#rantstuff

My husband has been my biggest supporter since the day we got together, and I'm so blessed to be a stay at home mom for our kiddos while he works. Is it difficult? Yes, some days more than others. Is it worth not having money for yourself? Without a doubt in my mind, yes. You can't buy happiness, but the smiles on my children's faces are absolutely worth the financial sacrifice I took in order to stay home with them. Do I want to go back to work? Someday, when my youngest two are in school... considering I have a 2 year old and a 4 month old, it'll be a few years. Which I'm more than okay with. 🩷

So I don't even know where to begin with this post. The man in the picture with me was my boyfriend. (Yes, that means Cyle and I broke up but I'll get to that later). This man's name was Teddy. I met him through my best friend/roommate, and I honestly think it was a little bit of fate that brought us together. I thought he was attractive from the moment I saw him, even though there was a bit of an age difference between us. He showed me what it was like to be spoiled, to be loved unconditionally, and how I was supposed to be treated. Unfortunately, my relationship with him was short lived. Not because he broke up with me or vice versa... it was because he passed away. I found him on our bedroom floor the night of the second (yes, February), and I haven't been the same since. We had to let him go on the 4th. I will never forget the relationship we had, or how special he made me feel. I honestly feel like I lost my other half. Being without him has turned me into more of a bitter person than I already was. TG, I miss you so much it hurts. I will always love you. Rest easy baby. Until we meet again ♡♡♡♡

I can’t ever say I’m sorry enough... :(

Well, since I haven't posted anything that's not a reblog... I figured I would. I have basically no time to scroll through my dashboard anymore since I started working at Walmart, but I do still look through it occasionally. I'm currently trying to sleep, but my body seems to have other plans. Fair warning; this could get to be a little too much information. On June 24, I had some abnormal cervical cells removed. I had a colposcopy done before that, and those results stated that I needed treatment. Now, I can't have intercourse until July 18, or somewhere after that. On top of that, Aunt Flo decided it was finally time to visit. Which also means I have cramps, and those are ruining my chances of sleep. There's more, but I'm not ready to post all of that. I'm ready for bed. Goodnight all.

So the reason I haven't been posting much on here lately is because I got a new job... it's not in the field of study that I went to school for but it certainly pays more than the substituting job I had. Which means that I quit that one, but I was getting shafted on hours (which sucks if you take cabs everywhere). I'm a cashier now at Walmart (location will not be disclosed yet), and I actually kind of like it except for a few asshole coworkers. I think that happens anywhere you go though. Anyway, I'm still here... kind of, so I'll post when I can! :)