”

Yeaah… not nervous at all…. *pat-pats anxious bean*

SQQ: take like 3 deep breaths bro you’re going to pass out.

Friends don’t let friends have panic attacks!

“Don’t mention it. Here, this is for you." Shen Qingqiu held out the bag of melon seeds and watched Shang Qinghua take them like they were all that was keeping him together.

Melon seeds for the adorable hamster :3 Also, disctraction tactic! Give him something to fiddle with and focus on, other than his anxiety!!!

 …understandably so as Shang Qinghua had made him his literal ideal man.

Whereas Binghe is your ideal man! …I assume. Hm… If asked before his husband vistited, what would Shen Qingqiu say his ideal man person would be? …and now? (Only one answer: Binghe)

 What was less attractive about him was how he looked over Shen Qingqiu then glanced away dismissively, only to resume staring at Shang Qinghua as if he was making a point.

lolol this man has his priorities, and that priority is Shang Qinghua. This other Peak Lord is only here on sufferance XD

Shen Qingqiu, being marginally familiar with the silent obsession of a high-level demon’s courtship after hearing about everything that happened in his husband’s timeline, didn’t take offense to it.

Only because of that timeline? Nothing in this timeline? In any case, prepare to become intimately familiar with the obsession of a high-level demon XD XD XD

“Greetings, great Mobei-Jun. This Shen Qingqiu is honored to meet such an esteemed lord and an important person to his friend, Shang Qinghua.”

awwwww! ^_^ Also, really nicely worded???? This sentence just sounds so good???

SQQ: the only way he listens to a word I’m about to say is to show up front that I’m important to you but not a threat to his position in your life, idiot SQQ: also yes, can confirm he thinks you’re his love interest

🤣 🤣 🤣 Absolutely fantastic

SQH: ??? how do you know?? You’ve been here two seconds

Those two seconds were more than enough to know XD XD XD

“This Mobei-Jun would find Peak Lord Shen’s greetings more amenable if he would refrain from speaking privately with this one’s subordinate for the duration of this conversation.”

Quiet does not equal unobservant or dumb!

“I don’t particularly care to interfere with your plans and hope we can agree to at the very least a stance of non-interference with each other.”

…what about Mobei-Jun’s plans for the Immortal Alliance Conference? I mean – it’s not a natural event, it’s MBJ taking revenge on humanity and HuanHua Palace (with SQH’s help). Is Shen Qingqiu really not planning on doing anything for that? He has to be – but then, wouldn’t that count as interfering with his plans?

Shen Qingqiu allowed his lips to curl into something not particularly friendly.

Oh, dear.

 “I am intimately aware that demons have the capacity to feel just as much as humans, if not more so.”

*Insert pic of Binghe teary-eyed here*

Mobei-Jun’s eyes glowed for a moment as he held Shen Qingqiu’s gaze and mild surprise broke the frosty indifference. “Intimate indeed.” Shen Qingqiu felt himself blanch but worked to keep his face neutral at the rather horrifying implication that Mobei-Jun could somehow– “Is your lover the one you wish to free?”

jsahfalsjdfkajsd jkhXD XD XD 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣 🤣 

Shen Qingqiu wanted to start screaming. Binghe! He thought at his very much out of reach husband. You didn’t say anything about demons being able to tell about our relationship?!

XD XD - Very justified yelling at his husband, and Luo Binghe picking it up XD

 “A-Yuan? Did you say something?”

“No, Binghe. I’m fine.”

af;lj;asdjf;lj

 Shen Qingqiu cleared his throat and said to the demon lord, “No. My… husband is not in need of a jailbreak.”

asfdjj snrrrk

“Nine days ago, a man claiming to be my husband from the future appeared and proceeded to raise a great deal of chaos within the Sect.”

And had a great deal of joy doing so XD

Mobei-Jun stared at him. “And Peak Lord Shen believed this man.”

…Well, when you don’t know the details, it does sound ridiculous… buuut I think “Ridiculous” is just a (large) part of any BingQiu relationship XD

“My husband was once again… my disciple.”

*cringes*

“I had known he was a demon but had sought to protect him. His identity remains a secret from everyone else in the Sect until I can ensure that his birth family can shelter and protect him better than I can.”

Hopefully earning respect points from Mobei-Jun here! Would any other so-called righteous cultivator protect a demon so? …how protective are demonic families? Do they tend to shelter their young, or expect their offspring to prove themselves? Are they careless with each other?

 “My disciple and I know that nothing can happen between us while he is not yet an adult or while I am his teacher.”

…There is a lot going on in that “nothing” XD

Shen Qingqiu had trained to remain unflappable under pressure and waited for the other man to respond.

This man has earned a very high lvl in poker face XD

Shang Qinghua, however, did not have the temperament to let the tense silence remain.

lolol my favorite little anxiety hamster <3

“I was also thinking that maybe we could… work together?”

Can I play with my new friend? Pretty please???

Shen Qingqiu had already responded once too many to his silent order to talk. He just looked blandly at him until his mouth twitched in some expression that was too fleeting to decipher

I just – SQQ, you project/narrate such an attitude of being laid-back, constantly trying to deride yourself – but you’re actually really cool!!! You’re actually really a bamf!!!

