#rcvan

There was a bemused smile at Alenko’s list of questions. When he’d been led over to a secluded corner in the crew quarters, he wasn’t expecting this.

“I thought I was the one who was supposed to ask the interview questions on the ship?” he chirped, while thinking about the questions posed to him. Honestly, he was relieved the Lieutenant was the one who started this. Revan, despite making a literal living out of asking perfect strangers invasive questions, had drawn a strange sort of reluctance when it came to his fellow L2.

“Gagarin station… I don’t really recall anything tangible about the place. Just… a feeling of dread and… hunger?” He shook his head. “That’s all, I’m sorry.” He turned curious eyes to Alenko. “We were bunk mates?” He turned over that thought in his head. “Were we close?” Revan hesitated a beat then added, “I feel like I don’t want to upset you. Which is weird because I don’t really care about that sort of thing usually, prerequisite for my job and all… I suppose that’s something too.”

despite  the  sudden  clench  in  his  chest,  kaidan  immediately  offered  revan  a  thin,  almost  rueful  smile.   ❝it's  okay.   that's  actually  normal.   as  we  continue,  you  might  feel  more  of  those  impressions,  but  like  i  said,  don’t  force  it.   this ...❞   he  hesitated.   ❝this  won’t  be  easy.   jump  zero  was  a  mess.   we — us,  and  all  the  other  kids,  we  were  all —❞   the  lieutenant  broke  off,  the  abrupt  tightening  of  his  jaw  an  obvious  indication  of  control,  before  the  man  drew  in  a  deep  breath,  silent  for  the  moment  he  stared  down  at  the  glowing  datapad.            we  were  all  messed  up  kids.

damn.      he’d  prepared  all  morning  for  this,  ran  half  a  dozen  phantom  conversations  in  his  head,  each  hunted  for  something  that  felt  close  to  appeasement  yet,  found  nothing  but  the  scrabbling  hope  that  revan  would  simply  remember.      remember  him.

“Sure did! No one can beat my standards! Like programming a killer droid to call everyone ‘meatbag’ just to piss of my apprentice!”

*eyebrow raise* *intrigued look*

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I finally got around to doing this and--of course, I had to pick the saddest fucking song I could think of. But it means a lot to me and everytime I hear it, I think of what must of have going through Kylo’s mind during the bridge scene.

So here’s me singing Darkness by Disturbed (x)

“Why, exactly, would I run?”

“Okay, I took the shot. Your turn.”