#re:start

RE:START !

playing with some of the new characters.

re:start crew.

A quiet study session turns into a serious conversation when Corvus mentions a new friend.

tags: protective friends, sex talk, predatory stranger, questionable situation

Everyone Can Get Hurt

“I have a date after class. Can we do it later?” Corvus asked, never missing a page in his steady and daunting reading speed.

Dreamer looked up, surprised. “A date?”

“Yes. A booked time in my schedule,” he explained the meaning.

Dreamer nodded, glancing around the group. They were at Lincoln’s place for a study session, clustered around the coffee table. Theo was in the big chair on one side and Lincoln was lounging across one side of the couch, Dreamer on the other with their legs tangled in the middle. Theo and Lincoln were both reading, just like Corvus but with highlighters and creased brows and nowhere near his speed or ability to talk at the same time.

“Oh. Okay. Sure, of course,” Dreamer said, pen still hovering over their planner. “What about–”

“What’s the date?” Lincoln asked, interrupting them and still frowning at his textbook.

Could he read and talk at the same time too?

It was hard enough for them to tell Corvus, a friend and objective party, they couldn’t even begin to try tell someone who they don’t know or trust. Dreamer does nottt think highly of themself, is deep in self-loathing and regulalry insults or dismisses themself. Maybe I’m projecting but generally people with that much shame don’t tend to enjoy telling strangers, even if they’re medical professionals, about the ‘shameful’ things that they’ve done or have been done to them. Someone like Dreamer who bottles up their issues isn’t going to be able to stay in a ‘being vulnerable about your deepest darkest secrets and traumas’ situation long.

Not to mention that Latency is just so rare that most of the stuff they’d have to work through would be difficult for any Empowered therapist to really understand. Unlike Lovely, Dreamer has been a part of the Empowered world their whole life. They knew they were Latent, they knew what they were supposed to be and what they ended up not being, they experienced the insecurity of being an outsider in their own community - in their family. Not even a humanborn therapist would be able to understand that (not saying that therapy would have been easy for Lovely as a humanborn latent and vampire attack victim but I feel like it would be easier for a therapist to help someone parcel through because those experiences are more common). Even a D(a)emon therapist wouldn’t work. Dreamer could tell Corvus because he’s so new, he only recently coalesced and doesn’t have the long standing biases or contexts an older D(a)emon (which a therapist would have to be really) would in regard to Latency and the Empowered community. On top of that emotionally unavailable Dreamer doesn’t exactly love that D(a)emons can read their emotions.

Also really loved that when James asked if they’d tried another therapist or if they needed help finding one they immediately get defensive and snappy. They don’t need therapy, they’re not broken or fucked up or crazy, they’re fine. People go through much worse in real life and only the Quinn attack was actually real! Dream magic is just in your head, it’s all fake! It shouldn’t bother them at all! The way James had to preface his asking about therapy with a ‘I don’t think you’re crazy I’m worried you’re in pain’. Ugh. It’s a generally nice thing to do but especially hits for Dreamer who, as discussed, internalises like they’re getting paid for it and probably thinks they’re losing their mind. James has to change the subject because Dreamer’s so offended and insulted by any implication that they might need professional help. I’m glad he’s so patient with them :( they deserve it. James being the one who got them out of the Dreamscape, the one who helped them remember who they actually were, also impacts their reaction I think. In Dreamer’s eyes he’s already seen far too much of them and doesn’t need to see or hear any more of them.

I’m interested to know how all this affects Dreamer’s relationship with their sister. I got the impression she had only recently recovered, mentally or physically, meanwhile on the surface Dreamer is fine and healed. I could be wrong on that but that’s the impression I got from the Anton video since we don’t have a specific timeline for Re:Start. Has she gone to therapy? Does she think Dreamer is still in therapy (that would be fun)? I’m sorry I just need to see more of them. I think their relationship is so sweet and I need to know how it’s holding up in the wake of the attack and PM.

This isn’t super relevant to the therapy discussion but I can’t begin to imagine what it must feel like for Dreamer to constantly be forced to use the magic that they wanted so badly yet brought them so much pain every time they go to sleep. They can’t escape it, no matter what they do. Considering fools!Dreamer likes to let their dreams weave themselves (I’m not gonna talk about N’Dellex because that’s a whole other theory lol), RS Dreamer likely has a tight hold on their Dreams. They don’t let them run out of control, they are in control, they know what’s going on and they won’t let it go off track, their subconscious is locked. But then imagine they have an intrusive thought and something Quinn/Marc/PM slips in… Something that could be worked on in therapy maybe hmmm.

happy make a shit comic day gang!!

So. this is part of a much much bigger dnd oc thing going on, and I promise this isn't how Koe, the bird fellow, normally is. In this he's just after making the biggest mistake of his life for the second time, so hes fucked up about it. theres a much longer conversation after this, but yk, have a page for today!

huge shout to @brewlyallen -

-who is the creator of the wonderful tall unicorn fellow in this! Ambrose is always so much fun to draw =]

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List of CDs

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☆Re:Start Series Completion☆

Sora: "Now that it's finished, let's hang out at a theme park for fun this time! I feel like 'Yayyyy (・∀・)v ♪''" [last time they went to one for work]

Morihito: "Keep up the good work, Sora."

Soushi: "Nice job."

Ren: "Thank you so much for all your wonderful compositions, senpai!"

Nozomu: "It's spring break! Let's actually go to a theme park to commemorate this completion~!"

Sora: "Sounds good!"

#thank you