“[…] Huan Hua Palace Master” –Mobei-Jun’s lip curled in such instinctual hatred

SAME

SQH: Bro, what? That’s a different tone than yesterday! SQH: Something to share, hmm?

Hmmmm?

“I assure Mobei-Jun, it’s very, very possible.”

It’s Luo Binghe – Mobei-Jun best start believing in the impossible :3

 “Luo Binghe, when he is grown, will be one of the most formidable beings in the world and a very good ally to have.”

SQQ – LBH’s biggest cheerleader <3

Shen Qingqiu said this with the absolute conviction of knowing he was right

<333

...of having felt that power tempered into something touchable in his arms.

<33333333333

Shen Qingqiu smiled and it wasn’t a friendly one.

SQH: scary!

hot! I’m sure Binghe would agree that SQQ’s smiles are all very appealing – especially when they’re smiles like this

“No, Mobei-Jun, because he was the emperor outright.”

Mobei-Jun wanted to meet Binghe.

😁😁😁

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Luo Binghe did not know what exactly was to come during this meeting, but he knew for a fact he and Shen Yuan had different goals going in.

Ohhhhhh boy. *braces self*

 His goal, at the end of everything, was to be happily married to Shen Yuan.

Everything, anything else is just set dressing

 He saw Shang Qinghua as a little foolish but far from a fool, and only a fool would not admire Shen Yuan the longer they knew him.

<333 I love him both acknowledging Shen Yuan (of course) and Shang Qinghua!

 His solution: make sure Shang Qinghua was married off as soon as possible.

XD XD XD

 [SQQ] had neglected to tell him explicitly anything about Shang Qinghua and Mobei-Jun’s relationship in this timeline and Luo Binghe was going to exploit that oversight for all that he was worth.

You can take the “Beast” out of the boy, but not the gremlin tendencies XD

 When his A-Yuan called him in, Luo Binghe couldn’t help first finding the man with his eyes, taking in the careful but calm presence he was projecting. His fan wasn’t hiding his expression, so Luo Binghe had the privilege of watching both his eyes and mouth soften as he entered.

asdfas awwwwwwwwww

 Luo Binghe’s attention shifted then, rather belatedly, to the biggest physical threat in the room.

lolol Just like Mobei-Jun, Luo Binghe also has his priorities in order XD

“This Luo Binghe greets Mobei-Jun, demon king of the northern territories. It is an honor to meet the husband of this one’s Shang-shishu.”

*sputters* Binghe!!! asdfj;lasdf XD

“This lowly disciple apologizes sincerely.”

‘Sincerely’ my foot, you little brat XD

 “Binghe, come sit.”

“Yes, Shizun.” Luo Binghe straightened from his bow and quickly came to Shen Yuan’s side, a bit closer than he should be as a regular disciple to their master.

*invisible tail wagging madly the whole way*

 To his greatest pleasure, Shen Yuan leaned towards him as he settled, a small enough move to be unconscious but significant enough to be marked by those present all the same.  

<333 (All except the man doing the leaning XD)

 Once, not long ago, he would have balked at himself and the impulses, pushed them away as only a dangerous trait to control. But Shen Yuan had made it clear he accepted him for himself, accepted him at his worst and most demonic, and still wanted him.

Awwwwww!!!

 “Expecting the worst from a heavenly demon suddenly appearing?”

Shang Qinghua nodded rapidly. “Yes, exactly! Not every day one of those just strolls into your office, unannounced!”

Unless you’re SQQ XD

Wait a second; he knows about me?

Meng Mo is doing some rapid recalculating about this man XD …Those two interacting again would be interesting

 “No matter who teaches me now or later, Shizun is the only one I will call master.”

“Binghe…” Shen Yuan trailed off and Luo Binghe turned to see him looking off-balance.

“No one else could ever be worthy of the title,” Luo Binghe responded, voice lower than anticipated and, to his delight, flustered Shen Yuan.

MBJ: …Qinghua, did you bring these two before me just to serve me dog food???

The other man pulled up his fan and looked away, but not fast enough to hide his blush entirely if one knew where to look.

And Luo Binghe knew where to look.

And, oh, Binghe was looking

Shang Qinghua whimpered but Shen Yuan nodded serenely. “Thank you for taking the time to meet. Shang Qinghua, we’ll see you tomorrow.”

“But Cucum-“

“Tomorrow, Airplane. We’ll show ourselves out.”

Just abandon SQH to MBJs tender mercies…. I’m sure he’ll be fine XD

 “A-Yuan, I did not mean to cause his trouble…”

Uh-huh. Right.

 Sure, he hadn’t particularly cared if he did, but that wasn’t his intent going into the meeting.

…

 “This master will take any blame for the trouble that arises from this.”

That certainly wasn’t what Luo Binghe had wanted.

That’s the opposite of what he wants! He wants Shizun to focus on him! Not focus on covering for him!

 “I only… I wanted to make sure you stayed friends in the future, no matter what happens.”

but……….?

