#raw reflections

Sunset reflections

A Poem for Anyone Afraid of Growing Old | Ageing Gratefully ~ World Poetry Day...

Every so often I get sucked back into the shit of the world as it is in this moment.,. And it overwhelms me; it consumes me... Like one of those monsters in stranger things... And I feel the weight in my chest the darkness the ugly I think of the neverending story the nothing it's looming, chasing... My heart physical hurts. I cannot find compassion for a white nationalist murdered and am sick at seeing outcry from people who are silent on Gaza, silent for school shootings, who support ice raids and families torn apart...I think of the movie wanted--assassinations of bad guys... But the ripples from that are never good.

I have a burning desire to inspire as much as I can, I continuously preach positivity and self-love because it's something I desperately need, I feed people with affirmations and hope while neglecting my own ability to cope, I foster hate in my mind; a fraud or imposter that is anything but kind, I can't seem to reach the problem in my soul, I'm looking deep but my heart is blind, Practice what you preach, you filthy mind.