#ravijrants

You see this face? In 16 days that face is going to be physically here. With me. Sharing the same space as I am. 2 Months old, short legged, long bodied princess who I must raise to become proper ROYALTY. She will be my sole focus, my inspiration, my support, my muse, my time consumer, my love bug, my motivator, my alarm clock, my sleep depriver, my bouncing bundle of pure energy for about the next 3-4 months and adds the titles of my cardio queen, my furry endorphin supplier, my pick me upper, the thing I will push myself out of bed for every morning.

And unfortunately around that time when I can start leaving her by herself, I may be going to see Ted Lewis again if he comes back for Nostalgia Con in October. So I really need to sit down and FOCUS for the next 2 weeks to get ATLEAST the sanding projects on my table done. Because spray painting, sewing, and other crafts will be easier to accomplish with her around. Spray painting/painting in general is about a 3 min per coat deal and leave it on its own for an hour or two and come back to repeat until you're satisfied. Sewing? I don't see her being an issue, noise might spook or make her curious. The sanding however? I would have to spend 30+ mins outside due to the toxic dust particles these things can shed when you sand and she will be at the age where I won't be able to trust her inside, alone for more than 5 mins.

Getting closer to the end of May and my mood is steadily improving. I hate how from January to end of May my mood on any given day is going to be an absolute gamble. But honestly all the trauma and loss in my life that happened within a 5 month period in 2024 is still kind of fresh and it's probably going to take a while to where it doesn't effect me as badly as it has been since then. However thank you all for being with me. Appreciate it. And thank you for sticking with me when I go nuclear during those months lol....I know it sucks to see and hear my spiral but I've taken steps to mitigate things when it does happen. Such as writing up vent post, publishing it, then deleting it like an hour to half a day later. I don't ever really mean what I say in those posts and I try to tag it appropriately so people know to ignore it and not blow it out of proportion.

Unfortunately some people DO take it and blow it out of proportion like its a Breaking News Alert to everyone, everywhere and this honestly makes the situation for me worse. Please do not do this. It's happened more than twice and I do not appreciate it. If you are that concerned about me, try reaching out to me privately. If you can't reach me for whatever reason right then and there? Wait. Honestly just please fucking wait. 99% of the time my mood will improve after sleep and means of communication will be reopened.

For those that previously followed me, confused as to why you're not anymore? I'm sure you are! I used to have this URL under my primary blog but I've decided to move that URL to a 2ndary blog.

And now without further ado, here's your one stop shop for all you need to know! Born July 20th (I am at least 35+). I'm Ravij; you can call me Rav or Ravi. I like to write, draw, do sound design, animate, game, create, and a whole slew of other things!

And feel this needs to be said because it's apparently happening already:

I AM A BIG HATER OF AI! I AM ANTI-AI! ALL AI IS CRAP! IT IS MY ENEMY! DO NOT INTERACT IF YOU HAVE ANY FORM OF AI GENERATED SHIT IN YOUR PROFILE! It's not "Hybrid" Art even if you draw over to correct it. it's still AI!

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