 Luo Binghe’s eyes shifted to just beyond Shen Yuan to catch a couple of An Ding Peak disciples looking at them strangely.

(oops - the outside world still exists XD  XD)

“I thought it… couldn’t hurt if that person was also married.”

asdjfahldsf That’s what I thought – I knew there was a ‘but-’ to that! XD XD

 Luo Binghe had grown increasingly nervous with his silence, but Shen Yuan pulled him into a hug the moment they had privacy.

ajsdhfa;jsf awwwwww <333333333

“Binghe, thank you for telling me the truth.”

This! Is why! Their relationship is actually going to work!!! <3333333333333

“I can’t reprimand you in part because I don’t know what I will do when I’m in your position.”

XD XD Binghe isn’t the only one that can chug vinegar!

 “And for the things I wish to say but cannot?” Luo Binghe asked before he could stop himself.

…

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SQH: I LIVE

How did the MoShang conversation go??? How does MBJ feel??? What sorts of things is he reconsidering, and newly considering? 😁 😁 😁

SQH: turns out he was courting me? Sort of? Didn’t seem super aware of it though so I take heart in not knowing it was happening either

lol nice

SQH: and he thought I was afraid of him because he was a demon not because of you know, the fact he used to hurt me before he realized I really didn’t like that SQQ: wtf

this is interesting!!! And I wonder if SQQ will ever follow up on that? Or if the fact that his new friend was getting abused by his future husband will slide by, because A) it’s stopped and B) everything else still going on

 SQH: DID have to tell him I was aware of a third timeline where LBH grew up evil and extremely violent SQH: kinda sorta implied that would happen if you stopped caring about him or somehow died

j;sfdjkjlsjk;lksa

SQQ: hold on, MBJ KILLING BINGHE WAS AN OPTION??

*Kill Bill sirens*

SQQ: Shang. Qing. Hua.

*Murderous intent simmering*

SQH: Anyway! You and my son. Are very painfully obviously a thing.

asjhfaksjdhf They really are!!!!! (and I love it)

 SQQ: He’s not your son SQH: I literally created him next point

…Point ceded Also, I really love thinking about how SQH created Luo Binghe??? And all sorts of thoughts and implications that can follow from that? I dunno, I just... really like thinking about Airplane-the-Author-of-this-world

SQQ: Binghe and I have an understanding but we’re not a “thing”

‘Understanding’, hmmm??? 👀 👀 👀

 SQH: and that understanding is most definitely a Thing SQH: you went from hardass Peak Lord to actual blushing maiden the second he said something to you

*cackles*

SQH: and LBH was WAY too comfortable looking at you like he wanted to eat you in front of other people for that not to be normal for him

*cackles even harder*

What they had now was the extent that they could be together, too close by a wide margin but not yet crossing The Line.

*Pulls out measuring tape and magnifying glass* Hmmm… The Line is indeed not quite crossed, yes. *looks back* The other lines, however…. *lines can be seen off in the far distance*

 SQH: Look I’m not saying that to freak you out, but from what you told me, you’re kinda treating him like a husband? And from what I saw today he’s kinda acting like one too.

<33333

 SQH: …afraid to ask but say more words. How are they different?

asdfhasljh XD

Shen Qingqiu was trying to avoid saying things too bluntly but it looked like Shang Qinghua wasn’t trying to let him be polite. He would try one last time.

XD Poor SQQ

Shen Qingqiu stared at the screen in shock but… was he wrong? He quite literally climbed into the man’s lap every chance he got and had co-initiated those rounds of sex that they had very enthusiastically.

AND IT WAS ADORABLE (and also really hot)

 SQH: just for you to understand what you’re stepping into here I guess SQH: if you fully understand and are still good to go, then congrats on your future marriage.

*offers thumbs up* congrats on your future marriage, indeed

SQH: have you considered what would happen if YOU changed your mind? SQH: you’re not the only one that can be hurt by your relationship you know

SQQ often just… forgets that LBH can be hurt by him, that what he does could ever hurt LBH.

SQH: never mind. Now that it’s confirmed he actually is interested I’m prepared mentally, just not physically.

pfffffff

SQQ: I am so sorry I asked

asdfhasjdkf XD XD

 SQH: you’re committed to this course of action? You better prepare now for the pressure bomb of pent-up frustration LBH’s going to be once he gets out of the abyss SQQ: I will NOT

asjhfal XD XD XD XD XD XD Oh dear

SQQ: Shang Qinghua. I still have to teach Binghe. I have to see him every day.

^^;;;

 SQQ: I hate you so much

They’re friends!!!!! 😄😄😄

SQQ: oh right, I can leave SQH: Bro!

<3 Their friendship is just- XD

 (Honestly there was a lot more in that convo I could have reacted to, but I’m trying not to grab every line XD)

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MBJ, just meeting SQQ: I can respect this human maybe. MBJ, after seeing Bingqiu interact: never mind

asjafslhfaskjdhfaksjdhfkasjd

…Buddy. I, uh. Have to tell you that the kiss is only slightly more inappropriate than the rest of what you've got going on, and boy, are you going to nonchalantly do far more on your own without realizing later 😅 😅 😅

Good thing you two are so cute together, and can complement each other so well!

Oh, God. Unless he was wildly misinterpreting his and Ning Yingying’s relationship in this timeline, that was Binghe’s first kiss.

😏 😏 😏 It would have been yours, too, if it weren't for that alternate husband of yours stealing most of your firsts already!! 😏

Okay, this was definitely somehow his fault.

I mean. It was definitely inspired by how you were talking yourself down? But it's not actually your fault. Mostly. Because I know you, SQQ – don't try to take full blame for everything!!!

Shen Qingqiu had known he was relying on Luo Binghe too much, that he was too weak to resist the siren call of comfort he had gotten during the brief hours he had a spouse to claim. Now that he had a taste of what it felt like to be held in simple affection, he craved it, specifically from the person he cared for above all others.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!! awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

But that person was someone he had absolutely no business wanting anything from.

Ah- 💔

What, no!!! Yes, he is!!! Binghe specifically wants to be someone you can desire and want from!!! He's cultivating himself to offer you as much as possible!!! You'll be doing him a disservice if you ignore all of it!!!

On some level, Shen Qingqiu acknowledged what Luo Binghe had told him the night before.

…I doubt it's a very high level, but progress is progress!

The boy… the young man thought he loved him in a way that probably felt real and intense to him.

…..good thing LBH isn't here to hear that and prove just how real and intense his love truly is.

A not insignificant part of him wanted to accept his words at face value, to believe that Luo Binghe would always choose him if given the option.

❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ He would!!! He will!!!

The problem was that Luo Binghe didn’t even know his other options.

I mean… he's already met the main 3 leads from his possible harem, the ones who likely loved him the most in that other timeline? Ning Yingying, of course, and then Sha Hualing and Liu Mingyan – even if only briefly, he did meet them!

And once he did… if Shen Qingqiu let himself believe that Luo Binghe truly loved him and he changed his mind after he had the chance to experience life away from him, how could he bear it?

…okay, that's kind of fair. He knows that he's not strong enough to survive losing Luo Binghe, after having him. He's already experiencing that a little already – adjusting to not having his husband anymore is already tearing him up inside, and he only had him for a single day.

What about Shen Yuan was even worth coming back for?

…I feel you, bro.

That thought left Shen Qingqiu cold. He did his best to shake himself out of it and get on with the rest of his fairly packed day, but his heart wasn’t in it. More than one disciple had tentatively approached him and inquired after his health, which left him feeling even worse for causing them concern.

awwwwwww… your kids love you and worry about you, SQQ!

It was his fault for taking advantage of Binghe’s willingness to indulge him. Should he stop allowing himself to get close to him at all, completely cut off all physical contact?

MAYDAY, MAYDAY, DO NOT ATTEMPT!!! THIS WOULD NOT END WELL!!!

Even the possibility left him feeling almost despondent and, for right or wrong, he discarded it as something he couldn’t deny himself, never mind the effect the decision would have on Binghe.

Oh thank goodness

So much for a strictly student-teacher relationship, huh.

You're. Uh. Finally realizing that, huh? Ahaha… I feel like you're going to try to forget that and its implications as soon as you can ignore it.

It was a relief to leave the Peak after midday, his mood not enough to ruin his appetite and waste Luo Binghe’s hard work in the kitchen

How many times can one person be attacked by feels in a single chapter??? How many times can I just awwwwwwww at them as my heart melts???

(even though the accompanying note about wishing him good health made him feel like scum).

>_<;

He was en-route to Jing Xue Peak which specialized in arrays and talismans when he got a message from Shang Qinghua. He looked around the clear, open sky, and thought it was safe enough to open it.

Broship time, cucumplane time!!!

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SQH: hey bro you okay? SQQ: ?? yeah why?

Breakdown, what breakdown??? I'm totally alright!!!

SQH: well I’m a spy, right? I generally know what happens in the sect but my disciples started observing you closer after LBH came to get me like a week ago and we’ve been hanging out

SQH's disciples also care about their teacher! 😄

SQQ: your disciples are spying on the sect for you? SQH: not *spying* spying. Just like keeping me informed on things for logistic purposes SQQ: they’re spying SQH: …

XD  XD

SQH: Anyway! What’s going on? I’m here if you want to talk!

For the love of everyone's sanity, SQQ, please take him up on that offer!

Shen Qingqiu sighed and gave it real thought. While he didn’t quite feel comfortable divulging everything to Shang Qinghua despite their declared friendship, who else did he have to talk to about this besides Binghe? And what would happen if he kept relying on Binghe alone?

A) Yes, please talk to your friend about your troubles! B)…….you go the canon route and fall apart and eventually develop a highly unhealthy codependent relationship, so please go talk to SQH. I am begging you.

(What would happen when Binghe left?)

…Several very sad years, most likely.

SQQ: okay. Thanks, I guess

<3

SQQ: …It’s about Binghe. He kissed me last night. SQH: !! Congratulations…?

😂😂😂 I love how airplane is just like, !!!! Yay!!! Wait - he's freaking out, so I guess I should make that a question???

SQQ: No! No congratulations!! SQQ: He’s my student! My 16-year-old student!!! The only people he should be kissing are people his own age who are not his teacher!

"NO CONGRATULATIONS FOR ILLICITLY SMOOCHING MY STUDENT!!!" “Jail for this teacher!!! Jail for a thousand million years!!!!!

SQH: Yeah, but would either of you be happy if he did that?

*mic drop*

The sentence was like a punch to the gut. He was nearly at Jing Xue but he descended to nearby cliff to perch on solid ground, the open air around him suddenly feeling none too safe and dangerously thin.

oooof SQQ actually had to stop and pull over, that truth hurt so much.

Because no, he would not be happy if Luo Binghe started kissing other people at all.

 Nope. Not even a little bit.

SQQ: …no SQH: Okay then just let him know that wasn’t okay because of the age difference/teacher thing and you’re good, right?

That would require actually talking about our problems, and – boy howdy, is that hard. And you can only ever hope that the conversation goes that well and is that simple

SQH: When did he even have the chance to kiss you? I mean this is the best possible way, but you’re not the most approachable person.

😏 😏

 SQQ: …we spend evenings together. He cooks our dinner and seems happy to spend time with me until I go to sleep. He was brushing my hair for the night as I explained what I said to MQF. I thought he didn’t react well when I mentioned I had feelings for him but he kissed me as I was telling him that I didn’t expect anything from him. SQH: …

… … …wow. When he just – lays it all out like that – it's so-

SQH: there is so much to unpack there I don’t even know where to begin SQH: how much time to do you have?

-it's so that. yeah. That's a lot going on, there.

SQQ: not much, I’m heading to Jing Xue to start research before our meeting with MBJ tomorrow SQQ: we still good for that?

Mobei-jun!! This will be fun!!! I assume this research was related to Tianlang-jun's array, as guessed by LBH later this chapter! Most probably!!!

SQH: yes, my king will be there, don’t distract me though

😏

SQH: let me get this straight. You, the person who singlehandedly ended his hell of living with SJ as his master and continues to welcome him into your inner sanctum, told my protagonist with major abandonment issues that you’re in love with him but don’t expect him to feel the same? SQQ: …more or less? SQH: bro

Bro

SQH: bro you’re lucky the only thing he did was kiss you

XDDDDDDD

SQQ: No! No talk of Binghe doing… anything else! Binghe is baby, the cutest bun!

Cute, yes. Innocent??? Oh, you sweet summer child. *shakes head in sympathy at his delusions*

SQH: …if I’m recalling correctly you were fine with him doing a lot more than kissing at 17 SQQ: I was 16 at the time! Of course I was more okay with it!

oooof Young age range of Shen Yuan here, but still easily perceivable!

SQH: Wait wait whoa back the fuck up SQH: 16! What were you doing reading my web novel at 16?!

Even worse – he was actually buying your stallion novel at 16!

SQH: Wait, how old are you now??

Considering you spent 4 years writing PIDW… not that much older than 16

SQQ: Age checks on websites are a joke, Airplane. And I was there for the monsters and Binghe, not that mess that came later. SQQ: I died at 19, so I’m about 21 now. Hard to say with the shifting dates between death and rebirth.

I mean. it was probably pretty legit at first, when SQH still was working from his notes and not pandering yet – so it's actually your fault for being a good writer, SQH! …When would he celebrate his birthday? I feel like if LBH ever figured out how big a deal birthdays can be, he'd want to celebrate. Celebrate Shen Yuan coming into their world! New birthday is also your death day, in a way – if you celebrate the day you entered SQQs body. Depending on how close or far you were from your 20th birthday, you can either round up or round down ^^;;;

SQH: Jesus I’m talking to a baby

Qi Qingqi from several truth reveal fics agrees with you XD XD (Fic recommending – "Unveiling The Imposter" by ladylufffluff. They never catch Shen Yuan's name even as they're basically watching canon, so they she persists in calling him 'Baby' – much to some other's protests.)

SQQ: Hey! I’m an adult!! SQH: A Child. SQQ: NO

XD XD

SQH: oh God I’m having a crisis. Do you know how many times I almost told you “Luo Binghe won’t fuck you” in response to your more pointless criticism? I almost said that to a teenager?

PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFTTTT

SQH: oh the irony when you consider that statement NOW

😏😏😏

SQQ: all my criticism had basis SQH: yeah yeah but you were also a troll who was cruel because it was fun sometimes

:(

Guilt gathered in the pit of his stomach, confronted with the person who was no longer just a name on the other side of the screen but was actually kind of his friend.

SQQ: …you’re right and I’m sorry. I knew you worked hard to get that content out. I shouldn’t have been that mean to you just because I didn’t like it. You didn’t owe me that.

❤️ ❤️ ❤️ Shen Yuan realizing and being honest about when he did wrong!!! And then apologizing for it!!!

SQH: no no! I mean I appreciate the apology but really no need for it now. I could tell that it was based on frustration from how much you cared about the characters and world and it hurt more because I could actually see your points a lot of the time. But I had bills to pay and needed food, so I put that ahead of actual quality, which I won’t apologize for.

SQH is a good author when he's not selling himself out, and I stand by this statement – this sort of mature view and acceptance of the comment is a facet of that!

SQH: Besides, there were times when I could tell it wasn’t really about me, but more about you and whatever you were going through. With how dedicated you were to it, I kinda got the sense you didn’t have a lot else going on? SQQ: …yeah. I had always been sick and I probably directed what I was feeling about that at you sometimes SQH: and you were a teenager. Wow that puts so much into perspective.

<3333

SQQ: Can we come back to the present, here? You were going to unpack my situation or something?

Right – forgetting about the part where you're only a few years older than Binghe, and back to the part where your future husband cooks all your meals, brushes your hair, and puts you to sleep XD

SQH: oh yeah SQH: yeah that boy is gone on you don’t know how else to say it

asfhasjldkfhkjhklasdfhjsk YUP

SQH: look, to write him, I had to fundamentally understand him SQH: between what I saw of you and adult LBH and what you told me? SQH: LBH? Would probably worship the ground you walked on as long as you kept treating him well.

YUP and now that SQQ doesn't have to betray his fave- There's no possibility that he won't keep treating him well!!!

SQH: Anyway, unless you actively push him away, he’s going to adore you for life. He won’t even look at anyone else because you’re giving him all the love he craved since his mother died. SQH: He never needed 3000 beauties, or an empire or any of that really. He just needed love and when he couldn’t find it he tried to manipulate and force it into being. LBH here doesn’t have that issue.

❤️ 😭 ❤️ 😭 ❤️ 😭 ❤️

Oh. Oh. So… maybe he had a chance?

YES!!!!!!!

SQH: and with him being 16… yeah I stand by my statement you’re lucky that all he did was kiss you

He's not wrong XD

SQH: sorry, but why did him kissing you make you feel bad enough for it to show? I got a report that your Peak was near frantic with concern.

Disciples adore their Shizun so much <333

SQQ: it wasn’t the kiss so much as what it meant SQQ: I was SQQ: I was honestly nervous about letting myself rely on Binghe being there for me in the future, thinking he would meet one of his wives and move on

Completely irrational, but a very understandable fear

SQH: WHAT SQQ: so thanks this was actually helpful

Only by the powers of the two combined, can either Airplane-bro or Cucumber-bro experience the rare phenomenon known as "Common Sense"

SQH: No wait for real you thought he would what go into the Abyss and what? Forget about you?

yyyyyyyyyyyyyyeah no That's literally never happening

SQQ: … SQH: that’s real fucking dumb

What he said.

SQH: not in a mean way but, like, you tore me apart for writing LBH a tragedy because you cared about his happiness that much but you can’t see that you’ve set yourself up to create his happiness here SQH: you literally cultivated the power to make him happy and can’t see it

… ❤️ 😭 ❤️ 😭 ❤️ 😭 😭 😭 😭

-

SQQ: …yes but not about my disciples unless they’re in danger or something. They deserve their privacy.

👍 Pure, pure Cucumber-bro! He's inherently such a good guy who genuinely cares about his disciples <3

SQQ: and your spies need to be trained better if they didn’t inform you I spend my evenings with Binghe

How did they miss that??? Was the peak protective of that for him???

SQQ: minions? SQQ: like those creepy yellow things from America?

lolol

SQQ: you think of yourself like James Bond, Airplane? Really? SQH: no no, the quartermaster! Nerdy twink in the most recent ones, shipped with 007?

…Now I'm picturing MBJ as 007

SQQ: none of the words you’re saying make sense to me and I prefer it that way SQQ: I’m going to go work now

XD I love these dorks

SQH: okay okay good talk, see you tomorrow with LBH SQQ: …thanks again SQH: anytime bro!

<3333333333333333333333333333333333 I really, really love their friendship Let them be good friends!!!! Who can talk to each other!!! Give them a second person to rely on!!!! <33333

Shen Qingqiu continued on his way to Jing Xue Peak feeling a lot lighter than he had earlier in the day. Maybe things wouldn’t have to fall apart when Binghe went into the Abyss?

 I mean – yay, I’m glad you’re feeling better – but!!! Even though your relationship won’t fall apart – haha, not a snowball’s chance in hell – you most likely will. I mean. Not looking forward to being the other Peak Lords when you throw yourself headfirst into denial of how badly you’re hurting. Probably brushing it off with claims of, ‘this lord knew it was a possibility’ and ‘there’s no need for ill feelings, my disciple should survive’ if you admit to it at all… Throwing yourself headfirst into work… Sometimes imagining Luo Binghe’s scent as you struggle to fall asleep…   But, yeah! You’re status as first in LBH’s heart isn’t going to fluctuate even an iotat!!! So, that’s good!

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Luo Binghe was not having a great day.

 …Yeah, I just upset myself too, buddy.

On one hand, things were going well. Ming Fan had already told Ning Yingying about A-Yuan being bullied and she’d tracked him down to get the fuller story. With Ning Yingying sufficiently mobilized, it didn’t take long for the entire Peak to start feeling animosity towards most of the rest of the Sect. The feelings were only heightened by their Shizun’s reported low mood: he wasn’t angry, he just seemed sad was the rumor, which only made the ire of Qing Jing worse.

😈 😈 😈

[...]on the other hand, his A-Yuan was sad and he couldn’t help him.

: ( Too bad you don’t live together anymore, huh :(

By the time Luo Binghe was free, Shen Yuan had already left for his planned research session on Jing Xue Peak, working on figuring out how to free his birth father from his horrible prison.

 And then he keeps trying and just missing him!!!

 Even when feeling down, his A-Yuan managed to do things for him, even when he really should have taken time for himself since he wasn’t feeling well!

 Awww… but, Binghe, do you really think Shen Yuan would not throw himself headfirst into doing things in order to distract himself from whatever was upsetting him?

 Truly, Luo Binghe didn’t deserve him.

You two absolutely deserve each other!!! …in all ways, both good and bad ^_^;; -

And then of course Binghe does his best to make his evening easier, even making comfort foods! 😭 Binghe’s food really is one of their love languages – Binghe gets to provide, and Shen Yuan gets to appreciate and compliment! The sincere enjoyment both have for it!!!

 He smiled at him when he came into view and Luo Binghe’s chest filled with warmth. “Shizun, welcome home.”

Shen Yuan’s smile widened and Luo Binghe loved him so, so much.

Welcome home, Shizun!!! <333333

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It was only after Shen Yuan seemed truly relaxed, about halfway through the osmanthus jelly that Luo Binghe had specially crafted for him, that he tried to get more clarity. “I’m sorry that your visit was difficult, but that occurred in the afternoon. Does A-Yuan not wish to share what ailed him this morning?”

 You can’t distract the protagonist, SQQ! He needs to take care of you!!!

 Shen Yuan froze and Luo Binghe couldn’t help continuing after a moment. “Did… did this Binghe do something to upset you?”

Shen Yuan seemed to stop breathing for a moment and a rock fell in Luo Binghe’s stomach. Oh.

Aww, Binghe, baby!!! It’s- it’s not really your fault! It’ll be okay!!!

 Panic began clawing at his throat. He was trying so hard! What had he done wrong to upset Shen Yuan so much that he couldn’t hide it? He was lucky that he was allowed to still cook for him, let alone sit and talk with him as they had been. How many chances would he have before he screwed up once too many and he lost the chance to be by his side? Would Shen Yuan give someone else a chance to take care of him better than Luo Binghe could?

 It'll be okay!!! Someone help this precious bun stop spiraling into a panic attack!!!!!!

“Binghe, Binghe, stop.” Gentle but firm hands settled on his shoulders and pulled him upright. Luo Binghe dared to look at him and was equal parts surprised and relieved to see concern there.

😭 😭 😭 Don’t be surprised by the concern!!! Of course your Shen Yuan cares about you!!!!

“In truth, I don’t know what to say about how I felt this morning without sounding silly, especially since I’ve had a chance to gain some perspective on it. Yes, it was in relation to something you did but no, it wasn’t your fault.”

Thank you so much, Shang Qinghua!!! …You deserve a raise for all the counseling you’re going to be doing for your new best friend XD …Make him pay you back by editing any future writing :3

“…Why was Binghe so upset just now?” Shen Yuan asked, worry furrowing his brow as he gently wiped away the tears that had escaped his eyes.

Awwwwww…….. 🥲 

Luo Binghe looked down again, embarrassed by his own lack of control now. “This one was also being silly and would rather not say.”

Awwwww, sweetheart……. <3333

“If. If I shared what I was upset over this morning, would Binghe perhaps be more comfortable saying? That way we could both be silly together.”

! Good boy! Smart boy! Communication is the way to go!!!

 Luo Binghe nodded and couldn’t help saying, “I doubt A-Yuan was as ridiculous as he says.”

…Binghe. I adore you, and I know you love him, but - you do know how ridiculous your Shizun is… right?

“Well, I was. Considering how Binghe kissed me last night and feeling bad for relying on him so much. Not because Binghe hasn’t proven himself reliable, but because I was afraid of relying too much on someone who’s going to leave.”

💔

 Luo Binghe stared at him. “A-Yuan, leaving you is not my choice. And I am coming back, after the Abyss. I would always come back for you.”

 I know 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭

 Shen Yuan’s cheeks were filling with red. “…I didn’t know that.”

…but apparently, this ridiculous man didn’t.

 Luo Binghe could do nothing but stare. Nothing safe, anyway. Climbing on top of the other man and kissing him was decidedly not safe.

…pffffft XD

 Luo Binghe blinked and decided that them not touching was no longer tolerable. He reached out to take one of Shen Yuan’s hands and reverently pressed a kiss to the back of his knuckles.

akasjf;l

 He felt a little better after hearing A-Yuan’s (ridiculous, mildly infuriating) insecurities

…Yeah, those aren’t disappearing quite so easily. Better get used to dealing with them ^^;;

“I fear many things, A-Yuan, not the least of which being banished from your side. I know you have… other options in choice of a spouse–“

aasdckkkkk don’t remind him!

 “Huh?”

…because he just plain won’t have a clue what you mean XD XD

“–and that you are interested in me at all has to be the result of lifetimes of good karma. I would hate to see you upset, let alone be the cause of it. Having your regard feels like the greatest gift in the world that I did nothing to earn, and one I fear losing.”

YOU DESERVE HAPPINESS, BINGHE

 “…You thought I would stop caring for you if you upset me?”

“…I’m not sure I was doing so much thinking as feeling at the moment because it sounds unlikely now that you’ve said it.“

I LOVE THESE IDIOTS IN LOVE BLESS THEM BOTH

I mean – these are legitimate feelings to worry over, but-

“More than unlikely, Binghe,” Shen Yuan said gently with a squeeze of his hand. Then, surprisingly, he laughed. “Oh, we’re both so, so stupid. We’re sitting here, worried about the exact same thing!”

  ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ <33333

“Yes! You know, I only have some idea who you might say are my ‘other options’ for a spouse, but I can name at least a couple hundred women who were part of your harem in another timeline?”

…What the fuck? Oh, Luo Binghe didn’t like that at all.

….Yeaaaaah...... You heard that right - a couple hundred.

 “And you know about them, because you read about them and that Luo Binghe…”

…doing the papapa!!!

 Shen Yuan hid his face while saying, “I skipped as much as I could, honestly!

Mmhmm.

But, um. Yes.

XDDDDD

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It’s hard for me to wrap my head around Binghe being satisfied with just one person, let alone that person being me.”

awwwwwwwwwwww – my other baby, let me promise you – he will be!!!!!!

 I don’t think Shen Jiu was capable of it, really. That man should not have been put in charge of teaching let alone the care of children.”

That. Is. Hm. A bit of an understatement.

 “My point is the first version of Binghe I was exposed to was far from perfect and I still cared deeply for him even in the abstract. While you are different, Binghe is Binghe. I have seen you at your worst–a worst that hopefully you never get pushed to in this timeline–and I still choose you.”

HE HAS SEEN ALL OF YOU AND HE STILL CHOOSES YOU HE HAS SEEN YOU AS A MURDEROUS, BLACKENED RULER, AS A PRECIOUS WHITE LOTUS, AS EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN, AND HE LOVES YOU THROUGH IT ALL!!! HE LOVES ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!

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“…A-Yuan, I started loving you more than a week ago.”

“…Thank you?”

asfj;lkajsdf;lkasjf;alkjsdf;lajskd bless your precious little soul

 Luo Binghe sighed at the adorably awkward response. “I started loving you when I thought that you were Shen Jiu. I had seen past the pain I thought you had caused me because of your actions later and had forgiven you enough to love you. You were enough for me to love you at something worst than your worst. How can you still doubt me?”

 DAMN IT I’M CRYING AGAIN STOP DROWNING ME IN SWEETNESS (please continue drowning me) “You were enough for me to love you at something worst than your worst.” I CAN’T EVEN sakdjfa;sldfj 😭 😭 😭

Shen Yuan’s eyes were incredibly wide. “…Oh.”

OH

 Emboldened, Luo Binghe came closer and lightly touched Shen Yuan’s face.

I love their little touches so much ❤️ ❤️

 “That said, I would be honored to know you. I want to know about your world and how you grew up. I want you to feel okay being utterly yourself, even when it doesn’t fit the elegance you project in public. Even though you can’t see me as an adult yet, I do want you to see me as safe to be around. Seeing you as Shen Yuan for the past week has only left me wanting to know more and I am so, so grateful for the privilege. Won’t you let me know you, A-Yuan?”

😭 😭 😭 There’s just- too much in there- I can’t-

 I do want you to see me as safe to be around.

I can’t-

 Seeing you as Shen Yuan for the past week has only left me wanting to know more and I am so, so grateful for the privilege

It’s just-

Won’t you let me know you, A-Yuan?”

😭 😭 😭  ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

They were close, so close and Luo Binghe loved it, lived for it. Shen Yuan’s eyes were dark now and Luo Binghe worked to memorize the exact shade of them in this moment. Mine, he thought. Say you’re mine.

Mine Say you’re mine Be mine forever

 Shen Yuan’s hand came up to touch his and he leaned into Luo Binghe, their foreheads touching and breaths mingling. “Binghe should not kiss this Shen Yuan.”

That’s not a no

 “…Yes.”

HE SAID YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 “Yes to what?”

“Binghe will know me as much as he wants.”

“All of you, then.”

ALL OF EACH OTHER!!!

 Shen Yuan closed his eyes and pulled Luo Binghe into a hug. “I could never punish Binghe for being himself.”

asfdhaskdjhf Huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuug as the bond forms and I try to hold back tears

 Turned out that Luo Binghe’s day was pretty damn great after all.

And so was my day after reading this!!!!!!!!!!!!!! …each and every time I read this!!!!!!

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